Vape, Nerd, Game

Sigh… Forehead touch… FINGER FLICKKK!!

*Deep breath*

Hi everyone! Still ab-so-loutely not sure if anyone reads this.. I know, I dropped off the grid.. My bad!

I’ve been trying to build the life that just got bombed back up.. I work a lot. Luckily, I love my job and it gives me time to think.

I’m single.. It’s.. Not as great as I remember, really.. Which wasn’t all that great to begin with.…

Wow..

2019, can we pump the breaks?

Dear readers, I’m sorry for my hiatus.. If any of you are still left, know I truly apologize. My life has changed dramatically and I’m learning to roll with the punches..

There is an anonymous poem that hits my soul..

Loving a drug addict is like hugging a cactus.

It hurts, and you hate it, then it blooms and the beauty of it shakes you. You don’t see the…

I married the first boy I ever loved on the playground.. He slipped a Ring Pop on my hand and kissed my cheek. But when the candy was gone, so was our feelings because we grew away.. But he gave me many firsts which came with lessons..

In each relationship I learned more and more.. And made more mistakes than lessons learned, maybe.. I let pride keep me with a man who didn’t want me to grow.. I…

Life is the biggest thing we will ever struggle with. We will struggle until the day we die. While your outlook on life may not be particularly dreary, it’s forever.

Dearly beloved, we have gathered here today To get through this thing called life Electric word life it means forever and that’s a mighty long time -Prince, “Let’s Go Crazy”

Life is as long or short a time as our heart can keep…

Life Is Crazy, People Are Insane

I’m BACK!!!!

Yes, I know. It’s been a LONG time. I’m sorry, but I was locked out of my account. I’m not sure how many of you are still left reading, if any. The responses cut down to barely a drop.. That’s okay though. I’ll still be here.

LIFE IS CRAZY! My child is 12 now.. That’s a big change for me. She has went from dolls to boys. She’s in middle school now, and she has a boyfriend. It’s…

I’ve been gone awhile..

I’m sorry.

The darkness swallowed me. Depression is never easy. I know some of you understand, and I also know some of you may not.

I’ve been stuck in a rut. It’s been a year since my divorce. I’m as free as a bird in the eyes of the law in regards to my ex.. The freedom that I fought hard for, cried for and was prepared to die for.

That doesn’t stop it from manifesting…

I always struggle to find the start of these blogs, even though I’m the writer..

I want to open and sound wise. I want to grab your attention as you read. Yet, in the matter of romance that’s impossible..

We as humans struggle to find our mate. We grow up being shown romantic love in different forms. If you’re a female, you’re given grand illusions of how happy love makes you, only to find out…

Alexa, Play Thunderstorm Sounds..

There’s a symphony in my soul..

Every emotion, every event, it all combines in a bittersweet and beautiful song.

Life is music. My soul song plays and plays.

It is almost 28 movements long, each movement a year of life..

I miss you more and more lately.

Each thought of you brings beautiful low notes in an aching Aria of longing.

How long will the notes hold?

And oh will the memories ever stop…

Guns Guns For everyone Pull the trigger Now you’re done

What’s the cost of an innocent life? A bullet to the head? The blade of a knife?

To your rights That’s the only concern Not the deaths Won’t you learn?

We’re teaching children To live in fear To protect themselves and their peers

These are KIDS not your political debate These are LIVES you’re putting at stake

We are the voices We speak for…

Welcome!

2018 is here and we’re actually almost finished with the first month.. Shocking.

And while it does seem that it’s been a quick month, there have also been a lot of changes. Changes in the way I think, feel towards others and approached the year.

Relationships!!!

Now, don’t get all excited. I’m still single and not dating. Honestly, I’m not even going to attempt it anymore, really. Since…

Hello once again readers!

2017 is winding down (Praise be!) and it’s almost time for the “new year, new me” crap that most people say but actually isn’t true!

In a time honored tradition since I turned 18, my mother asked if I’ve had time to reflect on the year and evaluate. So this is going to be a bit personal (big surprise) but let’s review December 2016 to December 2017 and then discuss goals…

Hello Interwebs.. Today, we’re gonna talk about Addiction! (yay!) Before you get excited, please note that I am not here to hold your hand. This is going to be harsh. Feelings get hurt. So let’s issue a Snowflake warning.

Even when you’re “accidentally addicted”, it’s not a disease. It’s not an illness. While I get that sometimes a drug dependency happens, I feel that’s not actual addiction.  …

It’s a Beautiful Pain

Words escape us all sometimes.. I guess that’s why this has taken so long to update. I’ve been trying to accurately put into words everything I felt should be here. This has been saved as a draft for so long.. Now let’s speak.. Sort of.

A conversation with a friend sparked an inferno of thought.

I was asked why I give so much of myself to others, and how I manage to deal with the resulting…

The Cold Reality of Humanity

Hello..

I don’t really know if any of you are reading. I’d like to think some of you do.. Someone does.. If not, that’s okay. I will stay in this holding pattern and you are free of blame.

Why do I say this? Dear reader, if you exist, please bear with me. I will use examples from this message and know that when I say “you” it is in a general sense, as well as in response to this attack on my…

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For the first time in awhile, I tasted a long forgotten feeling.

Hope..

I won’t say I wasn’t nervous, But I squished that down with determination. I had to be strong in case I wasn’t your expectation. Yet you were afraid you weren’t mine.

Anxiety..

I always overthink.. I really am a fucking mess sometimes. But I didn’t want you to be afraid, So I pretended I wasn’t. After awhile, I stopped…

PSA – You’re not as special as you seem to think..

Let’s clear this up….

*WARNING: If you’re a delicate snowflake, you may not wanna read this.. I could care less but there ya go*

If you’re going to bitch because I don’t have the same views as you to a T? – Delete me

If you’re going to be sensitive because I believe we should just leave statues alone, regardless of who they are? – Delete me

If you’re going to call me intolerant and ignorant…

The Shackles of Humanity

Let’s face it – Sometimes this mortal coil is sucky.. We all have the days when we wish we could throw away our emotions, stop caring about the things that hurt us and fade away..

Yep. Sometimes it sucks to human..

Through the day to day, I observe our world and the emotions that come with it are not always pleasant. Sometimes, the emotion isn’t honestly mine to project. We get offended and hurt…