I keep wondering whether it hurts more to not be seen that way,
or to accept that the cold emptiness was authentic, not a lie.
- lan [Feb 10, 2026; 01:55]

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I keep wondering whether it hurts more to not be seen that way,
or to accept that the cold emptiness was authentic, not a lie.
- lan [Feb 10, 2026; 01:55]

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The Titles I'm Crowned With
How many doors must I knock on
before someone sees me as who I am?
I kept knocking.
And they kept telling:
Some told me I’m a woman.
Some told me I’m a man.
Some told me I’m fair.
Some told me I’m tan.
Some saw me poor.
Some swore I was rich.
Some said I was my last name.
Others guessed it from my first.
Some saw a weakling.
Some saw sheer power.
Some crowned me beauty.
Others called me ugly.
Some looked at me with lust.
Some looked at me with disgust.
Some told me what I can do.
Some told me what I can’t.
Some told me the gods I should pray to.
Some warned me which gods not to.
Some said I am like my mother.
Others said I am like my father.
Some said I’d make a fine doctor.
Some said engineer.
Some named me war.
Some named me peace.
And a few told me
maybe I’d be better off being nothing at all.
Funny, isn’t it?
But tell me this:
Did anyone ever tell me who I am?
I kept knocking.
I kept counting the titles.
The list grew, and grew—
and me?
I never found the one I truly felt.
How hard is it to see me…
as I am?
Years of knocking—
my knuckles ache.
A few more knocks,
and they’ll bleed.
But still—no one?
Now I feel myself fading,
losing myself
in this endless knocking game.
The weight of so many titles,
so many crowns.
Now I wonder—
if beneath it all, my true self has drowned.
But wait—oh?
A mirror?
And in the reflection I saw—
(LAUGHS)
Not a man. Not a woman.
Not a doctor. Not an engineer.
Not a name, not a label, not a title.
I saw a human.
Just… human.
The only title I was ever meant to hold.
So tell me—
why did nobody say it?
How many more doors must I knock on
before I find home?
Not a house of labels.
Not a room of titles.
But a place where I am seen,
not as what they call me—
but as who I am.
A human.
The human that I am.
- lan [Sept 23, 2025; 21:28]
My presence might not make a difference, but I am afraid my absence would.
Hence, I stay.
- lan [Sept 21, 2025; 22:30]
In me, there are so many lives unlived. That's why I carry so much grief.
You’re living the plot of your favorite movie. How screwed are you??
Reblog and tag!!
@fweens-clone @feral-ass-raccoon @rbarrysncream @rougeside10 @davidtennantgenderenvy @sunlit-mess @davidtennan-t
Sense and Sensibility (1995)
(I think im gonna be okay)
(maybe a few crying spells here and there, but otherwise, its a vibe)
@macbethsperiodblood @nastasya--filippovna @superdemon552 @notnov8or @jasper-the-kid @ineffable-riddlebird-fan
Nativity 2: Danger in the Manger (2012)
IM GONNA BE GREAT !!! unless you count getting kidnapped by children and nearly drowned...
@princeloww @fredericktheterrible @muzzledjaw @shadowcats4 @h3nru @allonsyreyy @theo-likes-stars + anyone else i forgot im ill so idk
Labyrinth (1986)
I think I'll be fine (i might get lost in the labyrinth, but yeah, i'll be fine...)
Tags -> @h3nru @sonnet18s @ziggystardustvariant @greatnutt @beee-who @freckles-a-constellation @karahkat @orange-dusts @the-ineffable-parker
Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children (2016)
I don't think I could survive, if I were a peculiar child I would have a better chance but in this case...
tags→ @sonnet18s @ineffable-riddlebird-fan @gerardwaysbasement3 @imasillygooose @ziggystardustvariant @my-capaldi-fueled-brainrot+ other moots I forgot
House/Hausu (1977)
not at all, this movie would completly fuck me over, i would die in the first 30 minutes.
tags!! → @gerardwaysbasement3 @imasillygooose @confetti39x @allonsyreyy
@greatnutt @rxmuslxpins + any other moots i've missed!! <33
dead poets society
i think i’d be okay
tags: @t2rose @emiliesblohsh @somecluelessidiot @transautisticdinosaur
Cool Runnings (1993)
At least not a horror movie but they'd never get me to drive a bobsled
Tags:
@somecluelessidiot @wobblyweasel @courageandnaanbread @mothwingsmayy
call me by your name (2017)
pretty screwed by oliver i would expect
i’d love to be in this film just as long as oliver is NO MORE
tags - @ineffablelyqueerwolfstarshipper @yournormalidiot @doutzen-taylors-version @cassiopeia-rising @historicallyroomates @cherieetree @turtlesinatree @cornishpadfoot @h0e-zi3r and others!!
@rxmuslxpins same!! Dead Poets Society owns my soul, but to prevent repetition I think I’ll go with my second favourite (rn):
Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street
…also sorry for the delayed reply, I got distracted by life (and murder ballads).
Open invite for anyone who wants to hop in.
No pressure tags under the cut.
Thanks for tagging me: @cassiopeia-rising @echo-temporis
I know this film has already been mentioned, but it's the only film that has touched me so much. It's my only favorite film; I don't really have any others.
No pressure Tags:
@sylviamione @picklemafia @estranged-sky @nyx-tenberis @dxstroymx @wrentalks @rain-rainynights @followcb @jeanforrester @lemonthistlepennywhistl3 @chronically-rotting @voidic3ntity @thedeadpoetshadow @brotherorpheus
Thank you for the tags @cassiopeia-rising, @echo-temporis, and @ashesinverses
I don't watch a ton of movies, but one of my favorites Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (1971 version). And so long as I am outside the factory, or don't touch anything if I am inside, I think I'd survive.
No pressure tags: @cookiesandwater, @im-swan, @monet-poetry + anyone else who wants to take part!
Thanks for the tag @rain-rainynights 🌹
It's hard to pick a favourite, but I recently rewatched A Silent Voice (Koe no Katachi), and realized just how much impact that movie had on me as a pre-teen. Especially with how much I related to both Shoya and Shoko.
I think I would be fine in a world like that. Physically, sure. Emotionally, I'm not so certain 🥴
Tag time! @nyx-tenberis @wrentalks @picklemafia @cherrypicked-insanity and all my other wonderful mutuals 💗
^^Thanks for tagging me @ashesinverses and @cookiesandwater <33..
I don't have a fav movie tbh ><.. but like I can give you two movies which I wouldn't mind being reincarnated in..
First is "Bubble" 🫧.. just tell me a better eye candy out there than this 🍬✨🤌..
And the second is "Avengers" (literally any sequel🔥) do I even need to tell why this!?✨🔥 i know reckless as hell, but common if I get to meet tony stark🤌🤌..
😮💨 it more than enough yk..
Now I'll be tagging~
@picklemafia , @wrentalks @knight-qoheleth , @faemaril , @lucilleambrose , @stfuandreaa , @rtblack , @pasthalfsquid, @max-the-commander ^~^..
Thank you @nyx-tenberis 🙂
This is tough to pen down…..I hope I don’t offend anyone…..
My life and perhaps every living soul feels like this movie nowadays..
KINGDOM OF HEAVEN
Powerful men at war ,
War for power,
War For position,
War for greed and profit,
Religious discrimination & Targeted Genocide,
Creed colour ideological discrimination,
Men at war for peace, for religion, for unknown agendas in the name of God!
I give up , I abandon my God.
Enough blood has been spilled in the name of So called GOD.
I’m tagging …..
@foofendale
@faemaril
@fallencalliope
@wrentalks
@goldroses123
@lunagoddess88
@metamorphesque
@nyx-tenberis
@alienbloodheart
@vivienneinbloom
@picklemafia
@poeticmines
@ojosespanola
@perfectfeelings
@pomegranatedecay
@versesbyaaliyah
@venefiquee
@zealouswinds
@dbaydenny
@inked-soull
@echo-temporis
@alifeingrey
@aankhon-ki-gustakhiyan
@sheet102
@cleftones
@hiddencastle3
@monet-poetry
@lores-things
@kaneshaandrews
@lanurmisme
@thetypewriterdaily
@the-silent-troubadour
@poeticmines
@poeticstories
@poeticconfusio-26
@behindstonewalls
@reeces--pieces
@scriptastra
@allthecanadianpolitics
@elwinka
@enormous-moose
@fal-len-mus-e
Thanks you, @knight-qoheleth !!
And DANG! I don’t watch a lot of movies, but these two came to mind right away. Also, this tag game actually gave me an idea for another fun one, so expect to get tagged soon. 😅
1. Kung Fu Panda (any of the 4 movies)
2. Red, White & Royal Blue
@leotes
@ghostingmyghosts
@beingshehzil
@versesbyaaliyah
@goodnightbinx
@nightly-quotes
@fictionalhubbydreamer
@echo-temporis

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Part 2
I understand that no one was sent with a purpose.
No dog, no cat, no star.
There is no higher power controlling such things—it is a human way of escapism, relief, and maybe purposefulness.
There must be other reasons too,
but that doesn't change the fact that no one is here with a purpose.
- lan [Jun 24, 2025; 15:54]
Do you know the feeling when the world seems to be sinking around you and people are losing hope,
But you don't want to die just yet?
No matter how hard you wish you didn’t feel that way, you still do.
The desire to live — is that even worse?
- lan [Jul 21, 2025; 23:15]
Death, why do you hope for my life?
What do you see in it that I can not?
- lan [July 19, 2025; 00:36]
[🎧: Como Mirarte by Sebastian Yatra]
Death is weird — just like me — and maintains more suspense than I would like. Not a single clue do I have of when I am going to lose my life.
Maybe a way of telling me to cherish life while I still have the chance?
But death isn't selfish like me, nor is it greedy. Although it's always there with me and follows me wherever I go, it doesn't intervene. Even when I am at my lows and have no will to live, it doesn't take the life — just stays. I wonder, does it have a schedule or something? Sometimes, I even forget that it exists, and sometimes, I see it with much clarity.
However, simultaneously, I am here with life. Alive. Seems like we both — death and I — are interested in life. Or am I the barrier between the two? If so, isn't death patiently waiting for life to finally be death's?
Is it a love story with a happy ending or a tragic one — or both at the same time?
Because right now, life is mine, and death is death, with no life. When it takes the life away from me, will death become alive? Then I'll be dead — or the death? But anyway, we are coexisting, and the same events are here for us — just at different times. To elaborate, one is going to be alive when the other is dead, and vice versa.
Either way, is it a life story or a death note?
- lan [Jul 15, 2025; 11:42]
Part 1
From where I stand, I see the stars, moon, sun, and galaxies, and I know there are even bigger stars.
They are pleasant to the eyes.
If you ask me whether they are worth existing, I'd say yes.
Even if they are going to die—no matter the span of several thousand years—I’d still say they should be there.
But it's not the same for me.
I keep thinking, what am I supposed to do here?
- lan [Jun 24, 2025; 15:54]

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I am dying, and that is no secret.
- lan [Jul 6, 2025; 18:04]
yeah I write sometimes. no I do not know proper grammar and punctuation.
On days when choosing a song feels heavy, the playlists come to rescue me in silence.
- lan [Jul 04, 2025; 13:32]
Now I am here to visit you,
Wearing your darkness.
Looking in the mirror,
I see the darkest shade—
The one you lived without me.
- lan [Feb 18, 2023; 23:55]
why are you living only to become when you already ARE
I seriously needed that!

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I do.
Since you’re always coming up with cool prompts and all, here’s a little one for you:
Not to sound like a nosy anon but, what’s your biggest inspiration when you write? Spill the tea 🍵✍️ And tag a few folks to answer too”
Great question! Really just little pieces of my life in general. Usually people I've met and the experiences we've had. I've had a very interesting life so it's the easiest thing for me to write about. So many different ways I could word the stories, so to speak. And so many different stories. I have bits of my life I've never touched in my writing, though I would like to change that.
@moonknightmaiden @noxnightingales @peepeepoopoo3d @butwhyareyoureyessosad @nyx-tenberis @faemaril @behindstonewalls
^^ Thanks for the tag @picklemafia..
So.. what inspires me?✨
All of my works are inspired from my own life experiences, what I have seen, felt and observed.. but I try my best to dress them up in a way that anyone reading could see a part of themselves in it.. ^~^
Now you guys..
@wrentalks , @lucilleambrose , @faemaril , @knight-qoheleth , @knownunderthemoon, @aheartbroken14yo, @amaramyaccount, @stfuandreaa ..
Thanks for the tag Nyx and Pickle ✨
It rises from all corners, every page turned, every moment lived adds another spark to my inspiration. The people I've met, the experience, the characters and events in books and even something as simple as a quiet walk in Nature can offer a compelling moment worth writing about. That is why the work I decided to share here reflects many voices. :)
I tag the following:
@knight-qoheleth @lucilleambrose @moonmurmurs123 @liyaklynn
Thank you so much for the tag @nyx-tenberis and @faemaril 🫂
My writing is amateur and inspired by guilt and pain, science and God and human nature, loss and longing.
I wrestle with morality and reality as if both were alive.
Grief haunts me like a vampire, drinking blood, and keeping the prey alive for the next night.
I treat memory as unreliable,something decayed, yet sacred.
I write to relive memories as confessions since I’m unable to dream.
I tag following @pomegranatedecay @fallencalliope @alienbloodheart @sheet102 @inked-soull @kosmoflavio @mournfulroses @ninth-cause @reeces--pieces @thetypewriterdaily @venefiquee @wrentalks @foofendale
Thanks @nyx-tenberis and @knight-qoheleth, you both tagged me!
I write because I need an outlet for my feelings. I write in a language different from my own because this way I can express things that I have a hard time saying in my mother tongue... Languages are complex, and so alive. I can't write a thing in my mother tongue, I feel so awkward, even ridiculous, while in english I've found my freedom.
Other than that, nature inspires me a lot, since I am animist at heart.
I think @versesbyaaliyah @viki23spots @bluesandbarebones have not been tagged yet, but anyway, anyone who reads this and wants to partecipate should do it, it's so interesting!
Thank you so much @wrentalks for the nomination. I don’t usually take part in things like this—believe it or not, I’m actually quite shy (which is hard to believe considering I started a whole group to bring people together).
Without going too deep, I’m a recovering alcoholic and drug addict, and I live with bipolar disorder, psychosis, and a few other things thrown in for good measure. I only started writing around two months ago, and honestly, it’s done wonders for my mental health. Being able to take something painful and turn it into something meaningful has been one of the best forms of healing I’ve ever known.
I wasn’t sure who to tag because there are so many talented people out there with important stories to tell, but I’ve chosen a few I’ve recently connected with. I hope you’ll join in and share your truths too.
@followcb @quietchaoswords @disowneddiary @subjectanomalies @lanurmisme @sosheblabbed 💜
This is the first time I’ve been tagged.
It means a lot that you considered me, @versesbyaaliyah — thank you.
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It’s a profound question, and it deserves a profound answer.
Honestly, there is no single answer.
Sometimes, I just write my mind out —
I let it flow on paper in black and blue.
Sometimes, I write what I observe, what I feel —
my writing is the extract of it. Anything and everything.
It may not always be me in my writing,
but it’s always my lens —
my way of understanding the world.
And sometimes, it’s a way of preserving myself.
Because if one day I lose all my memories — my sense of self — I know I won’t trust anyone to tell me who I was.
But maybe I’ll trust these pages.
My writing is the most honest trace I’ll leave behind.
It’s how I say: This was me. I was here.
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I don’t know many people here yet.
And the first person I ever connected with from the writing community is the one who tagged me.
So, I have no one to tag back just yet — but I’m grateful to be here, and I hope to cross paths with others who carry their worlds in words, too."