God's Princess

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Aspiring singer Ryan Vega has set his heart ONLY for his dreams…or so he thought until he falls in love. With Racquel, his life, which was once quiet and hopeless, has become brighter. He knew that she’s the one.

However, when he lost her, his life turned black. Meaningless. Getting over a day has never been so difficult. He decided that the only way to end all of it is to disappear—to follow her.

*Inhales*

Minsan.. nakakainggit yung mga wala sa honor roll.. no expectations. aaaays.. ito na naman yang issue na yan na matagal nang tapos.graduate na ako't lahat. yan pa din sinasabi ni Papa. bumaba daw honor ko kakacomputer. hindi nga niya alam kung bakit at kung anong pakiramdam ko nung mga panahon na yun. Niluagan ko lang naman yung kapit ko kasi sakalna sakal na ako. sakal na sakal na ako sa mga expectations ng mga tao sa akin.

hindi porket valedictorian ka at lagi ka nalang first honor noong elementary, forever ka nang nasa taas. Oo, mataas rank ko nitong high school, pero pinaghirapan ko yun. Hindi ako easy go lucky. iniyakan ko ang mga projects na mahirap. lalo na ang SIP. kaya talagang nakakasakal yun. di lang nila alam. buong sampung taon, yun ginagawa mo.

Di ako nagpabaya. niluagan ko lang kapit ko kasi nakakasakal na. hindi na ako masaya. nahirapan na ako. hindi madaling mag-aral sa isang Science High School. di niyo alam kasi di niyo naman naranasan, kaya ples. tigilan niyo na ako. hindi madaling pagsabayin ang pag-aaral at problema. alam niyo naman yatang mahina ang emotional capacity ko. kaya mahirap yun lalo na kung wala kang mapagsabihan. shet. paano ko ba sasabihin sa iba? kung titingnan kasi, mukang mababaw lang at emotera lang talaga ako. pero, mahirap eh. sa part ko ang hirap. hindi ko nga alam kung ano bang dapat kong maramdaman.

alam niyo ba kung gaano kahirap na ginagawa mo yung best mo pero wala nang nakakaappreciate kasi nasanay na sila na ganun ang achievements mo? "Ma, pa, 90 something grade ko." titingnan lang nila. pero kapag yung kapatid ko, masayang masaya sila.

I felt so unappreciated so gumawa ako ng ibang bagay na pwede nila akong maappreciate. Nagsulat ako. kaya ako laging nasa harap ng computer. bukod pa don, pagnagnenet ako, nawawala stress ko. Pero hindi nila naappreciate ang pagsusulat ko. waste of time daw. shete. ang hirap talaga. Buti pa ang iba, naaappreciate yun. pero sila? parents ko pa sila....Gusto ko lang namang maging proud sila sa akin sa ibang bagay.

akala ko ayos na eh. yun pala, hanggang ngayon... may dinadamdam pa din sila. shet. ang sakit. ang hirap. di ko na alam.

What I Like About Myself

1. being optimistic (God got my back)

2. My eyes. (although I have dark eyebags)

3. My eyebrows. (not too thin. not too thick)

4. My Handwiritng. (I can fake signatures. LoL)

5. I can draw.

6. I can dance.

7. my being one of the top students in school

8. I learn fast.

9. I don't have a boyfriend. (I think it's cool. no distractions)

10. I'm a good listener.

11. I'm easy to get close with (a lot of my friends say)

12. I'm sweet.

13. I'm not socially awkward.

14. I don't get mad easily/I can't get mad at someone for as long as one day.

15. my humor. (People can easily make me laugh.)

16. I'm appreciative.

17. my liking to reading and writing.

18. kids like me.

19. I'm not malicious.

20. I love my friends so much and I'm loyal to them.

21. My ability to speak well/share my experiences in front of many people.

22. I have lots of cool guy friends who think of me as their sister.

23. I can do a lot of things.

24. I believe in "True love waits", destiny and pure love.

25. I'm so in love with everything about SS501 (boy band/group)

26. I love myself (plain old me, God's princess)

27. I believe in God/my faith in Him.

--KEI ♥

Much love Ivey! xoxo

Can I add some more?

28. I'm not materialistic

29. My thin fingers. They're flexible.