Mohini

Been obsessed with Kanha since I was 7,

Born into a Punjabi Sikh family, never gone to a mandir

Struggling with anxiety issues since the age of 14

Born vegetarian, never vaped, never drank and never will, hardcore introvert

Never dated anyone and don’t plan to because I coudn’t find someone who met my standards

Celebrity lookalike: None but my profile pic is the animated version of my face

Mahabharata fanatic….literally

Bi but preference for men (only cuz of kanha)

Raised and living in Canada, studying communication, want to move to India later

like guys he’s literally the stereotypical robust pretty boy archetypeeee

He is described in Mahābhārata & Harivaṁśa as Mahābāhu → long, powerful arms; Vṛtta-bāhu → well-rounded (not thin) arms; Uru-skandha → broad shoulders; Vakṣaḥ-sthala vistīrṇa → wide chest; Sama-deha → perfectly proportioned body; Dīrgha-bāhu → arms reaching near the knees. 

he will isolate you from the rest when you get closer to him, he will remove your incessant need to be close to humans

He will ensure you think about him in every second of the day

When you eat he’ll remind you to offer him first

he will come in your dream and not let you remember what the dream was but you will have his name on your tongue when you wake up

He will make you stop finding human men attractive and when you do your brain instantly compares their fickle beauty to that of the Madanmohana

he will make you procrastinate so you can lay in bed and think of him and only him, you don’t want to stop thinking of him for even a second

where do I begin keshava, my love for you cannot described in words,

O shyama it hurts me to think about ur beauty and ur valor,

O man amongst men, the noblest and purest of them all, the essence of masculinity and the representative of Mankind,

every man I have ever desired had been you, every quality in a man I ever wanted was you, every desire I felt for a man was you.

My shyama ranga madhava you have captivated me in a sense that it has made all men look unattractive in my eyes,

For once I have tasted your perfection even the most handsome and desirable men have lost all attraction for me.

I cry thinking of your beautiful dark skinned with your almond shaped eyes that are ever compassionate yet humbling with your red lips curved up in a smile.

My kanha you are kameshwara the origin of all Kama, O origin of desire, I desire you

I know you burn for me and I cannot burn you because I already have you and you already have me.

We can never be deprived of love for each other as I love you and you love me

My devotion, fear, love, and everything blends together when it comes to you

Please take me my lord for I am tired of living in this maya

Take me back to you don’t tease me any longer madusudhan

I used to hate thinking of him. To me for a long time Krishna was an arrogant god that liked making his devotees suffer while he enjoyed the luxuries of life with laxmi by his side. Even when you look at him….to me he was a spoiled rich kid who has never suffered and simply cannot related to lowly creatures like us humans. What are we to him

I did not feel like he had that quality which makes you want to worship him…but at the same time I couldn’t get him out of my head. He is unlike any other Hindu god to me. When I think of Hanuman he’s my protector. When I think of mahadev he’s my father. But Krishna….when I thought of Krishna he was my everything. But I hated him from the bottom of my heart.

To me he was a distant god, The concept of Gaudiya Vaishnavism was primarily what fueled my disregard for him. This concept of be his servant, you’ll get punished if you think of him and Radha seperately, give up everything for him, without radha you cannot reach him. I remember when I was 13 I would just cry and wish why is it so hard to have just him…I don’t want anyone or anything else along with him I want HIM. I thought he would never love me back because I can’t worship radha and so I disregarded him for years

Only recently when I dived into his relation with Arjuna did I think Krishna is not just someone who is a distant god above humanity. Krishna’s love for Arjuna humanized him for me and showed me his care for humans. From there as I thought of him more and more I realized the perception I’ve had of him was wrong. He’s not a distant privileged god in fact he’s the god that sacrifices the most for us. He’s the one that comes on earth again and again….not Brahma…not shiva…but him. He’s the one that reciprocates whatever love you impose on him whether it’s parents , siblings or lover. He’s the one who is open minded and accepting and wouldn’t judged you for struggling with hyper sexuality. Something that you simply can’t think of with figures parents and pious figures like mahadev, Ganesh, Hanuman.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Mahabharata - Vyasa, Hindu Religions & Lore Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Additional Tags: Worshipper - Freeform, Devotee, krishna - Freeform, Religion, God - Freeform, Hinduism, hindu, Mythology, Modern Era Summary:

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