none houses, left grief

TLT does kill your gays but like. In a sexy way. They’re haunting the narrative you can’t stop seeing them in the corner of your eye you can’t live without them they’re integrated into your soul but in such a way that they’re gone forever. Where do they end where do you begin. It doesn’t matter because you’re all dying anyway

its probably a normal sign for the economy that all of my adulthood fantasies are like "imagine having your own kitchen living room and bathroom to decorate" "what if i could get on a train" "maybe one day i could purchase a sturdy pair of shoes" "i should save and invest in a single bicycle"

Best sex position is guy who’s not there but is fundamental to everything

Lyctorhood

thinking about ianthe and harrow sacreligiously indulging each other by using last names, sinning and scrambling for scraps of the pre-canonized selves neither of them thought they would miss. the selves that were tied down by something as ephemeral and ridiculous as filial piety and blood. it’s over and done and we can’t go back and don’t tell god but please just say my name out loud

Reading Gideon the Ninth and I’m not convinced these ‘lesbian necromancers in space’ are ever going to make out, say they love each other or actually date. I’m getting the sense they’re going to spend all four of these books being utterly deranged in a hundred different ways that have never been done before in an extremely disturbing and lesbian fashion. This is not a criticism, I am very much on board for more of this, btw.

Liquor? Um yeah bud if she’ll let me

Gideon the Ninth ass post.

i think one of the many things that makes gideon the ninth really hit on reread is that when i first read it i had only really heard of its reputation as Space Lesbians so i read gideon’s increasing protectiveness of and obedience to harrow, culminating in her final sacrifice, as the straightforward beats of an enemies to lovers bodyguard romance type of thing. but going back with the context of what lyctorhood means, what cavalierhood means, what the empire of the nine houses overall means, makes it much more horrifying that gideon is learning to fall in line as the perfect tool and sacrificial meal, to stop fighting to run away from her situation like she has been her whole life and instead lay her neck on the chopping block. and it is still the romance developing between them! it’s still them learning to trust each other and all the other stuff it is at first glance! because the personal relationships of the characters, their loves and attachments and vulnerabilities, can’t be separated from the horrific power structures they live in! + gideon’s last words in the book are “for the ninth” and it’s an epic one-liner but it’s horrifically sad that she ends by swearing loyalty to the place that abused her constantly from the moment she was born. she’s been fully molded into a tool in the system like the emperor wants. it’s fucked! it’s really good!