Kayden

hey! lately I've been having a lot of issues with sleeping at night because I can't find a way to lay without my hypermobility and joints to hurt. and if i do, i can't stay in the same position for more than a couple seconds, so i can't really fall asleep. does anyone have any tricks or advice for this? i would really appreciate it :)

I really didn't need anyone to tell me today how shit my life is. Especially not behind my back. Believe me, I'm very aware of my life is.

I've reached new limits of tiredness. I'm not tired anymore, I'm exhausted. No, I'm not even exhausted, I'm beyond that. It's something deeper, like it's ingrained in my bones, in my core. I thought that it was just burnout, but now I'm not sure. Maybe. Or maybe not. Maybe this is really just a burnout, or a symptom of my chronic illnesses, or something else entirely. I don't know. I just know that I'm a teenager and I don't have the energy to get out of bed most days.

I have this unconscious feeling that I can't do anything to help my disability until I get diagnosed, that I just have to suffer through it. And I know that I should start to accommodate myself, and that I should use my mobility aids, but I just feel like an imposter when I don't have a diagnosis. I mean, what would I even say? "Oh, why do you use a cane?" Because my knees hurt? I mean, I could say that I feel so exhausted just by standing up, and that I'm in so much pain when I have to walk even a short distance, or that going up stairs is the worst part of my day. But, in reality? They would just say I'm exaggerating, and I'm also very tired of that.