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“His light”

Story by: Marc Lloyd Daray

Edited and Photo by : Marc Lloyd Daray

Broken, blinded and lost. Yes, yes I am. I have been broken. Broken from the sharp words thrown at me carelessly, from the words that meant only a little to you, but already meant so much to me. Yes, yes it broke me. 

“You belong to the family of thieves!" 

"You’re a jerk!" 

"Idiot!!!”

 "You do not know anything"

 "You’re a scumbag" these were the words you’ve shouted upon me. 

You have shouted all your of hatred upon me, you have spitted all of it out of your mouth as if it was the last. But why? Why could I still hear it in my head. It didn’t get out, It continued whispering inside my ears, I could not take it out. Then, it echoed through my brain, traveled through my mind, and went into every vein in my body. Breaking every piece of me every time I remember those words.

 I have been broken from the words you have spitted out of your filthy mouth. Words that have entered my soul and would not get out. Those words had hit me straight at my back, giving pain all over my feeble body. Yes, that’s how it broke me. 

Now I could not use my smile as my defense mechanism against your hate. At first, I thought I could take it, but now I knew I couldn’t. I thought I would be able to go through it but I did not. I think we really do have our own limitations. No one’s too patient, too patient to let go, to forgive, and to forget the words and the people who have hurt you. 

Blinded, blinded I will become. As you continue to do the usual things that would let you gain pleasure, it also did the usual results to me, it’s continually breaking me. 

I thought! I thought again, I thought I would be immune, I though I would be get used to it! But now I had proven, no one can be and will be immune, no one can be immune from the things that is unfailing from giving you pain. You wouldn’t be immune, it’s impossible! But instead, the pain would grow stronger, the pain would eventually be all over your soul, it wouldn’t let you go. I give up, I do not want to stand weakly anymore. 

Blinded, I became. I must prepare to avenge. You have poisoned and destroyed me, I wouldn’t let you do it again. My patience has now already been covered by furious anger and it refuses to calm down. The pain here inside me already reached it’s point. It is payback time baby! Yes it is.

But. 

But… 

But avenging was a failure, I am not yet strong, and I did not succeed. Is this how it is? Will I be weak forever? I grew weaker and weaker after that and sadness was the only feeling left inside of me. How sad this life is. 

This sadness is already eating me. 

But wait, this is not a normal sadness anymore. This is already depression. How come would I be as weak as this? 

Yes, I became, I became blinded, so I decided to take this so called HAPPY PILLS. They said it would make me okay, they said this is the key to happiness. I think it’s okay to take some of these, so that for once in my life, I would smile. Once in my life I would feel the upward curve formed by the mouth in the face. I would feel this special feeling in my heart that would motivate me to continue life. 

So I sniffed some of these, and swallowed it slowly through my mouth, it felt a bit warm, it’s odor went inside my lungs, and then went through my mind. It felt so good. This really is effective. 

I continued to take these pills for a couple of years every time I feel this achy feeling. Yes, blindness took me for years. But as it made me feel better, there are things going wrong. At first, none of these were happening, but as it took longer, these weird things happen already. 

Now, I’m lost. I do not know myself anymore. What is happening? I could not know the distinction of the real and unreal anymore. Sometimes it’s like this, and sometimes it’s not. What does this mean? I now see things normal people would not. I now hear things normal people could not. Why do this things happen to me? Have I not taken enough happy pills? Should I take some of it now? 

“Ahhh!!! Ahhh!!!” I shouted 

“Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.” somebody whispered at me

 "You, you, you!“ 

"Idiot! Useless, Thief” these words keeps being in my ears. It’s not stopping. Then I saw a man with glasses walking towards me. 

So I shouted, “Help me!! Who are these people talking to me?!!!” But, ohhh, wait! There’s three of them! Uh, what?! There’s five of them. They’re around me. What should I do?! They look scary. Some of them is laughing and some are shouting. Oh noooo!! 

“Aggghhhhhh!!!!!!” I shouted loudly. I shouted as if all of my bones and muscles would get out of my skin. Then the whispering and the five people vanished slowly. Then I putted myself to calm and chased my breathed slowly. 

I fell into sleep… But as I woke up, I could see no light. 

Everything is really dark here, where am I? For I see nothing but the absence of light that formed darkness. 

Now, I am really lost. I’m at the very bottom of the abyss. What should I do now? I could make no move for I see nothing, not even my very colorful shirt. 

Whispers starts again! Agghhh!! It’s breaking my ears! As I hear every word from every single whispers, pain started to haunt me back. The pain is now chasing me again. Everything is going back to me again. 

THE PILLS!!! WHERE ARE THE PILLSS!! I SHOULD FIND IT!!! I STOOD UP AND RAN! I RAN THOUGH THERE WAS NO LIGHT! I RAN THOUGH I SEE NOTHING! I RAN THOUGH I DID NOT KNOW WHERE I’M HEADED. ALL I KNOW IS, I SHOULD THE PILLS! 

I am in a great hurry, I should find it soon and waste no time. Cold tears already started falling down on my cheeks. It continued falling as I was looking for the happy pills.

 I ran and ran ‘til I saw a very small image of light far from me. I ran nearer at the light and I saw it was a candle. I was really glad upon seeing it. Finally I could see.

I paused for a moment then stared at the fire produced by the candle. I notice there was an image being conveyed by the fire, so I looked closely again and I was shock on what I saw. 

I saw the image of Jesus Christ.