something in the way she moves

I'm documenting moments when the joy comes back.

The pure unadulterated joy, where for just a moment everything sparkles, a collective sigh of relief, an absolute peace.

Today was one of those days.

had a nice day 🖤

Seething inside. him (the bf/fuckwit/cunt) is a two faced motherfucker.

Has a 'film premiere' coming up (his first feature film) where essentially some stinking, ugly, french cunt wrote an entire film so she could try and fuck him.

He's kept in contact with her throughout (i think it's been like a year, maybe two. Feels much longer) said he could have fucked her off ages ago (so why haven't you then?) Says he's supremely embarrassed about the film (so why keep promoting it then?)

And now, NOW he's just posted up a lovely little trailer for this associate who seems to like young girls a bit too much (he might not be, but he's defo racist & fucking creepy) shit action film (he's been slagging it off since they made a poster for it) on his insta.

You can't be that disgusted by her if you're still posting her all over your social media you absolute fuckwit. SHE CAN'T EVEN ACT why would you want to be promoting that shit to your mates or potential jobs?

Oh you've worked with the AMAZING, BEAUTIFUL, TALENTED, SOPHIE FUCKING K##L have ya? What a proud moment that must have been pretending to lick out her stinking French cunt.

Why not promote her 'latest' blockbuster action film to the world, or your 700 followers. You protest too much fuckface & i don't believe a word that comes out of your cunt mouth. "I don't want to be associated with her" well you're doing a shit job of keeping your distance. You're a fucking lier

#fuckingmen #liersallofyou #whydontyoualljustfuckrightoff

Actions speak louder than words as you always LOVE to point out to me.

Gawd i fucking hate you at times, you lying two-faced little shit. Can't wait to meet the bitch again at the 'world premiere' that's in a shitty basement in soho.

We're on a 'break' again, apparently to give me time to 'figure it out' not sure i want to tbh.

I'm really sad about the situation, but it's so fresh (happened yesterday) I need time i guess. I don't think either of us have been happy for a long time, so I guess it's for the best.

I resent being told I haven't changed though, I feel like I've changed an awful lot and I also resent being told I'm always negative or bitter. I'm not, I can be, but I'm not constantly.

ALSO if you'd lived through all the fucking trauma and DEATH I've lived through, I think you'd be a little cynical on occasion. Yes, I do feel like the universe (or higher being, whatever) has dealt me a bit of a shit hand tbh. My life has been a constant struggle so far, some times have been easy, but these have been few and far between.

But we move

I'm sick to fucking death of the failing of this relationship being solely on me. It's not. It's you as well fuckface.

It's you when you don't bother to wish me luck in my new job, it's you when you never touch me, it's you when you have a meltdown 'cause you haven't got any weed (you fucking pathetic addict), it's you when you disappear for 12-24hrs with maybe one text if I'm lucky, it's you when you're vague as fuck about what you're up to, it's you when I see you still have all the dating apps installed on your phone. SOME OF IT IS YOU

I'm so tired of trying to convince you to love me, to convince you you want to be with me. I'm tired of you stressing me out, causing my tears and stealing my peace.

I'm tired of how materialistic/ superficial you and your family are.

You hurt my soul

I am tired of being with you, but I don't want to leave you. I'm convinced things will get better but I think you've already checked out.