#caniacprobs

lol why is fuckin everything my fault when im the one who just sits around like a fucking idiot while he fucks other fucking slut ass fucking bitches like fucking kill me I wanna die like what the fuck like why am I not good enough what is so wrong with me and why keep me around to make me feel like shit

my whole fucking life is a shitshow and I legitimately want to be dead so I can stop dealing with it

like just go ahead and date that stupid fucking bitch and leave me out of it b/c im lowkey tired of feeling like crap b/c of her or at least stop making me feel crazy for being jealous of her and hating her b/c I have a fucking reason to be

im fucking depressed and im w a guy who is only sometimes w me bc he feels too guilty to get rid of me and i work 40 hours a week unpaid somewhere that won’t hire me and i take hours off my life driving in this traffic all the time and i have no skills ive never had a paying job i am worthless motherfucking garbage with low self esteem and im ready to spend my summer even more single than I already feel and fucking jobless while mooching off my grandma who i think might be the only person left who believes i have a future and i don’t have the heart to tell her she’s wrong so basically im gonna nap and i hope i don’t wake up

uGH I wanna fucking scream

lowkey hope I just don’t wake up tomorrow forreal

sos why do I bother

my dream is to be boys first choice one day after all this time

I just feel like shit constantly and like I’m having to compete in every aspect of my like and I know I’m not doing well in any of it so it feels like I’m drowning which sounds cliched but it’s true and everything I do is pointless or wrong or not good enough and it just sucks but all I can do is just fake it til I make it but I’m exhausted from it and I don’t think anyone realizes it

i think i am in a Bad Place™