to you alone

ST. VINCENT, SLOW DISCO ➪ there's blood in my ears, and a fool in the mirror, and the pain of mistakes couldn't get any clearer

[Image Description: 4 gifs of Maddie Buckley and Chimney Han from 9-1-1 with the lyrics from Slow Disco by St. Vincent.

ID 1: A scene from season 5 episode 3, Desperate Measures. Maddie hesitates while leaving a voicemail for Chimney. Text on the gif reads, "slip my hand."

ID 2: A black and white gif of a scene from season 4 episode 3, Future Tense. After Maddie comes home from an ultrasound, she and Chimney prepare to watch the video together. Chimney holds the CD in one hand and grabs Maddie's hand with the other, spinning her around. She smiles at him in surprise. Text on the gif reads, "from your hand."

ID 3: A scene from season 5 episode 4, Home and Away. Chimney breaks down as he tries to explain what's happening with Maddie to the doctor outside the hospital. Text on the gif reads, "leave you."

ID 4: A black and white gif of a scene from season 5 episode 3, Desperate Measures. Chimney walks through their empty apartment, looking for Maddie and Jee-Yun, not knowing Maddie's already dropped Jee off at the station and left. Text on the gif reads, “dancing with a ghost.”

“Every time I close my eyes I feel like I could disappear, I could overflow an ocean with the cavalcade of all my tears. And I know I sound dramatic, but that’s just how it feels. I’m holdin’ to the notion that I’ll find something real. I’ve been looking for somebody to tell me that I’m real.”

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