A place nowhere.

It's been a long time since I said I would share it with you all. I was translating the audio about Yuuki and Kaname.

However, about a month ago, I started reading what people were saying about the story on Reddit, and it really discouraged me. It made me feel selfish for wanting to keep it to myself, even though that wasn't my intention.

What made it harder was seeing so much negativity from Kaname haters, hypocrites, and people who spread misinformation about the story and its characters.

I genuinely want to share it, but at the same time, I don't like the idea of those kinds of people getting access to it for free after constantly disrespecting the story, Kaname, and Yuuki's relationship.

Yuuki directly admits that she had been harboring romantic feelings for Kaname. However, the English translation renders 恋してた as “in love with,” which flattens the nuance of 恋してた and isn’t entirely accurate.

“恋してた”(koi shiteta) comes directly from koi (恋):

koi(恋) → koi suru(恋する) → koi shiteru(恋している) → koi shiteta(恋してた)

and Why Hino Matsuri chose that specific wording when Yuuki first confesses to Kaname, especially when there are so many different ways in Japanese to express romantic feeling?

To avoid any misreading or distortion of her feelings for Kaname: when she says her heart was split in two, it reflects how both emotions were still koi (恋)—simple, unformed, not yet fully matured into something heavier.

「そんな妄想が消えなくて…」 “That kind of fantasy just won’t go away…”