The Sun Eagle

It's my 6 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

I've been an Arsenal fan since 2008. And we finally win the Premier League but lost Champions League.

I closed all of my tabs. Well, most of them.

I'm not discussing religious belief.

I grew up in an evangelical church, it was fun I guess, I didn't know anything else, however now it seems like I missed out on so much, because it was all about vibes and stuff. There was no ritual to it.

It is religion. There should be ritual, symbols, dress codes, standard of music, ways to read the Bible and so forth.

There was never penance, no special rituals on Easter or Christmas, nothing that unites one church to the next one. Self interpretation of the Bible, and everyone had their own.

Not to bash them, but I long for ritual, trinkets, prayer books, methods. Not vibes, because I'm a very low vibes type of person, and feeling stuff isn't something I do.

Evangelical Christianity reminds of those Christian groups who fled Europe to America during the pilgrimage times; anything that deviated from their square beliefs was considered demonic.

There is an irony here. Evangelicals are very judgemental, however they are also the most open and accepting people in the world. That is the best part of growing up in this community. You could be and do whatever you want without getting judged.

Everyone was obviously conservative, however there was acceptance of a lot of lifestyles like homosexuality, feminism, 'immodesty', no gender roles, women leaders and pastors.

Basically, I wish there was more ritual in Evangelical Christianity. I need prayer beads, an altar, a special drink or candle, a prayer book with a timetable of what to pray everyday, oil, wine, special songs - not pop rock music that replaces your boyfriend with God.

Also, beautiful structures. A church could be in a tent and everyone would be happy. I'm not everyone, we need the stained glass windows, and art work, and arches and gargoyles and all of that jazz.

The song the little boys sings - it's about how the pirate lords captured calypso and bound her in human form!!

I wish I was smart, or had the talent, to tell such complicated story in a small short poetic way, and better yet put the words into song.

This movie series, at least the first four, are such a master piece. The world building, the characters, Jack Sparrow, Barbosa, the pirate legends, the supernatural and mystical portrayals of things.

Calypso, Davy Jones, Aztec gold, the Flying Dutchman, mermaids, Caribbean voodoo, fountain of youth: all these mythical elements as well as realism, like the British colonialism, Spanish colonialists, the diversity, the East India companies. It was so perfect.

After watching pirates of the Caribbean, I want to build my house in the style of a ship.

I mainly listen to metalcore, rock and pop music. Sometimes pop punk.

Yeah I get it, I'm basic.

I have to cut down on stuff.

I have way too much makeup that I won't use up in my lifetime.

I have 30 lips sticks or gloss.

So many different pallets.

Also art supplies and stationery.

I'll be working. Again.

Again. Work.

Work Again.

Work

And jokes are made about how the surgeon needs the death penalty.

That sucks. More is to be written on that topic.

Anyways, the point is, I hope to get a breast reduction surgery sometime in the future. I just need to lose some weight first.