I najlepse kad je prestani okreni se i nestani.

to be seen without performing. to be heard without screaming. to be missed without disappearing. to be enough without proving it. to be held without falling apart. to be understood without explaining. to be wanted without conditions. to be. to be.

If I had a normal relationship with food and alcohol and drugs and sex and sexuality and money. Then I would probably feel a lot better

I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

I said what I said.

I am waking up every morning with bad anxiety. Anxiety I can not classify. I have panic thinking about my job, thinking about life and how I am now playing a role in all this. Anxiety of going back after vacation and getting screamed (which never happened but still) and of making mistakes. Of not getting it all together. My confidence is so broken. I don’t believe in myself anymore.

anxiety traps me within my own mind and tears me apart quietly

It’s crazy to think that if it wasn’t for my anxiety, I would have actually enjoyed so many things

god i know how all of this rn is probably for character development and shit, but how i wish i was dead