tiny gay

Super honesty time at 4 am day 1:

I never thought about my gender when I was younger. Now that I’m on my late twenties, I feel confused and it feels like I have so much to learn. Looking back with all the things I used to do, I play around with being the opposite sex like drawing moustaches and beards on myself.; Pretend to pee standing up. You get the gist.

It gives me the impression that maybe I want to be a boy? But at the same time I feel like I’m both. Sometimes it feels like I’m on a dial of gender, a scale perhaps. Percentage. But now as I ‘loosely research’ on the internet, meaning asking google questions like you’re talking to a friend, because I feel lonely. And maybe google can be one. I guess the power of technology. Connecting a collective of people on the same boat as me asking the same questions. Anyways back to the topic of gender. I guess one thing I stumbled upon is gender= gender identity + gender expression. And I’m even more confused. Which one am I doing? Which factors are what? And here I thought I figured out my sexual orientation (mostly?) now I have the looming questions regarding my gender.