i like shane crying over sex in all contexts i like when he cries because it feels so good and he’s never been this full in his life i like when he cries because it hurts a little and ilya is in his ear reassuring him that he can take it i like when he cries because of the impossibility of it all like he never thought he would have this and he didn’t even know what he was missing until he got it but he also cries because he’s not getting it enough and he cries when ilya is consoling him over the phone about it bc that’s all they have and ilya is like you need it so bad i know baby and sometimes he cries because he’s so greedy and he feels bad about it and ilya is like oh yes it’s such a burden for shane hollander to be gagging for my cock all the time i do not know how i survive and then he makes shane actually gag for it and shane cries about that too

remember when shane freaked out bc he realized he was going to have to confess to his parents that he’s gay and had been in love with his media rival for the past decade and then he sank to the floor and pressed his face into ilya’s crotch a la the adoration sculpture by gustav vigeland while ilya’s hand ran through his hair and down between his shoulder blades so tenderly, so protectively. and they put that shit on tv.

i love you ilya rozanov herding shane like cattle. i love you ilya rozanov circling shane like prey. i love you ilya rozanov backing him into walls and on top of counters and carrying him to the bed and guiding him to his knees and yanking him around by the chin and getting right in his face and shoving him onto the bed and straddling him and holding him down by the wrists. go where i tell you. hands where i put them. eyes on me.