my sister is trying to move to nc and thatd be cool bc she’d be closeR but like idk i miss when we’d cry together when we needed it. i need it right now lol! i think comforting and crying together is nice when it’s needed! i miss being around my sisters i miss them so much i miss my mom and her dog

low key in a shitty mood because the incredibly exhausting amount of effort i put into things is like. useless lmao

love whenever i find out that someone im friends w is in a good union 😊

Fucked uppp over some childhood trauma shit today

Seeing my dad try to kill my mom and seeing my mom try to kill herself like reaaaaally messed me up huh

contamination style ocd got way worse since corona hit. i am so overwhelmed and worried and i need support but everyone tells me to keep it to my therapist who urges me to talk to friends when i get the Kablooies 🙃 I feel like everyone important to me hates me and all the things i want to do to extinguish it aren't usual in conversation lol i just idk i feel like too many things that lead to too many things and i'm so scared it makes me hateable and i have to clean the apartment even though i'm running on a calorie deficit and i'm too upset to eat lol. I'm so tired and frustrated i'm just going around the apartment exasperated about the task and then i pull my hair and then i cry bc i love my nice thick hair and i don't want to ruin it, and i can't escape the most sad thoughts my brain conjures

lying in bed watching seinfeld, switching between udon and dark chocolate. towel under me bc i got the sake sweats 😳 probably gonna try to nap or something and in a few hours get more chocolate lmao. should grab orange juice too bc i need a lil boost to handle going grocery shopping tomorrow

Yeah actually it does suck

ugh ry*n is so hot

WASP girls will post a photo of their blonde peach fuzz armpit hair and talk about their personal bravery for challenging the male gaze which barely cares about them in the first place

anytime a friend whose work i admire especially when it’s for like over a decade compliments my art or design or whatever it kinda is like. oh hell yea