Lauren Marie

Snowy day at home workout ❄️ Normally I’d use a day like this to lay around all day and eat terrible food but not this time 🙅‍♀️ After my rest day yesterday I was itching to get back at it and I wasn’t going to let a little snow hold me back. So I grabbed a weighted bar, a 15lb kettlebell, and a resistance band and got to work 💪 Now almost 2 hours later here I am questioning why I thought this was a better idea than my bed 💀 But definitely glad I got it in and now I won’t feel so lazy when I chill the rest of the night 💁 I know I’ve been MIA from social media but long story short life got crazy and I needed a mental break so I took one! There’s nothing wrong with allowing yourself to take a time out from working out and/or social media for your sanity’s sake. I’m finally getting back to where I was before I spent a couple months eating everything and only working out when I really wanted to and now I feel like I’ve come back into this whole lifestyle in a much better headspace. I haven’t counted a single macro or tracked a single workout and it honestly is so freeing and just what I needed. For right now intuitive eating and a less strict workout split is working for me so that’s what I’m gunna do! This lifestyle is all about doing what’s maintainable and makes you feel good inside and out and I think that with taking this break I’ve finally found that balance 🤗

Sooo this happened.... 😳 Was lucky enough to hit up @projectbyequinox to take a class taught by the one and only @peterkrauswi 😍🌹 First he stole our hearts then kicked our butts but hey I️ ain’t even mad 💁 Offer still stands if you wanna come visit us in little Darien 🤗 #equinox #peterkraus #bootcamp #fitness #bachelorette #love #fitchicks #girlswholift #swolemate #fit #instafit #nyc #weekend #pkfitness #gym #goals #girlswholift #fitfam #gains #committosomething #akame #imeanwhat 😂 (at PROJECT by Equinox)

Look who (finally) got her hair done 🤗❤️💁 Thank you to the amazing women at @salonshahinstamford who transformed me from a not very well maintained lion/mermaid hybrid to a beautiful phoenix rising from the ashes (aka the mountain of hair I left behind) 👸🏻 (at Salon Shahin)

What better way to recover from another deathly @mboylerules #spin class than with a refreshing drink with friends? Fresh squeezed mango juice that may or may not have had vodka in it but don't worry, it was organic vodka and had a blackberry in it so it's still healthy I swear 😂 Love our Tuesday night spin fam - those who sweat together, slay together 💁💪 Stole this from @djones1994's snapchat story because I love it and him ❤️ (at Equinox Darien)

#tbt to last week's post leg focused training session booty pump and mermaid hair because well I can 🤗🍑 I'm still alive, still lifting, still going through some stuff but as they say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... guess I'm going to be strongman level strong with all the shit being thrown my way but I ain't even mad 💁 (at Equinox Darien)

Stopped by my old job to grab some supps/catch up with my girl @diamondndarkness and ended up getting this cute @cellucor tank too 😍 Now I know what I'm wearing to my training session today 🤗💁 This cut has been going really well now that I'm not sick/in pain so I'm happy about that. I cleaned up my diet and brought it back to basics aka mainly whole food and no gluten or dairy. I feel so much better overall and the progress has been even better than before so I'm a happy girl 💁 Now if my energy levels could get with the program and improve too, that would be greaaaaattttt 😒 But all in all, happy with my progress so far and I'm excited to see what these new changes are going to bring down the road 💪

Needed this reminder ❤️🙌 Felt like every time I was finally back on track, life came outta nowhere and was like lol yeah no 🙄 It was just setback after setback with being sick, then the tooth thing and the pain/bingeing that came with it and it was honestly really hard to stay positive through all that and not just wanna give up. I also felt like my body was working against all my efforts to get healthy again since I was trying so hard to do whatever I could to get better and ended up just so drained physically that it effected my mentality too. It brought back all those negative feelings I've had about my body for so long that I have to continuously fight off on this path to truly loving myself. It allowed those thoughts of "I'll never have the body I want", "I'm disgusting", "I'm a failure", etc to override my true feelings and control my whole perspective of myself. Then I remembered that the girl who truly believed those lies is not who I am anymore. I absolutely REFUSE to let those thoughts win again, to allow myself to give into those bad habits, to forget how hard I've fought to be where I am today, physically and mentally. I 100% REFUSE to let some stupid voice in my head make me think I'm anything but the strong, determined person I know I am. You are not defined by your setbacks, you are defined by how you rise from the ashes and continue to keep fighting no matter what it takes. And that's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm going to pick myself up, dust myself off, remind myself what a badass I really am and that having these rough points don't make me weak or a failure but instead make me human. I'm ready to take on whatever life throws at me to prove those stupid voices wrong and because I know I can take it. As they say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I'm getting stronger every day 😈💪

Happy #humpday from still asleep at almost 6pm me 🍑 This week has been trying to say the least. Went to the dentist for a 15 min cleaning and ended up having oral surgery that left me in terrible pain. I went in a couple days later because a piece of the protective stuff came off and had run out of pain meds and they didn't care and sent me home. After I had used up what they gave me, I was lucky enough that my mom had extra of another pain killer so I tried that... It did not go well. Woke up after 2 hours of sleep with a huge nosebleed that wouldn't stop gushing blood only a few hours before my long day at work. Great start to the day 🙄 Also during this time, I turned to an old vice to try to help me not be in pain and ate everything thanks to that so I was bloated AF, exhausted, and in never ending pain. Not fun. 😖 Then I had to go back to the dentist yesterday to get the stitches removed and that was another big ordeal... I was in actual tears from them barely touching the area to remove the stitches (which if you know me, I don't do feelings and I don't cry in front of others, especially strangers. Just can't do it) and yet the oral surgeon wouldn't even numb the area until I demanded it. Thank the lord I had my mom drive me because when I came out in tears and no prescription after all the suffering she's seen me go through, boss bitch/momma bear mode was activated 🐻👿 I wish I could've been there to see how she calmly and professionally tore into them but I was in too much pain and had to go sit in the car. Needless to say, she came down with a prescription in hand and I was finally had some relief 🤗 So today was my day to catch up on sleep and boy did I do so lol. I've been awake for maybe 2 hours total the entire day and I regret not a single thing 💁 Tonight I'll hit some legs to help kinda make up for the lack of movement today then end the day drooling over the men at the CMT awards 😍👅💦 So all in all, today ended up being a much needed recovery day after a very draining week. Excited to kick it back into high gear tomorrow and get my life back on track/to normal 💪

Happy #nationalcatday to this well dressed gentleman 🎩🐱

Friday night EQX crew is the best crew 💁🔥🙌 (at Equinox Darien)

But like actually 🙌 #stepyogameup #getonmylevel 💁

#transformationtuesday 🤗 Left: 5 years ago @ 140ish lbs when I was a cardio bunny who strictly ate clean food and nowhere near enough of it due to having a terrible relationship with food and a body I was super self conscious of/never felt was good enough 😔 Right: a few days ago at 173lbs, lifting heavy shit, and eating mostly clean foods with some treats and a much better relationship with food and a body I'm proud AF of 💪

Came across this at the most perfect time a few weeks ago and those 4 simple words had a huge impact on me. I had been stuck in this cycle where I would do really well on my diet, kick ass in the gym, hit a new low weigh in, reward myself with not a cheat meal but a cheat week and end up heavier than when I started. Now it wasn't just because I wanted to that I ate so much, it was because another part of that reward was smoking pot (yes I know it's bad and all that stuff so let's just skip all that and get back to me and my problems lol). I wouldn't just smoke one night, give into the munchies and eat too much and be back on the grind the next day. Nope. The inner fit chick came out and I would portion control it so it lasted longer aka lots more binge days. Once I smoked, all caring about anything (especially my diet/macros) went out the window and I just became numb. If I wasn't eating, my anxiety would be through the roof and would only go away once I started eating again. I wish I could say I did this a couple times and learned my lesson but no it took me YEARS to finally get out of this cycle. Now I'm sure you're saying "well why would you keep doing it when you know this would happen?" And trust me I wondered that too. I was just so deep into the cycle that I couldn't get out. Every time I'd convince myself that "this time would be different" and it never was but I kept trying. I knew if I wanted to reach my goals this couldn't be a part of my life but I wasn't ready to give it up yet plain and simple. I finally got to the point where I'm like that's it, I'm done holding myself back from everything I want just to keep this in my life. Plus I realized I didn't even enjoy it anymore so there was no reason to keep doing it. So I cut it out. Two weeks later, I'm at my lowest weight since this time last year and feel so much better now that I'm not bingeing and don't have the "hangover" the next day. I decided to stop letting me hold myself back by holding onto bad habits that were nothing but detrimental to my health/happiness and I couldn't be happier I did 🤗 Long story short, get out of your own way. You'll thank yourself later ✌️

#tbt to spending this day celebrating the 4th with my favorite people 🤗❤️ (at Weed Beach)

On Fridays, we #flex 😈💪 Hit a killer total upper body #workout tonight even though I was super sore like everywhere from yesterday's destruction, I mean lift 😋 So happy to be home, in my bed, and not required to move other than for food 😍👏 Hope everyone had a great Friday and has a great weekend ❤️🍻👏

Hi guys I'm alive 👋 Took a break from social media for a while and I'm so glad I did. I wanted to take a step back and remind myself about why I love this lifestyle and why it makes me happy. It's so easy to get caught up in the mindfuck that is the whole fitness social media community and that's exactly what happened to me. I was so focused on comparing myself to others and not being where I wanted to be that I was making myself miserable over things that really don't matter in the grand scheme of things. Yeah I might not be at my goal yet but does that mean I'm going to quit and never get there? Hell no! Does it mean that I'm not as good or less of a person than those other girls? Hell no! I was getting so caught up in the comparisons that it made me hate my body, hate working out, want nothing to do with healthy food, and just had an overall negative outlook on myself and my journey. I had to remind myself of my reasons why I love this lifestyle and they are: 1️⃣ I feel so much better mentally and physically when I'm on point 2️⃣ I get to push myself to do things I never thought at when I was over 200lbs that I would ever be able to come close to doing and feel that sense of pride and accomplishment 3️⃣ I've met some of my best friends who are some of the best people I know and who are such an amazing support system 4️⃣ I get to transform my body into what I want it to be and no one can take credit for that because it's all me putting in the work in the gym and in the kitchen 5️⃣ It keeps me sane and makes me an overall happier, more positive person overall when I feel on track and in control. I'm still lifting (minus the last few days due to being stupidly sick), macros are on point (for the most part let's be honest lol), and my head is in a much better place. I also have to thank my #FYHC ladies for that because already they've changed my life and been such a great support system and I love all of them ❤️ Okay enough rambling 🙈 Here's a picture of my obnoxious workout outfit from 4th of July because I was kinda obsessed with it tbh 😋

I'll let the caption on the picture speak for itself 💁 Now time to kill my first leg day of my new programming from coach @lynettemarieh that I'm equal parts excited for and terrified of not gunna lie 😖🙈 Plus we got all new equipment delivered last night so it's about to be like Christmas morning for this girl 🤗🎁💪 Ps this shirt is from @harperandlilli and I love all their stuff so go check it out and thank me later 👍 I'm not sponsored or anything, (unfortunately ☹️) just really love their stuff ❤️