before i knew it... i had been spoiled with love

“but if i communicate it perfectly then they will understand me” WRONG 10,000 years of suffering

I live a very balanced life of noticing things nobody else does and not noticing the things that literally everybody notices

(voice of a person spiralling) its embarrassing but i still havent figured out if its ok for me to be alive

going with the flow in a face down in a river kinda way

help I’m having ideas beyond my available free time

help I'm having ideas beyond my available energy levels

a small thing i learned from my sister dying is that i really would rather the people i love be a burden than be whatever the hell else they'd be if they weren't. yes even if it's messy and not always fair and hard and completely inconvenient for everyone involved. even if it's weird. even if i'm rolling my eyes a bit inside sometimes. i just want you to bother me. please always bother me

crazy how there are only 2 hours of doing things every day before you keel over and die. if this werent normal id be worried

i overthink everything, and still manage to make the wrong decision

Sometimes I'm so proud of myself for the progress I've made and sometimes I want to bash my skull in with a hammer.

i am always one wrong word away from being shot by all the people who find me tolerable

I wish I could explain to you why I am the way I am but I fail to even express it to myself

If I keep practicing I might even be a person soon

I need my weird alone time or I will explode