Kosmic

If youre wondering or ever see this, its jah’s birthday. I went to his grave, i visited finally. I told him i was okay now, since the last time i had set foot in florida. After an escaping an abusive relationship. I told him i was okay and safe and that thank you. It was really emotional, tears after tears. Im drunk btw. But it was a beautiful moment, i finally feel safe now, im happier than ever thanks the one whose made me feel like all my pain and suffering was worth it. Theyve showed me that a gentle love exists and that i matter. Im sorry if i was never able to fulfill that from you, even if its bc of previous traumas, but oh how my body stuck to that and rejected it from getting closer. Now this is really just to give an update bc i know youre someone whose seen me at my absolute lowest and that also knows my heart and has been around. But i feel as though my heart is safe now and hope yours will some day be too. I also wanted to take this moment to appreciate you for always being there and supporting me from the sidelines. I know youre not on here anymore, maybe for reasons i know. But thank you and keep being a beautiful soul.

…whats stopping you from living a better lifestyle? You are in control of everything in your life. The world is on the palm of your hands, you can do whatever it is that you want. You just need to build the confidence i know you have to take the initiative to change