Kaya π

‏,But the years come and go

‏ I shall die not knowing

The thing I long to know

Ask me

For anything.

sofia_isella

I’m camera . The new EP out May 23 . Presave in bio . Crowd Caffeine out now .

I'm flirting with a boy that I think wants to murder me.

Can I touch lightly on this topic? Have you ever loved someone that is emotionally manipulative? Someone who can mentally play you like an instrument? Have you ever had someone step into your life and slowly remove others from it? This person could have truly loved you, but loved you in a way that was so silently violent it changed you. Then, by the time you realized it and tried to pull away, you found pieces of them stitched into every part of you.

Now imagine after painstakingly cutting them out, stitch by stitch, they are thrust back into your life. Even worse, you realize you love them. No matter how much grief this relationship has caused you, you crave their love. Their fucked up love. You push away healthy love for this weird battle of wills.