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EZAREL

The moment people started talking about your absence with more insistence, something flipped inside him. He pulled a little joke trying to calm the environment such as “I bet they just got lost following a pretty squirrel”.

But the truth was that he was extremely anxious. His days felt off without his favorite person besides, and even if he tried to keep a normal life… he just felt off. Something – someone was missing. 

He lost his focus on his job constantly, trying to regulate his breath and not to cry. His appetite disappeared, he was exhausted but couldn’t sleep knowing you were out there. Ezarel starts searching for potion recipes that could help him know your current location. 

Ezarel needs space from everybody else and can’t really stand the noise anymore, even if that could prevent him from overthinking about you all the time.

Whenever someone mentions your name, he hopes it’s because they have news and not just to bring out the obvious fact that you aren’t there.

Valkyon probably caught him mid panic attack, wondering all the things that could’ve happened to you. 

He becomes extremely obsessed with doing stuff on his own to search for you. He packs his stuff, a few potions he created the last nights and food for the time he finds you and can give you energy. Ezarel prefers risking his own life than keep waiting for something that he doesn’t know if will happen.

NEVRA

He tries to keep his composure because people around him are panicking enough and he doesn’t want to worsen it. At first he tries to be relaxed, to be the grounding person under all that chaos.

Nevertheless, he starts getting flashbacks that hurt his heart: those nights on your room, those spots where you both usually met around the HQs, that spot on the dining hall that was yours mainly.

He doesn’t aisle himself nor expresses his fear openly, he just becomes quieter and more thoughtful. 

The moment the night arrives, he goes out to search for hints that can tell him where you are. Every night he goes further, sometimes coming back to the HQs by the sunrise.

Karen was truly worried about him and mad by the fact that he went alone on your search. She already had a dear friend missing to lose his brother now. So she offers him to create a searching group that would mainly include her, Chrome, Nevra himself and some other people that could be close to you. You were more important than whatever happened after your disappearance. 

Nevra felt guilt for losing you, because he felt responsible of taking care of you and he felt like he had failed completely. 

VALKYON

This triggers something on him.

When you go missing he is the one to initiate a search, not even caring what other missions were before. His main priority is to rescue you and make sure that you are alive. He tries to keep his mind cold and be strong until he finds you.

But every day that passes he becomes more scared of the chance of you being dead. He thought for a long while that his brother was dead and that was a pain that he really didn’t know how to cope with – how could he lose you now? 

Every negative report about the search for you stabs his heart.

Someone said “maybe they won’t come back” and that was the last straw for him. He couldn’t deal with the idea of you being gone in every aspect of his life. He failed to protect you as much as he promised himself to protect every single one of his friends. 

He insists on keep searching, even if he slowly breaks down and becomes more emotional about it. Nevra would be the one grounding him, comforting him when Valkyon can no longer hold his tears.

There are nights in which he goes into your room and sits on the bed, thinking about you being there and comforting him about finding you soon. For his well being, Nevra had to shut firmly the door of your room with the key he had because that would only hurt Valkyon more.

LEIFTAN

When Miiko tells him about your disappearance, all he can hope for is that it is all a nightmare. Did you leave on your own? Did you perhaps get kidnapped? Or what if you got killed? Were you alone and scared? Were you cold and hurt? 

His panic makes him overthink and anxious, not really able to focus on anything else than the negative stuff. 

He cannot keep the cheerful, calm and responsible facade of his. It burns him to not know what happened, or if something was going on your mind to make you leave them.

However, he felt bad for trying to search the answer on you as if it was your fault to go missing. The easiest thing is to blame himself too, and the guilt only becomes stronger when he sees no result on the searching expeditions that Miiko started after he begged her to take this seriously.

Every time he goes out to search for hints, he asks people kindly about you. But with time his tone gets more desperate, just as he gets desperate to find you.

He avoids looking at your bedroom door, or to sleep on his bed as he will probably think of your warmth and miss it. 

Unfortunately his habits don’t change. He keeps making tea for two or waiting for you outside the HQs to go for a walk, hoping that you will come back any of those nights.

Leiftan tried to be positive about the situation to other people, trying to keep up the search, but he was losing hopes himself. His mind was the most negative aspect on the conflict.