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Just hope you have a lovely day, one after another.

Thank you but at this point I just think about not losing my mind the following day.

I can't allow myself to wish for things, i let myself be overly romantic and boast about love or other things about life because i see how it gives ppl hope and a part of me can only hope thats something I leave behind to a stranger.

And its fine if I am a bad person or seen as bad. Im too tired of over explaining and having my words just come off wrong just because i dont know how to explain things normally or just be normal. I use to tell friends I was afraid of giving up on myself or actually working through and acknowledging my past but I know they just thought I was exaggerating or wanted pity. But really i was just trying to explain why it was going to take me a long time to be good, be better. I genuinely thought I was gonna be gone long time ago, i thought I was going to take that secret (of what my brother did) to the grave. Nobody cared man, ppl saw me deteriorate and become bad and didn't question it or care.

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