Forever Young | Yoongi x Reader
WARNING: angst, death, sadness,suicide, mentions of sexual activities, cyber bullying.
“example of the past/memory”
“example of the present/now”
"Yoongi! Stoooopppp!" You said giggling as you felt his slender fingers running along the side of your ribs
The man looked at you and smile, wholeheartedly, before hugging you.
"If I stop loving you, then I'd be broken" You blushed at his words.
Yoongi always had away with words, even if he didn't put any thought to it, you'd always have a wholesome reaction to them.
You leaned forward and kissed his lips. In return, he did the same as he laid you down to show you just how much he loves you.
Yoongi sat in the front row, holding the boy's hand tightly. Trying to hold himself together.
"You look lovely," He told her. He could faintly see the smile on her face. He moved his finger to put a strand of hair behind her ears.
"Thank you for making me feel loved," She told him, as she lightly kissed his cheeks.
( Well, I’m exactly the same )
( I think I’ve lost everything )
You sat there, reading the comments under your music video that you've released. Being a singer wasn't an easy job. It's even harder when you're dating one of the biggest singers in both Kpop and the International industry.
The comments weren't as positive as you expected it to be. They weren't even talking about the music, they were talking about your relationship with Yoongi. Most saying you're only with him because of his fame, money, and exposure.
It hurts to see that your ' fan base ' can say that they love you but then leave negative comments when they've found out who you've been seeing.
It's not like you're now dating him, you've been dating him for two years but decided to make your relationship public in January, to start the new year off with a positive note, but sadly you were failed.
You cried and cried and cried. Reading every single one until one of the comments really get to you. They were speaking about your ex-relationship, with your ex-boyfriend, who used to constantly abuse you, and rob you of your money.
In March, he made claims stating that you were the abusive one in the relationship and would steal his money for your own personal use. He made those accusations on social media. The matter is still being taken care of in court.
You saw a message from Yoongi, his words trying to comfort you as he can't be with you physically due to being stuck in Korea.
You didn't bother replying. You lay in your bed thinking about what you could have done differently.
A week later, it was April the 4th, the day when BTS would be coming back in the states to visit. You were excited to meet them, especially Yoongi. You needed to feel his hands, his hugs, his mouth on you
You quickly got dressed and headed to the boys house. You bought foods for them.
As you reach the door, you ran quickly to knock on it, you saw Jin first, then greeted them all one by one, leaving Yoongi for last. You walked up to him and hugged him tightly. Feeling the tears spill from your eyes.
He hugged you back tightly as if you'll leave him. You pulled him to your lips and kissed him with Passion as you can hear all the groans and disgust from the boys.
He broke the kiss and says "Lets take this upstairs yeah?"
"Okay," you said as you both head to the room to begin your lovemaking.
Later in the night, you woke and removed the sleeping Yoongi's arms away from you. You got up and grabbed a piece of paper and start writing down words. Words that you feel emotionally.
After you were done you put the note on the desk, went into your bag for some pills and took them. You then went back to bed, kissed his forehead, and went back to sleep.
Yoongi woke up the next morning, smiling as he remembers last night's activities. He pulled your body closer to him as he rests his face into your neck.
"Morning," he said, as he kissed your neck, but you didn't move. He poked your shoulder but you still didn't move.
He raised his body and laid you on your back.
"Hey, Y/N, wake up" But there was no response. He shook your body lightly, then harsh. His eyes started to water at the ideas in his mind.
"HEY HEY WAKE UP PLEASE WAKE UP!" He kept yelling trying to get your body to move, but was disappointed.
Hoseok who was doing a Vlive, saw the comments asking what was the loud noises coming from, he decided to get up and check to see its coming from Yoongis room.
"Y/N GET UP!" Hoseok opened Yoongi's door to see him shaking you roughly and crying. He walked up to him to see you lifeless.
He quickly realized what was going down and went to call the other boys.
The rest of the boys came into the room and saw what was happening, Jin and Namjoon trying to pry Yoongi off of you, Hoseok and Taehyung crying as they try to wake you up, Jimin standing in shock and Jungkook next to the desk with tears into his eyes. He saw the letter and handed it to Yoongi who grabbed it. He opened the letter and read it. After he finishes he burst out in tears for he felt guilt for not helping you.
( Everything comes at will and leaves without a goodbye )
The news broke out later that evening. Some fans and news reporters we're following the boys into the hospital. They even bribe the staff for some information.
Yoongi sat in the music studio, writing words after words trying to find the lyrics to make with his new collaboration.
He's trying to find the words to fit the beat of that song and to express how he feels.
' I really love the beat for love yourself! ' he remembers you telling him that. Then instantly words started flowing out, one after the other.
After 5 hours, of writing the lyrics. He emailed the song to the artist that you loved. He knew that you would have loved the song because he made it, he made it because of you. He closes his eyes, thinking about how you would smile whenever you saw his face, he smiled lightly at the memory.
But the smile vanishes quickly as he remembers what happened to you.
"Happy birthday Yoongi!" Everyone said as they watch the gummy smile appear.
You walked up to him and kissed his surprised but smiley face.
Walking into the park, to have a nice quiet evening. You and Yoongi sat on the bench and watch the two couple play with their daughter
"Hmm, when we get older you think we will have a girl?" You asked smiling at the scene.
Yoongi soon joined your reaction and says
"A girl? Please it's going to be a boy"
After winning the AMA, Yoongi quickly rushed the boys to go home so that he could celebrate with you.
"Hyung! Stop rushing! I didn't get to say Hi to Nicki Minja!" Jungkook exclaimed with a whine.
"See you wouldn't understand, what i feel, you'll forever be lonely."
That's the one word that hunts him now. He's lonely lost without you. Pathetic.
"Sir I’m sorry, but the autopsy says from a drug overdose. I’m sorry for your losses." The doctor told Yoongi as he keeps breaking down.
Namjoon looked at the doctor confused
The Doctor looked confused for a bit
"You didn't know? She was three weeks pregnant"
The boys were in shock when they heard the news, they all looked at Yoongi who cried even harder when he heard the news.
( I don’t want to love anything like this )
"Uh hey vlive how are you?" The boys ask as they made a vlive. The fans noticed the change in the boy's mood. They answered the fans questions about new music and etc. Yoongi mostly zoned out of the whole live until a question came up
'Where's Y/N? Doesn't she lives with you guys? Did her and Yoongi broke up?" That fan must have been clueless as to what took place. The boys looked at Yoongi sadly as he leaned forward towards the camera.
"She was killed by society." A few people have been asking as to what he meant, the ones who know what happened, made comments about how they are sorry and how you shouldn't have been through that.
( It’s all done as it gets dark. )
He got up and left the room, making the boys end the vlive.
Yoongi hugged IU, she smiled sadly at his figure. Small, paler than usual.
"Im sorry for what happened." He smiled at her since she understands and feels what he is feeling since she has lost 3 people she loved a lot.
"Im glad I’m working with you on this." She replied as she patted his back.
He sees you in a white flowery dress, hair loose as the breeze plays with your hair.
He sees your smile, that lovely smile of yours. That smile that could melt away his cold heart.
"What are you doing over there?! Come here!" You shouted to him in a cheerfully as you put out a hand for him to grab.
He walks closer to you, grabbing your hand. You ran, tugging his hand with you, giggling crazily.
우리는 오렌지 태양 아래
그림자 없이 함께 춤을 춰
( Under an orange sun )
We dance with no shadows )
"And yet you love me!" You said sliding down the hill with him holding onto your waist.
When the ride had ended you pulled him up and ran to the river, Han's river. The first time you guys met.
"For once I’m actually happy," You said as you looked out into the river.
정해진 이별 따위는 없어
아름다웠던 그 기억에서 만나
(There is no such thing as decided farewells)
( Meet me in that memory that was once beautiful )
"For you. You were like a gift to me. You've helped me when I thought I've given up. You showed me love, care, and affection. You and the boys. I’m grateful to have people like you guys into my life."Smiles. That's all you've been doing. Smiling.
He runs up to you and holds your face. He looks into your eyes and cries all of the pain out.
"If I had known you were hurting. . . "
All you did was just keep smiling. That’s one thing Yoongi admires about you. How you could smile through the pain
"If you had known, you would have been hurting too. I didn’t want you too. I wanted you to think I was fine. But just remember I love you." You said as you kissed his cheeks. You turned away and waked away from him.
He opens his eyes and looked around, confused as to what's going on, then smiled at the memory, then angry at what had happened.
He decided to visit the Jamwon Park were you guys last met in Korea before you left. He found a bench and sat on it where you guys normally sit. He looked to the left and saw one of your favorite flowers dancing with the winds.
He smiled as he remembers a few things. One of them is a quote you've said.
"People maybe went, but they always leave traces of themselves behind."
He closes his eyes as he can feel your kisses from the breeze. He opened his eyes and smile, as he will never forget the romance you both shared, for he will always love your existence and for what you had taught him.
( If it is this kind of nightmare, I won't ever wake up)
I hope you guys enjoy this. I’ve been debating if I should post this or due to you know. I love both IU(i fucking love her) and SUGA.(yeah we all know that I admire him) I also admire and respect the one’s who helped create this song. I’ve been looking up to them since their debuted. (i grew up with kpop). Please don’t resolve to this. Seek help.Your actions can affect the one’s who loves you.
