part of me feels insanely guilty for orphaning my dead dove fics but the other part of me feels like it was necessary. it's over and done now and they're still findable—they're just not on my page.
having joined and written for fandoms i've wanted to make an impression in and been just as violently escorted out left a bad taste in my mouth. it's funny because i've always been a preacher of "don't like don't read" and "write for yourself and no one else" but behind idealism and the hope that people are media literate is a real person who cares about what others think—about their work, and about them as a person.
i say as a person because it's a lot more damaging being insulted and judged to your own face than being sent anon hate. being overtly disliked because of content you produce—even content that other people love—is still a tough pill to swallow.
i got tired of it. so, my work is still viewable, but as close to untraceable as possible while still having my name on it. i'm still pro fiction & ddne. i'm just tired of being marked by it. so all that's left on my main ao3 is content i would only mildly be uncomfortable if someone i knew irl found it.
thank you guys for everything.
