UN/TITLE by: cp

today is a day of realization. in this generation and time the world we live in keep redefining the word "standards, definition, acceptable". trying to change us to the core just because we do not fit in to refined "standards". Let me say this in bold and loud manner ITS OKAY!

Its okay that you are weird. its okay if you have extra pounds or having breakouts marks or the color of your skin. You as a person does is not define by the numbers on your measuring tape or color tone.

its okay if you are conservative or doesn't enjoy provocative photos because your values and value  as women, as a person are not define by how much skin you show nor likes your get.  its okay if you have accent nor don't speak others peoples "language" or have different humor. These does not make you ignorant or dumb rather smart enough to be able to speak multiple languages fluently.

its okay if your not good at some sorts of game or enjoy different hobbies just to fit in. The happiness you get from doing the things you love is priceless, so explore and find those gifts that is in you.

Sometimes we have to stop trying so hard to be be part of the "standards" the "acceptable "the normal". We are created uniquely and beautifully so we have to embrace and celebrate it and besides everyone is taken so be you and live life as amazing as you are.

Its been like forever since the last note I got. I guess I got so overwhelmed with things that makes me forget the thoughts of my daily dose. Anyhow, I took a long walk (like hour) to assess, to find answers, to find thoughts to motivate, to ignite, to fill me in again. I was lost in abyss with no direction.  

The time I left my room, the time I left our house, the goodbyes from those people I treasure it was so unreal. It was a rainy morning that time while stuck on traffic on my way to the airport, it seems like the moment just want to give me extra time to be with everyone else. The sky is crying and sending me off. I know I should be happy, I mean I am happy finally were closing the distance. Finally after everything we have been through, were going to say I do.

It was my first air ride. The first time I see clouds, cotton bed of clouds, it feels like a dream, then I notice my tears rolling down my face, I now know that I'm going out of my box. I now know that I just gave up my comfort zone, my home. I know it will be a total different world from my world. They say every beginning is scary, every stating point is as dark. I know it will be hard. It was emotionally breaking, it will make you question everything. I know I have to be here to be with him, I know I have to be strong for myself, I have to find that hero in me. I know its inside I just need to dig differ. I just need to focus. I need to hold on. I have to build up that life, my life..

After walking and walking for hours, with some bags on my shoulders and both hands, I  realized that now matter how hard, how heavy   all this things I carry, no matter how long I have to walk, I have to move forward. I have to take that one step, another step, one more step again and again until I reaches my destination. I have to focus and enjoy the road along the way. I have to see how pretty those pine trees, I have to focus on the good things along the way rather than putting all my effort to dwell on how far I have to go, or how tiring my situation is. I have to keep moving at the end of the day I will reach my destination and be able to rest and reward myself.