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Sa main se serre en un poing quāelle redresse Ć peine. Dans un geste bref et subtil, elle bouge imperceptiblement son poing. Elle pourrait presque entendre son partenaire.
Sa main se serre en un poing quāelle redresse Ć peine. Dans un geste bref et subtil, elle bouge imperceptiblement son poing. Elle pourrait presque entendre son partenaire.
eh, screw it *releases my fucked up vampire au from the confines of my mind*
anyway I decided my blog is for me and I can draw and post all the weird silly concepts of my dreams and nobody can stop me. I actually have a lot of potential comic ideas ping-ponging in my head for this AU ā not a linear story or anything (beyond what's on this post), just some good fun and shenanigans.
i fear if you automatically think the people mad about the finale are just bylers/milevens that are mad that their ship hasn't "won", you are a tremendous part of the problem.
regardless of the ships, the insane amount of plot holes do in fact make it bad writing.
they have had THREE years to prepare this season. they promised us all of our questions would be answered. so why do i have more questions than before????? why is over 75% of the fandom so unsatisfied??????
why have we all had to convince ourselves that there were over 2 hours of scenes cut for the sake of having a last shred of hope for the finale????
people being mad over the ending goes BEYOND shipping wars. FAR beyond shipping wars. and it goes far beyond simple 'queerbaiting' too. will byers having such an ambiguous ending is blatant homophobia, while el having an ambiguous ending is not only an assassination to her character, but misogyny at its finest.
of all characters, why are the two of the most outcasted ones given the least satisfying endings? especially when these two characters are the reason the show has gotten this far in the first place?
when i say i'm mad about the finale, i don't mean i'm mad about byler not happening. that may well be the LEAST of my worries right now. it's what byler not happening represents. especially at this time period.
it's what robin and vickie breaking up off-screen and not getting their date at enzo's represents. it's what will's NON-CONFIRMED bf having no lines represents. it's what steve being in the room every single time eddie is mentioned in season 5 represents. it's what robin and nancy having little to no interactions represents. it's what el and max's lackluster reunion followed by el's claim that only mike has ever understood her represents. it's what the 'lovebirds' joke about steve and jonathan represents because that's all queer ships are to these men. a joke.
but not only queer ships, because once again, el as a character?? jane hopper? being given THAT ending? when she's been suffering from the start? so they decide the best ending for her is to make her suffer even more and follow it up with the slap in the face that was the potential ending she could've had which we know she didn't because it wouldn't make any sense??
it just irritates me how many people are trying to claim that others are just being childish for having negative opinions and conflicted feelings about the finale. because if you thought that THAT was a satisfying ending for EVERY character, please wake up.
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Need more positivity on my dash, so I wanna talk a bit more about how fucking amazing OFMD's writing for its characters of color is!
Now, I'm a professional historian (phd student šš¤š¾) and I read and watch a lot of historical fiction because I love it, right? And I have literally never seen a piece of historical fiction that is so respectful to its characters of color.
Usually, in works of historical fiction that actually bother to include characters of color, they fall into two big camps. The most common one is trauma porn, where poc only exist so White characters can save them, feel sorry about them, or so White audiences can pat themselves on the back for feeling sorry about them. Also popular are works that include characters of color but don't bother thinking about how race impacts their experiences in historical settings (shows like Bridgerton come to mind; they want to include poc but handwave racism). And in general I prefer the latter but it still takes me out of the story.
But OFMD hits just this amazing balance. There are many characters of color, and the racism of the world they live in impacts their experiences and perspectives in realistic ways. Ed remembering how his mom told him that fine things weren't meant for people like him has me by the fucking throat, it's so tied up in race and class and it's the root of so many of Ed's self-image issues into adulthood. But the real kicker for me - poc always get the last laugh in OFMD. Yes, the racism in this show is often very realistic, but this isn't a realistic show at its core and it is so, so comforting to know a character who starts acting like a racist dickhead is a dead man walking.
It's so carefully written, and for me it's such a huge comfort: race in OFMD is never hand-waved away, and it's thought-provoking and realistic and relatable. But the show always feels so safe because we know racism in the show is never excused. They tell us in the pilot that if you start being a racist asshole, someone's gonna stab you. Even Stede, our main character - when he makes a racist assumption in the second episode of the show, the narrative encourages us to call him out for it and has a character directly call him a fuckin' racist! He's held accountable and he fucking grows, because unlearning racist biases is important and he doesn't get a pass because he's the main character!
It's not just that OFMD has a lot of characters of color. It's not just that one of our main romantic leads is an indigenous Jewish man. It's not just that characters of color are consistently depicted as smart, clean, competent, and respected. It's that the show respects them enough to think about how racism realistically shapes the world of OFMD, while at the same time providing viewers with a wonderful fantasy of racists getting what they deserve. In the genre of historical fiction, it stands out because it completely avoids the trauma porn and hand-wavey angles, and I can't articulate strongly enough how much I appreciate that.
y/n doesn't know how to be petty & jealousy is not a good look on jimin
āŗĀ pairing; park jimin x reader // balletteacher!jimin x ballerina!y/n
āŗĀ genre; balletteacher!jiminiverse!! i think thereās a fairly good balance of honk honk humour and angst and fluff in here but i could be wrong!! seulgi (once again) is a pot-stirrer and you can either love her or hate her for it!! jungkookās cute and is a really good dance partner!!Ā
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āŗĀ summary; surprisingly enough, both y/n and jimin are great at acting unaffected by their devastating breakup ā itās only when theyāre reunited two weeks later in class that their nonchalant, callous composures begins to crack.
āŗĀ what to expect; āi just think the respectable move is to wait until weāre done learning, mr. park. or would you like to continue wasting everyoneās time by singling out jungkook and i just because youāre clearly in a sour mood for no reason and seem to be enjoying using us as your emotional punching bags?āĀ
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the feeling of your phone buzzing rapidly against the mattress is the thing that rouses you from yet another restless night of sleepĀ
you kept waking up every few hours and every time you woke up youād be awake for at least another hour before dozing back offĀ
youāre pretty sure you fell asleep close to six in the morning and according to the clock on your bed stand itās already 1:30 but somehow you still feel so, so groggy despite getting seven and a bit hours of sleepĀ
you peel an eye open reluctantly, staring at the bright vibrating rectangle for a few seconds before you drag your arm up lazily to grab it because something crazy must be happening if the group chat is chirping away like thisĀ
youāve had your phone on do not disturb for the past week (except for the few times lisa clearly hit the ānotify anywayā button to get your attention) so youāve kind of been out of the loop but being present and a functioning member of society isnāt exactly the first thing on your mindĀ
people are right when they say time just melds together when youāre going through a breakup because you honest to god do not even know what day of the week it isĀ
āokay, whatās going onā¦ā you mutter to yourself, voice thick with sleep as you roll over onto your back and bring your phone up to your face to unlock itĀ
it takes you a couple of tries to get into your phone because of how bright the screen is and you curse before resorting to typing in your passcode with fumbling fingers insteadĀ
you havenāt been on your phone too much because⦠well, youāve just not really been in the mood to do anything but rot in bed all day with the curtains drawn ā and not to mention, every time youāre on your phone youāre just waiting for a text or a call or literally anything from jimin but unsurprisingly itās been complete silence on his end
youāve mostly been ordering takeout and also youāre pretty sure you went the whole day without drinking water yesterday, so all in all, it doesnāt seem like youāre handling this very wellĀ
what makes things worse is that you have class today and itāll be approximately a week since you last saw jimin and the two of you officially ended things and seven days is simply not enough recovery time ā you havenāt even accepted the fact that you can no longer call him your boyfriend and that you have to call him your ex-boyfriend now (and teacher, but itās not like thatās anything new)
i think we should end things permanently, because i want to be in a real relationship instead of whatever the fuck this has been.Ā
jiminās words ring loudly in your head and you feel your eyes starting to well with tears for the trillionth time in a row as you mindlessly scroll through all the notifications that have been marinating on your phone for the past seven daysĀ
the only thing youāve been able to focus on is replaying that last conversation with jimin in your head and itās driving you up the wall
i never said i was ashamed to be with you, jimin.Ā
you never had to say it for me to see it.Ā
āgodā¦ā you mutter, reaching up to pinch the bridge of your nose in a poor attempt to stop the tears from flowingĀ
you havenāt been able to stop thinking about jimin and what makes it harder is the fact that you canāt talk about this with anyone without exposing yourself and jiminĀ
and as much as you love lisa, you know that if you told her she would of course be concerned about you but would also have a million questions for you and youāre just not in the mood for an interview at the momentĀ
another thing youāve been thinking a lot about is what wouldāve happened if you grabbed the phone and called lisa when jimin told you to call your friends and tell them the truth
would he have stayed?Ā
was that really the proof that he needed to show him that you wanted to be with him?Ā
would that have fixed everything?
youād still have to hide your relationship ā the only difference that telling your friends would make is that mr. park would be accused of playing favourites and knowing a few of the chatterboxes in class, word would spread very fast and it probably wouldnāt take long until you get an email from the dean asking you and jimin to come and speak to himĀ
and then either jimin would get fired or youād be expelled and both those options sound like hellĀ
with that being said, wasnāt it an incredibly unfair move on jiminās part to ask you to do that for him?Ā
what if youād asked him to call the dean to tell him that you two were together?Ā
given the circumstances, wouldnāt jimin be hesitant to do it as well???Ā
well, you suppose in your scenario itās a little less high stakes because youād just be telling a close friend, but still⦠you did the right thing, didnāt you?Ā
it was irresponsible of both you and jimin to enter into a romantic relationship when you guys are teacher and student, and you had to put an end to it before the truth eventually came out and tore the two of you apart
this was the right thing to doĀ
now jimin can continue teaching, and you can continue learning at this very prestigious dance academy that you worked very hard to get intoĀ
plus mom and dad would probably kill you if you got expelled over something as scandalous as this
sometimes doing the right thing feels bad! and itās okay that you feel very, very bad at the moment, because feeling bad is just a normal part of the human experience. Ā
you let out a huff of frustration, rolling onto your back as you look up at the ceilingĀ
ā¦but how do you know if you did the right thing or not?Ā
you let out a slow exhale, shaking your head as you bring your phone back up to look through all your texts
you canāt help but wince a little looking through all your missed notifications throughout the week
most of your texts are from lisa and you know sheās going to want some kind of an explanation of your disappearanceĀ
from: lisa [wednesday 9:08am] ā are you okay? barely heard from you all weekĀ
from: lisa [thursday 6:23 pm] āĀ ??Ā
from: lisa [friday 10:32am] ā y/nĀ
from: lisa [friday 11:02am] ā helloooooo some kind of indication you are alive pleaseĀ
from: lisa [friday 8:14pm] ā okay well youāre still sending me tiktoks so ik youāre aliveĀ
your thumb goes tired from scrolling through all of lisaās texts and you finally reach the end to see that she texted you a few minutes agoĀ
from: lisa [1:22pm] ā are you coming to class today?Ā
your fingers pause slightly as you think about how to respond and how to act casually about the fact that youāve been a ghost for the last weekĀ
to: lisa [1:34pm] ā yes!! iām comingĀ
to: lisa [1:34pm] ā SORRY i havenāt been responding to your texts, social batteryās been weirdly low and feeling blegh bc period but iāll see you today mwahahaĀ
unsurprisingly, lisa doesnāt take too long to respond because sheās always on her phone and itās never on do not disturb-Ā
from: lisa [1:35pm] ā hmmmm okayyy hope youāre feeling a little better at least? just glad ur alive! iāll see u later ALSO read the group chat bc omg iām deadĀ
from: lisa [1:35pm] ā mr. park
your stomach dips a little in anxiety at the mention of mr. park because the point of looking through your texts was to distract yourself from any thoughts of jimin, but then again, why are you surprised? the girls are obsessed with him and heās always a hot topic in the group chatĀ
one time he showed up to class wearing a pair of jeans that made his butt look really good and it was a topic in the group chat for like a week and a half straightĀ
you switch over to look through the group chat, scrolling up the literal hundreds of texts until you get to whatās clearly the meat of the conversationĀ
seulgi [best ballerinas š¤] ā You guys arenāt going to believe what I heard
seulgi [best ballerinas š¤] āĀ Rmb how I said Iām pretty sure Miss Im and Mr Park are like meant to beĀ
seulgi [best ballerinas š¤] ā Apparently they were out on a date this weekend
lisa [best ballerinas š¤] ā wtffff NO WAYYY wait whereād u hear it fromĀ
seulgi [best ballerinas š¤] ā One of the guys from Miss Imās classĀ
seulgi [best ballerinas š¤] ā He slid into my DMs after their performance š š¼ as he should š š¼ and then we were texting for a bit and he just told me that he saw them walking around downtown together lmfaooooo I totally called itĀ
you donāt even bother reading the rest of the messages but through your frantic scrolling you manage to catch a message from seulgi teasing you directly about losing your precious mr. park and- āoh, just give me a break!ā you groan obnoxiously, tossing your phone aside before flipping onto your stomach and letting out a muffled scream into your pillowĀ
great!
good for them!
good for jimin, good for nayeon, good for the happy couple! youāll have to make sure to ask jimin if youāre allowed to bring a plus-one to their wedding and what colour they want to paint the nursery for the child theyāre going to have whoāll undoubtedly be the cutest baby on the goddamn planet-Ā
the thought of playing hooky and calling in sick so you donāt have to go to class crosses your mind briefly, but then you remember that in order to do that, youād have to call mr. park to let him know (one time, lisa asked jisoo if she could let him know that she wouldnāt be in class because of a bad cold, and both lisa and jisoo ended up getting mildly scolded because why are you asking your classmate to talk to me for you, and why are you talking to me on behalf of your classmate?) and needless to say, the last thing you need is to talk to jimin and pretend like the only problem you have is that youāre not feeling well and you donāt think you can come to class todayĀ
and not to mention, with this new piece of information of him and miss im going out on a date over the weekend, you donāt want him thinking that he won the breakup because youāre so heartbroken that the only thing you can do in stay in bed and cry (even though technically thatās what youāve been doing all weekend, but whatever) ā as heartbroken as you are, youāre just as stubborn so you will be going to class and youāre going to try your absolute best to keep it together⦠you have to.
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jimin splutters after splashing icy, ball-shrivelling cold water onto his face, blindly fumbling for the towel in his duffle bag before using it to pat himself offĀ
he looks at himself in the mirror, leaning closer and reaching up with a finger to pull at the bags under his eyes
the last time he had bags this bad was when he would stay up all night rehearsing for his own examsĀ
thereās not enough concealer in the world to hide the bags he has nowĀ
needless to say, this breakup has completely destroyed him and this is the first time he actually has no idea to conduct himself after ending things with someoneĀ
heās had flings and short relationships all throughout high school, undergrad, and even at the academy, and it usually only takes him a few weeks to fully flush his ex out of his system, but he can already tell that this breakup is nothing compared to those onesĀ
sure, he was sad after his breakup with nayeon and couldnāt even force himself to get over her for much longer than heād anticipated, but that was then and this is now ā and now, he can fully say that the breakup with you is one of the most devastating things to ever have happened to himĀ
heās been so out of it all week that he even ordered pizza for himself on friday night instead of digging into his usual meal of [insert choice of lean protein here], roasted vegetables and brown rice⦠a family sized pizzaĀ
a family sized pizza!!! a pizza for an entire family!!Ā
the only time he went out this week was saturday afternoon when nayeon texted him to ask him if he wanted to go out for coffee and also to discuss what they wanted to do for their conjoined class todayĀ
and to be honest, jimin barely remembers what they talked about that day and heās hoping that nayeon will carry them both through todayās class because mr. park is just not mentally here at the momentĀ
to be honest heād kind of been dreading coming to class (can you blame him?) and he considered calling in sick and cancelling class today, but if he cancelled today, thatād mean heād have to have an extra makeup class next week and- well, he canāt avoid seeing you foreverĀ
itās just that he doesnāt even know if he can look you in the eye after you basically showed him that you donāt want to be with himĀ
itās embarrassingĀ
heās heartbroken and humiliated and hurt and youāre basically the only thing thatās been on his mind this whole weekĀ
admittedly it was a little selfish of him to demand you to call your friends to tell them that you were dating him
it was an unfair move on his part and he knows he acted out of emotion, but⦠well, he just wished that you fought harder to keep him, thatās allĀ
and itās true that he always felt like you were slightly embarrassed to be with him ā he was never afraid to hold your hand in public and act like a normal couple but it was always a little upsetting to turn and see you cowering down or hiding behind a pair of sunglasses or baseball hat or something to conceal your identityĀ
he knows that you only did it to protect the both of you from being exposed, but you didnāt have to hide yourself all the timeĀ
you guys couldnāt even go to restaurants without you quietly requesting for a table at the very back to avoid being seen by anyone passing byĀ
maybe this breakup was for the best, now that heās had a week to think about itā¦
sure, his relationship with you was one of the best heās ever had and heās pretty sure heās head over heels in love with you and would 100% say it back if you said it to him, but hey! heāll get over it one dayĀ
youāre his student, heās your teacher ā it was inappropriate from the start and it was irresponsible of him to pursue anything with you, so this breakup was a good thingĀ
it never wouldāve worked out in the end, and itās better that it ended sooner or later
this was just a lesson from the universe that he had to learn, and yes, it was a very hard lesson, but heās always been good at learning and heās just going to take this as a sign to not get involved with another one of his students ever again!
it was silly of him to think that it would ever work out in the first place, anyway, so if anything, he should be able to move on and move on fastĀ
easy peasyĀ
āeasy fuckinā peasy.ā jimin clears his throat quietly, running his damp fingers through his hair as he looks at his reflection in the mirror from side to side, āiām park fuckinā jimin. top of my class, aced all my exams, youngest and most sought after teacher at this academy,ā he puffs his chest out slightly, nodding to himself as he feels his confidence coming back to him
heās mr. park, he knows heās hot shit!Ā
he doesnāt need you to feel complete
he doesnāt need you at all
he hears the voice in his head let out a laugh of disbelief followed by an all-knowing alright, keep lying to yourself if this is how youāre planning on coping with this breakup and immediately shuts it out before bending down to grab his duffle bag, swinging it over his shoulder before putting a pair of thick-rimmed, square framed glasses onĀ
he forget to order more of his contacts over the weekend so heāll have to wear his stupid dorky ass glasses today (the memory of you telling him how much you love it when he wears his glasses flashes in his mind and he shuts it out as best as he can, but the thought of getting you flustered today in class with these glasses makes the corner of his mouth twitch in a cocky smirk.)Ā
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āwow, look whoās alive!ā you jolt in surprise when lisa slings an arm around you from behind, leaning her head against yours with a grin as the two of you continue walking towards the main doors, āperiod cramps are brutal this month, hey?āĀ
āyeah, itās been- ha, not great, you know how it is-ā you press your lips together in a tight smile as you pop your airpods back into the case so you can give your friend your full attention, āsorry i⦠barely texted you all throughout the week, iāve just- um-ā you clear your throat quietly, pausing for a second to think about what excuse to give lisa
you feel awful for lying to her about all of this because you know that lisa would never be upset or angry with you and is only here to help you because sheās your friend, but still⦠the wound is a little fresh at the moment so lying will have to doĀ
because if you rip this bandaid off right now and she gives you that sympathetic head tilt and shoulder droop and big sad eyes combo, you are 100% not going to be able to make it through this class without completely losing your mind and you are certainly not about to burst into tears in front of your classmatesĀ
āyouāve just what?ā lisa nudges your side to get your attention and you look over at her, your mouth still hanging open with no fake excuse sitting on the tip of your tongueĀ
youāve never really been good at thinking of things on the spot
youāve also never been good at lying so thereās that to consider as wellĀ
āi just⦠i donāt know! weird mood. one of those weeks, you know?ā you shrug weakly, lisaās brow raising slightly before she purses her head and nods slowlyĀ
āno, thatās okay! i was just worried about you, thatās all. but you⦠know you can talk to me about anything, right?ā she holds the door open for you and you offer her a meek smile, swallowing the lump in your throat as the two of you head towards the changing roomsĀ
āyeah, i know.ā you respond quietly, choosing not to say anything else after that even though you know youāre acting very suspicious and you have a feeling lisa knows youāre hiding something from herĀ
āyou excited for class today?ā she changes the subject swiftly and you immediately nod even though you have no idea whatās happening in class today, āiāve been buzzing about it all week. miss imās boys are so fine.āĀ
ātheyāre- oh, we have the, uh- theyāre coming to our class today, right? weāre, like, pairing up with them or something like that, right?ā you clear your throat, opening your locker door up before sitting down on the bench to take your sneakers off, āyeah, theyāre all very nice to look at. that jungkook guy is nice, i follow him on instagram.āĀ
āoh, jungkook is- mmph-ā you canāt help but giggle when lisa bites her fist, āheās more than very nice to look at. you should ask him out. he was making googly eyes at you at mr. park and miss. imās performance.āĀ
the reminder of that night immediately kills the vibe and you feel your mood drop, but you focus on taking your socks off instead of thinking about i think we should end things permanently, because i want to be in a real relationship instead of-
the sound of lisaās locker door slamming shut snaps you out of it and you turn to see that sheās already fully dressed and ready to go with her water bottle in one hand and her phone in the other, āyou want me to wait for you?āĀ
āyou can go in first! iāll be a while, i-ā you look down at yourself and your sweatpants, letting out a breath because youāre already exhausted and changing into a leotard is no easy feat, āi still have to change and then i have to pee and stuff, but iāll see you in there.āĀ
as soon as lisa leaves, you feel yourself slump as you lean over with your elbows on your knees, your mind immediately spacing outĀ
you are not mentally here right now and you donāt know how youāre about to go through a two hour class where the main thing you have to do is focus otherwise you get in trouble for itĀ
āitās a guy.āĀ
you immediately perk up when you realise you arenāt alone and you turn to look over your shoulder, your brows knitting together in confusion as you blink up at seulgi before looking back down at your duffle bag quickly and pretending like you were in the middle of going through it, āwhat are you talking about? and how the hell did you get in here so quietly??āĀ
āitās a guy. am i right?ā seulgi sighs, ignoring your second question (though you are genuinely curious how she managed to come in without you noticing, or maybe youāre just really really checked out that you didnāt notice her at all) and plopping herself down on the bench next to you before crossing one leg over the other and crossing her arms over her chest, āthatās why youāve been acting so off all week.āĀ
āwhat are you on about?ā you snort, though you canāt help but think to yourself how true it is that women are very intuitive when it comes to pretty much anything but especially when it has something to do with menĀ
and seulgi is the best at figuring things out ā especially when it comes to things that are literally none of her business like this!Ā
āyouāve been weirdly civil with me over text when you usually bite back with something.ā she raises her chin slightly, her gaze never leaving your face, āyou never just sit there and take it.āĀ
your eyes flicker slightly and you find yourself unable to look seulgi in the eye for more than two seconds before looking away, and you feel the hairs on the back of your neck prickle when she gives you that one look that screams iām not going to stop pestering you until you tell me what drama youāre swept up inĀ
āwhat makes you think that me being civil has something to do with guy problems?ā you blurt out, your cheeks starting to grow pink out of anxiety because now you know that seulgiās onto you, āalso, we rarely text and talk outside of class except for when weāre out with the other girls for brunch or something. why do you care about my texting style all of a sudden?āĀ
āwell, you didnāt deny anything.ā seulgi points out, and your hand immediately freezes in your bag upon the realisation that yeah, you didnāt deny anything and seulgi is definitely onto you and is also definitely right because you definitely are going through guy problems right nowĀ
but how much can you trust seulgi? you havenāt even told lisa who is arguably your best friend in the class and also the entire world
āwe arenāt friends, seulgi. you donāt have to pretend like you care.ā you mutter, voice wavering slightly as your eyes begin to brim with tears because this is the first time someoneās asked you if youāre okay in person and clearly youāre an emotional wreck if seulgi is the one asking and itās making your eyes tear upĀ
keep it together, keep it together, keep it together, you remind yourself, chewing on the inside of your cheek as you pull your leg warmers on and quickly reach up to wipe a rogue tear away before seulgi sees you cryingĀ
āso it is a guy.ā seulgi hums, nodding her head to herself before clicking her teeth, āknew it. is it someone we know? was it a hookup? long time situationship? did he ghost you? have you been secretly dating someone this whole time and you just got dumped by them?āĀ
all the blood drains from your face as you turn your head to look at seulgi with wide eyes (nearly snapping your neck in the progress), your lips parting before you quickly shut then and turn back to pull your slippers onĀ
seulgiās eyes widen before she blinks rapidlyĀ
no wayĀ
this whole time youāve been dating someone?!Ā
to be honest seulgiās always thought you were a massive prude who would crumble at the sight of a couple holding hands in public so this is actually a pleasant surprise for herĀ
āno fucking way!ā seulgi delivers a harsh slap to your shoulder and you press your lips together, your eyes fluttering shut because fuck, the jig is up and now you have to confess to your sins to someone who cannot be farther away than good and holy, āoh my god. y/n y/l/n, you sneaky, sneaky girl. who?!āĀ
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āare those new leg warmers?ā lisa looks over at you as you stretch beside her, and you look down at your brand new (grey, with little thunderclouds on them) leg warmers before nodding, āyet another pair for your already extensive collectionā¦ā
āwell, what can i say?ā you chuckle, reaching down to smooth them down a little before shrugging, āi wasnāt gonna get them, but retail therapy always makes you feel better when youāre feeling like shit.ā you blurt out, looking up slightly when you realise that saying retail therapy implies that something happened in which you need to make yourself feel betterĀ
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āretail therapy? what on earth bugged you so much that you needed to buy something?ā lisa snorts, pulling her hair up into a ponytail in the mirrorĀ
āprobably just dealing with the fact that she knows sheāll never be as good of a dancer as i am.ā seulgi butts in, letting out a sigh before shaking her head, āitās okay, y/n. not all of us were meant for the stage.ā
āthank you for the reminder, seulgi. you keep me humble.ā you joke, giving her a soft smile and acknowledging her attempt at a distraction with a little nod ā you ended up telling seulgi absolutely everything in the changing rooms (but not before triple checking that nobody was around to listen, because that wouldāve been a disaster for sure) because⦠well, it was killing you having to hold everything in! and seulgi, believe it or not, was willing to lend an ear and actually listen for a change instead of blabbing her mouth off like the know it all she isĀ
much to your surprise, seulgi told you that she wouldnāt tell anyone about this (to be perfectly honest, seulgi thinks it was kind of sick of you to break the rules and date your own teacher, because itās very unlike y/n y/l/n to do something as taboo as that⦠she has a newfound sense of respect for you because she would probably also do the same thing if she was in your position because who in their right mind wouldnāt launch themselves full speed at the chance to date mr. park?? but sheāll never tell you that because she knows it would go to your head and you would try to become best friends with her and sheās pretty sure that your relationship works better when youāre frenemies who are constantly trying to one-up each other.)Ā
ātheyāre a little⦠gloomier than what you usually getā¦ā lisa giggles, reaching over to jab a finger into one of the thunderclouds, āstill cute, though! and it matches the weather.ā you turn to glance out the window, frowning at the sight of the dark grey clouds hanging in the air as the the windows tremble from the weight of chubby raindrops smacking against it rhythmicallyĀ
the weather for the past week has been absolutely dreadful and definitely hasnāt made you feel any better, but you have to admit that it was kind of relaxing laying in bed all day listening to the sound of the rainĀ
āwell, the weather is shit, but what makes me feel better is knowing that in a few minutes this room is going to flooded in an ocean of hot testosterone-ā lisa wraps her arms around herself before shimmying her shoulders with a squeal, āarenāt you guys excited?! i donāt know why you arenāt more excited that we basically get a free pass to flirt with boys for the next two hours-āĀ
āiāve got my eye on seokjin,āĀ ailee chimes in, āgod, i would climb him like a goddamn tree.āĀ
āyou know whoās actually built like a tree? kim namjoon. you seen those thighs of his?āĀ
āwell, iām gonna see if i can get paired with hoseok ā iāve seen him dance, heās super good. he does hip-hop too, the man can do it all-āĀ
āyoongi and i already spoke last time so iām pretty sure weāre gonna hook up in class and also out of class-āĀ
āyou guys just stay away from taehyung, because iāve been eyeing him for so long-āĀ
āy/n, what about you?ā you feel lisa nudge your back with her foot and you spin around on your bum to face the group, āwell, i donāt think i need to ask you who you want to be paired up with.āĀ
āyou seem to be convinced that jungkook was making googly-moogly eyes at me but iām telling you that he was just being friendly-ā
āoh, well- yes, jungkook was definitely making googly-moogly eyes at you and iām pretty sure heās going to try to get paired up with you so donāt even worry about that- i was talking about mr. park!ā
āwh- what?ā your eyes widen slightly and you let out a nervous laugh, āi- what- what makes you think that i- why would i get paired up with mr. park?? thatās not even- thatās not even allowed, i donāt think a student is allowed to be paired up with a teacher for an exercise like this-ā
āwhy are you getting all flustered??ā lisa laughs, reaching over to pinch your thigh, āoh my god, i was just teasing you because of the fat crush you have on mr. park, iām not actually saying youāre going to get paired up with him, dummy-āĀ
āeven if y/n was paired up with mr. park, sheād probably clomp all over his feet.ā seulgi snorts, ābesides, she- oh, shit-ā she immediately gets up and you turn to see jimin walk into the room, muscle memory forcing you up from the ground so you can stand with your feet in third position with your hands behind your back next to seulgiĀ
you feel your heart racing in your chest as the familiar smell of his cologne wafts past you and you immediately look down when he walks past you
you just hope that no one can hear how hard your heart is pounding because you wouldāve appreciated some kind of warning before jimin came into the roomĀ
youāre just going to keep your head down and stay in the back of the class for this lesson, and then youāre going to slip out with the girls at the end of class as quickly as you canĀ
āgood afternoon, ladiesā¦ā jimin greets lowly as he makes his way towards the front of the room, his voice slightly raspy from the complete lack of sleep heās gottenĀ
he drops his duffle bag on the ground as he looks out at the godawful weather, frowning slightly because no oneās responded to him and he thought he taught you guys better than that! it seems like two weeks without class has turned you girls a little sloppyā¦
āi said, good afternoon, ladiesā¦ā jimin tries again, emphasising his tone before turning around swiftly with a tilt of his head, leaning back against the counter with toned arms crossed over his chest, āwhatās the matter, you guys forget your manners?ā
āgood afternoon, mr. park!ā everyone fumbles to respond to his greeting, and you find yourself barely mumbling out a barely coherent āafternoonā before continuing to stand in your spot obedientlyĀ
āā¦alright, jesus, i donāt know what the hell that was-ā jimin scoffs, shaking his head with a mild expression of disgust on his face, āmaybe itās a good thing miss im and her students are coming over today so you can see how proper students are supposed to act!ā he claps his hands together before reaching into his back pocket for his phone, āmiss im will be leading the class today, iām just gonna be hanging around the back as her co-teacher, but please do your best and try not to embarrass me in front of her students. she just texted me and let me know that sheāll be here on time, so just continue warming up until they get hereā¦āĀ
āsomeone woke up on the bitchy side of bed this morning. what do you think his problem is?ā lisa mutters to you as the class disperses back into doing warm-up exercises, and you shrug with one shoulder and plop back down on the groundĀ
āi bet i know.ā seulgi snorts, and you shoot her a warning look before she smirks and sends a blowing kiss in your directionĀ
you turn your head slightly to look over your shoulder, surprised to see jimin looking right at you before his eyes flicker and he quickly turns and looks down at his phone insteadĀ
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ānow, the purpose of todayās class is just to familiarise yourself with dancing with a partner ā after all, itāll be one of the things you have to do during your exams at the end of the semester!ā nayeon chirps, standing tall with her clipboard held close to her chest, āmr. park and i were dance partners, as you know⦠itās also important to develop a bond with the person youāre partnered with. if thereās no bond, thereās no trust, no warmth, no chemistry, and all of that will be visible on stage through your dancing, so i cannot emphasise how important it is to really strengthen the connection you have with one another.āĀ
āwell, thereās more than one way to do that-ā taehyung mutters, the class breaking into a collection of snorts and giggles before going silent again when jimin gives them one of his signature unimpressed death glaresĀ
heās barely spoken a word since nayeon and her boys came into the class ten minutes ago because thatās how mentally checked out he isĀ
itās actual torture having to be here with you standing across the room as if he doesnāt have a million questions lined up and ready to goĀ
were you just lying when you said you loved him? did you know he was awake? did you do it on purpose to get him to become more attached to you??? did you date him so that you would be chosen for the nutcracker at the end of the year?!Ā
he made brief eye contact with you earlier (he was staring at the back of your head and wasnāt expecting you to turn and look back at him) and he swore he was going to start tearing up when the two of you locked gazes which is why he had to look away so quicklyĀ
āiāve paired you up randomly, so iām just going to read your names off my list. when you hear your name, pair up with your partner and stand to the left side of the room and wait quietly until everyoneās been paired up,ā nayeon clears her throat, looking down at her list, ālisa and taehyung, jisoo and seokjin, seulgi and namjoonā¦āĀ
jimin resists the urge to blow his cheeks out and roll his eyes out of complete boredom as he stands next to nayeon with his arms behind his back, occasionally glancing down at her list to see how many people still have to be paired up
ā-y/n and jungkook-āĀ
he immediately perks up at the mention of your name, eyebrows furrowing when itās followed by jungkookās name because what the hell does nayeon mean by y/n and jungkook??Ā
āoh, uh-ā jimin nudges nayeonās arm, āyou- you paired y/n up with jungkook? we, uh, did we⦠did we talk about that, orā¦?āĀ
āwhat do you mean? i asked you if you had any preferences for partners and you told me to sort them out, donāt you remember?ā nayeon whispers, using the tip of her pen to trace a line down her page before tapping right next to your name and jungkookās name, āplus y/nās clearly your strongest student, and jungkook is mine, so iād like to see how they work together. i think theyāll work out quite well, they already seem to be pretty friendly with each otherā¦ā
āy/n and jungkook.āĀ
you look up when you hear your name being called and you immediately look over at jungkook, offering him a shy smile when he beams and starts to make his way over to youĀ
what a pleasant surprise!
you actually really like jungkook ā sometimes he sends you memes on instagram or heāll swipe up and respond to your stories, so the two of you have interacted more than a handful of times and you think heās a pretty solid guyĀ
and youād be lying if you said he wasnāt handsome (and it kind of gives you an ego boost knowing that he might have a teensy weensy crush on you)
āpst- make him jealous.ā you hold back a yelp when seulgi suddenly burrows her fingers into your side and you turn to glare at herĀ
āwhat?ā
āmake. him. jealous.ā she enunciates through gritted teeth, eyes flickering over to jimin before she looks over at a smiley jungkook, ānothing wrong with being a little petty.āĀ
āwhat- iām not going to make him jealous, thatās not going to solve anything-ā
āit wonāt solve anything, but would it be so wrong to have a little fun to make yourself feel better?āĀ
āseulgi, i donāt like being petty and- hi!ā you turn your head and greet jungkook with a bright smile, letting out a chuckle afterwards, ānice to see you again.ā
ālikewise! iām glad we got paired up.ā he nods, standing a little closer to you as the two of you return your attention to the front where miss. im is in the middle of giving her tips for the girlsĀ
ātry not to help your partner! you kinda just have to trust them ā i know itās very tempting because you know the combination and you know what step comes next, but the best thing to do is to just keep a strong core and focus on yourself! that way, your partner can- you know, kind of put you where you need to go. so, what weāre going to have you do for this exercise is, girls, youāll make up a short combination, tell your partner what that is, and then immediately perform it on the spot.ā miss. im turns to look at jimin, āso, mr. park, do you have any tips for the boys?ā
āuh, i meanā¦ā jimin purses his lips slightly, āuse your palms, not your fingers. it wouldnāt feel good for your partner to have your fingers digging into their ribcages especially. also, youāll be able to have more control when youāre using your palms instead of lifting with your fingers. just, uh⦠yeah, trust in your partner.ā he nods, looking over at nayeon to signal that he has nothing more to add
god, he really is out of it todayĀ
āany volunteers?ā nayeon purses her lips as she looks around the class, not surprised to see that majority of you are avoiding eye contact with her (it is pretty intimidating dancing with all of your peers looking at you and judging every move, but itās something that all of you will have to do eventually), āalright, then iāll have to choose, since no one is taking the initiative.ā she chirps, smacking her palm flat against her clipboard before turning to look right over at you and jungkook, ājungkook, y/n ā would you like to come up here and demonstrate for the rest of the class?āĀ
you feel the hairs on your arm prickle in anxiety as you stand there for a second in silence, both you and jungkook exchanging glances before you turn back to look at miss im with a meek smile, āah- yes, miss im.ā
you were expecting everyone to break out and scatter around the room instead of immediately performing in front of the class, but you suppose everyoneās already warmed up and ready to goā¦Ā
ābepetty.ā seulgi coughs quietly, and you turn to see jungkook holding his hand out for you to take
āshall we?ā he grins, clearly very confident in your guysā ability to impress the whole class with your little routine, ādonāt worry miss im, y/n and i will try our best not to completely amaze you with our routine, but no promisesā¦ā jungkookās comment gets a couple of laughs and you giggle lightly before taking his hand and letting him lead you to the frontĀ
āthatās easy for you to say, iām the one who has to come up with the routine-ā you add on, the corner of your mouth lifting in a knowing smirk when jungkook lets out a laugh and a nodĀ
his hand feels quite warm in yours and your eyes widen a little when you feel his thumb rub over your skin soothingly
ādo your best!ā miss im smiles, flicking the main lights off and turning the spotlight ones on as you guys get to the front, āy/n, what combination will you two be demonstrating for your peers?āĀ
ah, shit
āiā¦.ā youāve never been good at thinking of things on the spot, and you canāt help but look over at jimin for a split second who seems to be shooting daggers right at jungkook as he stands leaning against the wall by the door, his arms crossed over his chest and his tongue poking against the inside of his cheek before he clears his throat quietly and rubs his lips together a couple of timesĀ
his eyes are lidded slightly and to be honest, if looks could kill, jungkook would be bleeding out on the floor right about now and you canāt help but feel a little pleased at the obvious fact that jimin doesnāt like that you were paired up with jungkook and definitely doesnāt like the fact that miss im chose you and jungkook to demonstrate in front of the classĀ
āy/n?ā jungkook elbows you slightly to get your attention and you clear your throat before standing up a little straighter, sorting through all the moves that you know and trying your best to come up with a quick routine on the spot
lisa shoots you a thumbs up from the audience and you clear your throat quietly, taking a few steps back and waiting for your cue as miss im lowers the spotlights slightlyĀ
the last thing you see before the lights dim is jiminās furrowed brows and clenched jaw and you press your lips together in order to suppress a grinĀ
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āwonderful job, you two. impeccable!ā nayeon claps her hands gently along with the rest of the class, a proud smile on her face as she nudges jimin with her elbow, āsee, whatād i tell you? the two of them fit together like two puzzle pieces, donāt you think?āĀ
āyep.ā jimin licks over his front teeth in irritation when he notices the way jungkookās hand lingers on the small of your back (a little too low for his liking, and if he was grading jungkook for an exam heād immediately dock off a point for hand placement alone) as the two of you bow/curtsey at the front to thank your classmates for the applause and he feels his blood beginning to boil when he sees the shy little smile on your face and the blush spreading across your cheeks when jungkook whispers something in your earĀ
what the fuck is he saying to you thatās making your cheeks red??Ā
āyou have something you want to share with the class, jungkook?ā jimin blurts out right before he can even process that heās blurted something out, his hand instinctively reaching over to smack the main lights back onĀ
the light switching back on so suddenly makes a few of you flinch and you reach up instinctively to shield your eyes, a little puzzled by what the problem isĀ
jimin is completely unbothered as he looks at jungkook and tilts his head, āwell? if you can whisper it to y/n, you can share it with everyone.ā
you and jungkook exchange glances of confusionĀ
āoh, i-ā jungkook stands up a little taller and jimin canāt help but feel drunk on power because of how intimidated he looks right now, āi just said that she did a really good job, mr. park, thatās all. a-and that she looks very pretty when sheās focused.āĀ
āinteresting. well, i donāt think thatās a very appropriate comment to make to your peer,ā jimin responds immediately, shaking his head before looking over at nayeon, āmiss im, you need to control your hormonal students-ā
āwoah, my boys arenāt the hormonal ones here-ā nayeon scoffs, and jiminās eyes widen in offence at the dig at you guys even though he technically made the first jab (and also, nayeonās probably right about that because heās seen the way you guys look at him and has also heard many of things said about him), āand itās perfectly fine to compliment a peer! maybe keep the second half of your comment for after class, but donāt listen to grumpy mr. park, you two ā again, great job, you can go back to your spots.āĀ
awkward, scattered applause makes its way around the room as you and jungkook return to your spots, and lisa gives you a look that says āwhat was that??? weāre definitely talking about this laterā to which you respond with a quick shrug as you pass by herĀ
āokayā¦ā miss im clears her throat quietly, letting out an uncomfortable chuckle before flipping to the next page on her clipboard, jimin following close behind her as the two of them head back to the front of the room, ālet me see⦠jisoo, seokjin, can you guys come up next?āĀ
āiām sorry if i- if i made you uncomfortable with my comment, y/n, i really didnāt mean to-ā jungkook whispers, and you shake your head quickly as you look up at him with a frownĀ
āno, not at all! it was very sweet of you-ā you reassure him, reaching down to give his hand a squeeze, āreally, it was very kind of you to say. and you did a great job as well- sorry i almost stepped on your foot when i-ā
āoh, thatās- no, it was really all you, i basically just followed you and made sure to spin you and stuff-āĀ
ājungkook!ā jiminās voice is crisp and it makes you stand straight up as you turn your head to look back at the front, ātalking again while your peers are getting ready to perform up front?āĀ
jungkookās face turns bright red and he shakes his head quickly, āi- no, sir, iām- i wasnāt-āĀ
āi talked to him first, so if youāre going to bark at someone, you should do it at me-ā you raise your hand to get jimin to look over at you before giving him a casual shrug, āmy bad.āĀ
āāyour badā?ā jimin repeats with air quotations, narrowing his eyes at you and almost daring you to continue speaking to him in such a casual tone when you know heās made it very clear how important it is to speak to him formally when itās class time, āwell, is there something that youād like to share with the class since it was so important you had to speak to jungkook about it right now?āĀ
ājust that he did a fantastic job and he looked incredibly handsome doing it,ā you chirp, maintaining a smile on your face, āi also said that we did completely amaze everyone with our routine because i guess we just fit together so, so well and- well, the second half of my comment, iāll say to him when the two of us are outside of class, as miss im suggested.āĀ
your comment doesnāt get any snickers, which isnāt a surprise considering the fact that everyone is probably terrified of how angry jimin looks ā but honestly, you have no idea why he seems to be picking on you and jungkook but you have a feeling it has something to do with the breakupĀ
and when you think about that, you canāt help but get more infuriated because canāt he see that he benefits from you breaking up with him?! now heās free to date whoever he wants to date
like he said, he can be in a real relationship instead of whatever the fuck the two of you were inĀ
not to mention, you havenāt brought your personal feelings into the situation the same way he has (this is a lie, you are definitely acting on your emotions right now but the denial is slathered on thick today) so what makes him think that he has the right to treat you and jungkook like shit just because heās all pissy?!?!Ā
āiād like to pull y/n out to talk to her for a moment.ā jimin immediately turns to look at naeyon with his hands behind his back, nayeon frowning as she looks back and forth between him and you, ānow please, miss im. we wonāt be long.āĀ
āwell, can you wait until weāre done?ā you pipe up, and that gets you a little stomp on the toes from seulgi because now youāre just doing too much but the rage thatās building inside of you from having jimin clearly picking on both you and jungkook is becoming unbearable, āi just think the respectable move is to wait until weāre done learning, mr. park. or would you like to continue wasting everyoneās time by singling out jungkook and i just because youāre clearly in a sour mood for no reason and seem to be enjoying using us as your emotional punching bags?āĀ
the silence is almost palpable, both you and jimin glaring at each other from across the room as everyone stands silently, awkwardly, because what the absolute fuck is going on right now?Ā
jiminās eyes have gone completely dark and if it werenāt for the fact that he used to be your boyfriend, you would probably be terrified for basically cussing out your teacher in front of the whole class ā but the scale feels balanced now because the current conversation taking place doesnāt seem at all like a mr. park vs miss. y/l/n interaction⦠this is a jimin vs y/n interaction.Ā
āleave this classroom right now.ā jimin says through gritted teeth, his voice eerily low and quiet as he continues staring at you without a single blink, āright fucking now, y/n.āĀ
āno problem.ā you snap, swiftly moving your way through the crowd and heading straight for the door, your fists clenched at your sidesĀ
you let the door slam shut behind you, angry tears beginning to brim at the edges of your eyes as you storm down the hallway towards the changing rooms so you can get your bags and go home
you shouldnāt have come to class today ā you knew that seeing jimin would be too much for you and now look at where itās gotten you!Ā
openly disrespecting jimin not just in front of the girls but also in front of miss imās boys, which probably mortified jimin because he prides himself on how well-behaved you guys are whenever youāre paired up with students from another class⦠you have a feeling this isnāt going to end well at all.Ā
the thought of being grilled not just by jimin but also the dean of the school sends a lightning bolt of anxiety right into you and your brain immediately begins to conjure up an email of what youāre going to say in your apology letter because thatās the type of student you are, not whoever you were just a second agoĀ
you just couldnāt help yourself!! youāre running on an inconsistent sleep schedule and you havenāt been eating right and youāve barely been drinking water and youāre sad about the breakup and mad at the circumstances and also feeling a little bit like maybe you acted too hastily in the first place and shouldāve communicated with jimin about how you were feeling and what you were insecure about instead of diving head first into the whole crazy jealous girlfriend act and driving him awayĀ
and now it seems to be your ego and your pride standing in the way of making you turn around and just talk to jimin because walking away and accepting that this is just the way things are is the much easier optionĀ
āso stupid,ā you sniffle, reaching up to wipe away a stray tear as your bottom lip starts to trembleĀ
youāve ruined everythingĀ
āhey, i didnāt say you could leave-ā you glance over your shoulder when you hear jiminās voice as you continue making your way down the stairs, but you pick up your pace when you see him starting to follow you, āy/n, i swear to god-āĀ
āiām going home, iām clearly not in the right state of mind to be here right now, mr. park-ā
āoh, donāt give me that bullshit, y/n-ā jimin snaps, āi think you and i both know weāve been avoiding each other but we need to talk because your behaviour today isnāt coming out of nowhere-āĀ
āiām sorry for talking back to you in class, but you were clearly picking on jungkook and i and i was so fucking over it-ā you swing the main door open, sneakers squeaking against the linoleum when you come to a sudden stop after seeing how heavy the rainfall isĀ
you contemplate staying and waiting until the rain calms down a little but the thought of having to stay and talk to jimin is just a little too much for you at the momentĀ
āitās raining out and you donāt have an umbrella, you big baby-ā jimin changes the subject when thunder suddenly rumbles from outside, stopping at the top of the stairs to look at you, āwhat are you gonna do, walk in the rain?!āĀ
āif thatās what i wanted to do, then i have every right to do so!āĀ
you came here by bus and you know it doesnāt come for another twenty minutes, meaning that not only are you going to have to walk in the rain to the bus stop, youāll also have to wait in the rain until it comes and thatās just a recipe for the nastiest cold in the entire world
and the thought of having to nurse a horrible cold and nurse your poor heart sounds like a nightmareĀ
āy/n, i know youāre upset but youāre being irrational-ā
āso what if i wanna walk in the rain?!ā the emotional side of your brain takes over as you glare up at jimin before storming towards the doors, āiām an adult, i can make my own decisions-āĀ
āi know you are, and i know you can, but, y/n, please-ā jimin grabs the back of your arm right as you get to the bottom of the stairs and you immediately fling his arm away, ājust talk to me, please-ā
āabout what?!ā you adjust the strap of your duffle bag over your shoulder, āwe broke up, itās for the better, youāre my teacher and iām your student and we never shouldāve started dating in the first place because it never wouldāve worked out anyway and-ā before you know it, everything is coming out of you and you canāt find a way to stop or control the words coming out of your mouth, āand i think maybe i shouldnāt come to class for a few weeks because itās going to be weird and i canāt- i canāt be in the same room as you, jimin, itās killing me-āĀ
āitās killing me, too-ā jimin admits softly, brown eyes glistening slightly underneath the lights, āi just- i canāt stop thinking about you, and i- baby, i- i miss you so much, you have no idea-ā your eyes immediately well with tears and you shake your head quickly as you take a few steps back, pushing the door open and stumbling out while unable to tear your gaze away from jiminās, āplease, we can figure something out, i know we can. i know i want to be with you, y/n, i donāt want anyone else, i just want you-ā his voice tremors slightly and he reaches out for you, āand i didnāt mean it when i called our relationship nothing, i was just hurt and- and angry and- i donāt even know why we broke up-āĀ
āyou should be with nayeon, sheās better for you and-ā you lower your voice slightly, āi know you went out with her over the weekend, so-ā
āwent out with her??ā jimin gawks, almost letting out a laugh of disbelief, āwe met up for coffee to talk about the lesson plan for today- donāt think i didnāt hear what everyone was muttering about before class, you guys need to cut the gossiping and- oh my god, y/n, is that what this is about?? you think i want to be with nayeon? we broke up for a reason, you- this is so incredibly frustrating, y/n, why canāt you just believe me when i say that i want to be with you?!āĀ
everything thatās coming out of jiminās mouth makes you feel ten times worse knowing that the two of you canāt be togetherĀ
āthis is why we need to sit down and talk about things, be honest and give each other our side of the story, because clearly somethingās been miscommunicated and-ā
āit doesnāt matter, jimin, at the end of the day, even if we talk about what happened we still canāt be together-ā
āwe can, we just- we can figure something out-ā the overwhelming reminder that youāll have to tell the dean and all your classmates and face judgement and be gossiped about on top of the already overwhelming emotion of seeing and talking to jimin is just too much for you to bear, and you find your heart skipping more than a few beats out of anxiety because the only thing on your mind right now is to run away and hide from all of thisĀ
āi canāt be here, i have to go home, i canāt be here right now-ā you whimper, turning around to head into the rain, āyou just- we canāt be together, jimin-āĀ
āy/n-!ā the last thing you hear before you sprint out into the dark, misty rain is the sound of jimin crying out for you and you canāt help but burst into tears, covering your mouth with your hand to muffle your sobs
run away run away run away run awayĀ
water splashes up and around you at every step you take, adrenaline coursing through your veins as you keep running down the sidewalk with your duffle bag flopping behind you wildlyĀ
this is too much
everything is just too muchĀ
you just need to go home and then everything will be fineĀ
it doesnāt matter that jimin wants to work on things with you (it does, because you do, too), it doesnāt matter that he wants to find a way to make things work (it does, because you do, too), it doesnāt matter that heās clearly stated that he wants to be with you and not nayeon (it does, because it reassures you and now you really know that jimin just wants you and you know that you just want him too) because all that matters is that everything is too much to handle and you feel like your head is about to explodeĀ
āso what am i supposed to do then?!ā the sound of jiminās voice down the street immediately makes you stop and turn around, and youāre glad that itās raining like this to mask the tears streaming down your face
you arenāt surprised that heās caught up to you, and you stand still as you look at him standing across from you, all the way at the end of the block, āwhat the FUCK am i supposed to do, y/n, huh?!ā he yells, grabbing a fistful of his shirt and pounding against his chest a few times, āyou want me to stand here and act like i donāt love you?! like we never happened?! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?!āĀ
āiā¦ā
ātell me thatās what you want and iāll leave it alone, y/n. all you have to do is tell me that this is what you want.ā your feet are stuck in place as jimin jogs right over to you and you resist the very strong urge to look away from him again but he just looks so sad and you hate yourself for doing this to him
āit was wrong of me to pressure you to tell your friends about us the way that i did, i know that.ā jimin nods, slicking his hair back with a hand, āi fucked up, and iām sorry for doing that. but i meant it when i said i wanted to be in a proper relationship, y/n, because i want to be able to hold your hand in public, i wanna take you out for dinners without constantly feeling like weāre going to get caught, i- i want to show you off! i wanna show you off because i⦠i love you, y/nā¦āĀ
jimin shakes his head in disappointment when your only response is to stand there, staring at him with wide, trembling eyesĀ
he waits one, two, three seconds for you to say something, to say literally anything and he hates that you still have nothing to say to himĀ
even if you said you didnāt want to be with him, that would be a better response than you just standing there staring at himĀ
forget itĀ
obviously youāve made your answer clear, and now he knows that he was 100% more invested in you than you were in himĀ
if you want him to pretend like he doesnāt care about you and that youāre just another one of his students, heās perfectly capable of doing thatĀ
he was a little out of control today, but heāll be able to manage it in future classes
the thought of transferring you to another teacherās class briefly flits through his mind but heās reminded by the fact that heād have to talk to the dean about that and then the dean would have to ask why jimin wants to transfer you and thatād just be a whole thingĀ
plus, the semesterās nearly over so pretty soon jimin wonāt have to be forced to be in the same room with the woman he loves but he canāt say he lovesĀ
itās going to fine
everything is going to be fineĀ
heās been broken up with before, and heās picked himself up and has moved onĀ
he can do thisĀ
āfine, y/n.ā he scoffs to himself, turning on his heel to head back towards the building, āif thatās what you want, i canāt change your mind. iām sorry. i wonāt push it any further.āĀ
āi was gonna talk to the dean!ā
jimin stops in his tracks when you finally speak up, and he turns to look over his shoulder to see that youāve taken one step forward but hesitating to come any closer to him like a scared baby deerĀ
he doesnāt move, afraid that if he moves too quickly he might scare you off and stop you from what youāre about to sayĀ
āwhat?ā he asks quietly, turning around to face you and relieved to see that you donāt seem like youāre about to take off againĀ
āi was- i was gonna talk to the dean.ā you repeat quietly before averting your gaze, āiād made an appointment and everything, i was gonna talk to the dean about us because i- i love you⦠too.ā you blurt out, looking back up at him, āi love you too, but iām⦠scared.āĀ
āscared of someone finding out?āĀ
āwell, thatās a pretty big chunk of it because i could get expelled and you could get fired, but iām also scared because⦠the last time i felt this way about someone, they left me for their ex six months after we said i love you to each other.ā you swallow thickly, feeling slightly ashamed and embarrassed to admit that about yourself since itās not something you like to bring up, āi⦠if there is even a 1% chance of you and nayeon getting back together, i donāt want any part of it. and i know thatās unfair of me to say because life happens and i get it but-ā you whimper, feeling your heart splinter at the reminder of how broken up you were over your previous relationship, āas much as i love you and i want to work on things with you, i donāt wanna be hurt again-āĀ
āyou wonāt be, y/n-ā
āyou donāt know that-ā
ābut i do!ā jimin drops to his knees, looking up at you from the ground as he keeps his hands firm on the sides of your thighs, ābaby, i do know that- i donāt know what crazy rumour you guys cooked up but iām not secretly in love with nayeon- i wanna be with you, please, please just give us a chance to make it work-ā
āiām still your student, jiminā¦ā you sniffle, reaching up to wipe at your red eyes, āall of this doesnāt change the fact that you are my teacher and i am your student, and the both of us never shouldāve started doing this in the first place-āĀ
āiāll talk to the dean about getting you transferred to another class, or- or i can transfer to another class- i will make it work, y/n, we can make this work.āĀ
you chew on the inside of your cheek anxiously as you look down at jimin, jimin who youāre hopelessly in love with, jimin who you love waking up next to and falling asleep beside, jimin who wakes you up with kisses on the face and a mug of tea (you hate tea, you just drink it because itās him), jimin who you know you want to be with because itās been so long since youāve felt so strongly and so surely about someone and⦠well, itās jimin.Ā
āokay.ā you nod slowly, reaching down to cup his cheek gently before swiping your thumb against his skin, āokay, we can make it work. i wanna make this work, but i think the first thing we have to do is talk to the dean because i donāt know how much longer i can hide it from everyone-!ā you donāt get much of a chance to say anything else before jiminās shooting up from the ground, pulling you in for a kiss as your duffle bag drops to the groundĀ
āoh my god, i missed you so much, you have no idea how much-ā jimin murmurs against your lips, his arm looping around your waist to pull you in closer, while your arms sling around his neck and your fingers curl into the hair at the back of his headĀ
āi missed you too-ā you laugh lightly, heart thrumming happily in your chest as you find yourself pressing closer into jiminās familiar warmth, āwe can make this work.āĀ
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I know Ruby. She's a really nice person. The idea that they would try and write what she did as a girl out of history is shocking to me on so many levels, the simplest of which is just, but don't they know how lovely she is?
wow i wonder if that 300 year gap could be explained by any outside factorsā¦ā¦.whoa! for some reason it lines up with the timeline of britainās invasion and subsequent colonization of ireland! wild, huh? i wonder if the two are connected in some way? i guess the world will never knowā¦.
So you mean to tell me that just by reblogging this Iām ruining an organizations plan, wasting them money, and uncovering some shitbag humans awful behaviour?
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I found out what lesbian means today, Ella told me at recess. Itās unfair because girls are so much prettier than guys. Itās like comparing a flower to an old shoe. But Iām not a lesbian, almost 99% of my friends are guys.