LarryLoverInfinity

This is a ZIAM AND LARRY SAFE BLOG. I love OT4 AND OT5. And I’m Zquad.

I love all the boys, all as individuals. You’ll never catch me hating on them.

My submissions are always open for theories and questions regarding anything and my DMs are always open for casual conversation as well.

And if you don’t like my blog then just... unfollow? Or leave? I’ve never seen the point of sending hate. Either I just never given a shit enough because I have better things to worry about or I just... never cared. Point blank.

Like I’ve never went out of way to purposely search something up just to piss myself off? My personal life is hectic as it is. This place is more of a detox. So why would I want to ruin it for myself is beyond me.

Also to my new followers, here’s a bit to know of me

I go by Yem

I’m 25 years old.

Did my undergrad in law

And I love BOTH Ziam and Larry.

And I love to draw.

Things just didn’t really feel the same like they did ever since Liam passed away. Bad enough I wasn’t as active beforehand but would still give little updates here and there when I would come across it.

I was able to get tickets for Zayn’s show yesterday for Phoenix. I’m really excited to finally see him up close! Row 2 babbyyyyyy.

Anyways, I got some notifications today from someone liking my old posts. (If you see this, you know who you are haha) and I decided to come on here and went scrolling through some of my old stuff.

I feel so nostalgic. And the crazy part? I never thought I’d have this kind of grief for someone I didn’t personally know. Liam comes to my mind here and there at the most random times and I get a little sad again. Call me delusional all you want. But this boy and ALL the boys really shaped me in my formative teenage years. And I feel like ever since that tragic day happened, I felt like a part of my childhood kinda died too. Everything suddenly felt so real.

I’m 25 now, frontal cortex forming and all that good stuff ya know— and it’s given me a lot time to reflect.

If anyone here is still active… what are you guys up to?

Im trying to decide if I should use this account again and mainly become a Zayn update account.

And of course, I’ll never forget about our little Lima bean.

Liam Payne.

God, I didn’t even know him but I loved him tremendously.

Words can’t begin to describe how much that beautiful man meant to me. He got me through so much in life and the sad part is that he’s never going to know that. I’ll never have the possibility of running into him ever in my life and telling him just how much I loved and appreciated him. There’s going to come a time where I’ll grow older than him, and that absolutely saddens me. Almost 7 months later and I still feel absolutely heartbroken.

Never in my wildest dreams did I think a “celebrity’s” death would affect me the way his passing did. I listened to nothing but his music and one directions music for a solid 3 months after he was gone. And to this day, walking in the wind specifically hits different.

Liam was too good for this world. I always felt that he was misunderstood and constantly overlooked in comparison to the other boys. I remember all those moments where he spoke so loudly of his mental health but no one fucking listened. Everyone let him down. But I know I never once swayed away from the person I thought he was. I knew how it felt to constantly be fighting the demons in your head and that’s why I always empathized with him. I hope Liam knows how loved he truly was and continues to be.

We love you, Liam.

Hello! Thank you so much for checking in. I genuinely appreciate it.

Honestly? Life has been really hectic for me right now. I haven’t been on much social media except for my personals.

I’m honestly out of the loop on what’s going on with our boys. Anyone care to give me a brief on what I’ve missed?