Barely Breathing

We all know you’re the pretty one

We all know you’re the one they look for

We all know you don’t have to try and guys fall for you

We all know you are just so perfect that they are drawn to you

We all know that no matter what I do I will never compare to you

We all know that I will likely die alone

We all know that I may as well give up because who in their right mind would date me

We all know that when you tell me I’m beautiful its a lie you tell me so I don’t cry

We all know that my existence is a lie and that I don’t deserve to be here

We all know no one would care about losing another ugly girl to the blackhole of depression

We all know that it’d be better without me

and thats ok

cause I never needed love anyway

I know I will never find someone

I know I will never be picked

I know I will never turn heads the way you do

I know that to them I’m practically a piece of furniture

I know my place and it’s not where you are

It’s down 6ft below the ground

So don’t lie to me

Breath a sigh of relief because we have lost the demon who haunted us for years.

Rejoice because we have found people who love adore us for being ourselves.

Celebrate that we have recovered ourselves from years of self-doubt and emotional abuse.

While the years have wounded and scarred us, we are better for it and have discovered a new level of compassion and confidence.

I'm proud of what we have become and wish you could see it.

That demon who haunted us in our sleep was not the person we thought she was and she left us feeling broken and alone but we brought ourselves up and have made it better.

We are stronger now than ever and we know our worth.

I love you and keep looking up because there is much waiting for you.

xo