my skin smothering me

I suffered from really bad chronic nosebleeds when I was a kid and one time i had one so bad it covered my face and chest and shirt. i mean it was everywhere i looked like i’d just eaten someone. so i go to my mom and tap her awake and she opens her eyes to see a blood soaked child leaning over her in the dark saying ‘please help’ and to this day and can still hear her screaming

im crying omg

my life is constantly just an inner monologue of “why did I do that”

do you ever get so disgusted with yourself, like you can not believe how stupid and thoughtless you are and it’s so frustrating because you keep telling yourself that you’ll do better next time but then next time rolls around and the same thing keeps happening and you end up in this pattern of mediocrity.

“support the troops” has become a really bizarre unquestioned thing in america where you can’t say ANYTHING about the military whether it be pointing out that they have no business in half the countries they’re stationed in to the fact that this particular breed of patriotism is used to sell everything from war to professional football

I used to pull all-nighters but now I can barely pull all-dayers