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I remember

growin’ up

at night

my dad would sit in the kitchen

with all the lights out

and he’d wait for me to come in

and he’d sit there and drink

and I’d stand in the driveway

and I’d look in through the screen door

and I could see the light of his cigarette

and then I’d rush up on the porch and try to get by him

but he would always call me back

and it was like he was always

always angry

always mad

he’d be sittin’ there thinkin’ about everything that he wasn’t ever gonna have

until

until he’d get me thinkin’ like that too

and I’d lay up in my bed

at night

I’d be starin’ at the ceiling

and I’d feel like if somethin’ didn’t happen

if somethin’ didn’t happen but soon

it felt like I was just gonna

like someday