finding a nicer way to kill it

FFIV WEEK 2025

Day 4 - Truth & Lies: Delusion, Confession, Disguise

NORMAL ABOUT HIM. VERY NORMAL ABOUT HIM.

i finally had an entire weekend off since forever and was able to draw and hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngwehewbdjwnsdjjrk

and god he‘s so hard to draw for me. like. the problem is he‘s not a cartoony videogame villain. his character model is pretty damn realistic. but i‘m specialized in cartoon dudes 😭😭 tf2 humans shaped my understanding of anatomy lol. and idk maybe i‘m also just rusty but trying to draw him is hard esp. when i wanna stylize him. but my brain battles this every second since i wanna draw him as close to the source material as possible but that‘s not gonna happen aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (i also wanna do him justice aaaa stupid brain just DO)

(also i hc that he‘s got the split tongue maybe in his 30s as a body mod? so it‘s not part of the parasite transformation but a choice lol. (he also loved going to kink parties and is heavy into electro / industrial stuff aaaaaaargdh i‘d love to draw comics about how things changed after the infection, inhibition center completely wrecked and all… man i wish i could write))

i‘ve also scribbled down a storyboard for an alternative ending for re9 which contains over 40 thumbnails already orz but i need more time for this.

also also i'm not getting enough sleep as it is....................