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hey btw remember that fic I posted over a year ago? The one where Neil ran away a year after the events of aftg and only left behind a note for Andrew? The one where Neil kept tabs on all of them from afar? Where he kinda becomes Nathaniel Wesninski to protect them?
yeah⦠I finally posted the sequel I promised (over a year ago)
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who would you think fell first and who fell harder? - š
good evening anon š«”
My answer (if weāre trying to keep it somewhat realistic) is probably Mack, on a technicality.
That being: Mack would clock his feelings towards Will changing, while Will āthe catholic symbolism on my chain weighs more than the average toddlerā Smith would not clock shit.
Allow me to elaborate.
idk if you wanted me to just reply with a name but i'm gonna offer a thesis (i'm not joking, my apa 7 citations are at the bottom. i am a psychologist mastering in neuroscience, i cant be normal)
I find Will to be such a God-fearing devout that his logic wouldnāt even follow the usual āomg Iām attracted to a guy this canāt be happening Iām going to Hellā pipeline, but skip it altogether.
I think it wouldnāt even register until much, much later. The possibility of gayness would be so far removed from the realm of possibility that heād have no problem cuddling and hugging and spending far more time with Mack than he ever did with girlfriends because, to him, acting āgayā, or being perceived as such, wouldnāt even be an option.
"Because of sportās historical role in facilitating normative masculine ideals, men who played sport were not thought likelyāor even possibleāto be gay." (Magrath & Anderson, 2022)
It's not on the menu, so it simply would not cross his mind.
I donāt think heād be the kind to dismiss and laugh it off like ānah Iām just hugging my homie dude no homoā. He wouldnāt make excuses because thereād be nothing TO excuse.
This mentality is common among male athletes. Locker room talk and culture is heavily guardedāa lot happens in there, stuff that any outsider would perceive as 'gay' while those directly involved do not. Because, according to them, if they're willing to partake (ie: comparing sizes, touching tips, holding each others' dicks), it's proof of how straight they are. It's a way of bonding; creating a transcendental connection that unites them as a team. *
So Will would keep smiling softly at Mack, staring for too long, inviting him over, booking dinner reservations for two, and tapping his goddamn ass after a goal, right there on the ice where thousands could see. Because why wouldnāt he? Why wouldnāt he.
"Physical contact alone, as in the history of sex between straight-identified white men documented, does not confirm the nature or intention of a manās desire, let alone, his sexual identity, and the absence of physical contact confirms nothing. Professional wrestler John Cena says: a hard-on is just āwhat the body doesā." (Chow, 2021)
Walk with me
They wouldāve both gone through the same thing at a similar pace, I believeādeveloping feelings and whatnotābut Mack (despite the internalised homophobia and fear thatād inevitably come with being a closeted queer boy in the NHL in todayās political climate) wouldāve at least read between the lines of his repression. Heād recognise what was happening. He's too self-aware not toātoo in tune with his body and its limits not to notice his pulse quickening when Will sits too close.
Sure, he wouldāve preferred if it never happened at all, but he could admit that it had. If only to himself.
Will, however, would NOT read between the lines; he canāt see the lines. He was never handed the book in the first place.
I think that, in this case, Mack would understand Willās ignorance wouldnāt come from a place of stupidity/bigotry, nor an attempt to pretend he wasnāt equally as neck deep in shit.
"One might argue that misogynistic and homophobic male bonding in the locker room is an attempt to disavow the overt homoeroticism of the space." (Chow, 2021)
I think Mack would see through the all-American, church-going, God-fearing, rich conservative jock and understand he wouldn't be consciously sweeping the āsinful stuffā under the rug, but actually not sweeping at allābecause Will doesnāt consider himself capable of āsinningā in the first place. Not in that way.
So, nothing to sweep; nothing to hide.
And then, when Will inevitably got with the program, he'd be capable of recognising those feelings hadn't just spawned overnight, but that he'd been carrying them around for months.
Publicly, I don't think anything would changeānothing like suddenly sitting farther apart and pointedly looking awayāthat would only make it seem as though they'd been doing it 'romantically' up until that point. Privately, there would be a new tension neither would acknowledge. They'd fight tooth and nail to keep things 'normal'.
A never-ending game of chickenāif you don't sit close to me on the couch, if you refuse to hang out one-on-one, if you suddenly room with someone else on roadiesāthen you're the first one making it weird. A Thing. An issue. Gay.
Hugs and touches and looks donāt have to be gay unless one of them suddenly starts acting like they are.
So. As of today, December 7th 2025, if they were attracted to each other in any capacity, they'd both be aware. The oxymoron of it all would reside in acting 'gay' to highlight their straightness: "We're so comfortable in our heterosexuality that we can kiss and spin and lovingly stare at each other on live TV as a sign of brotherhood."
I don't think anything else would make sense.
Neither of them would be willing to risk so much (in Mackās case, his career; in Willās, his faith and values)
So Will would keep smiling softly, staring, plopping down on Mackās bed to scroll on TikTok, holding him too tight after a goalā¦
And Mack would take it like a champ; and to the goddamn grave.
To summarise: if they fell, they dragged each other downāMack would simply notice sooner.
They would carry it in silence and pretend like nothing had changed. Because if they stopped all the touch and closeness, thatād be far more incriminating. They'd never say it out loudāthey'd sit even closer together as a way to convince themselves that they were successfully being 'normal'.
REFERENCES
Magrath, R., & Anderson, E. (2022). Sport, Masculinities, and Heteronormativity. En L. A. Wenner (Ed.), The Oxford Handbook of Sport and Society (1.a ed., pp. 889-906). Oxford University Press. https://doi.org/10.1093/oxfordhb/9780197519011.013.47
Chow, B. D. V. (2021). Epistemology of the locker room: A queer glance at the physical culture archive. Contemporary Theatre Review, 31(1ā2), 74ā90. https://doi.org/10.1080/10486801.2021.1878505
(Highly recommend Chow's article)
POV: you're Will Smith's windshield.
(Macklin Celebrini is actually quite terrifying š)

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Situationship final boss: WillMack
(Decided to finally add Toff and Ekky into the mix)
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EVERYBODY SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPP
Let's say the, uh, snowball became an avalanche.
Will Smith Hockey and his Confidence Dilemmaā¢ļø
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Reasons why he had every fan around the globe screaming āomfg shoot the fucking puckā for months + the willmack paradox
Willās hesitation (borderline reluctance) to shoot the puck has been An Issue this season. So much so that heās been questioned and called out on multiple occasions by reporters and commentators (and his dad).
Iām not sure if he insisted on passing the puck, rarely attempting to score himself, because he genuinely believed other players had better chances, or because the possibility of missingātrying and failingāwould be too much to bear. But the fact remains: for a while there, he seemed scared to even try.
My guess, however, would be something along these lines:
If your name is regularly spoken in the same sentence as a generational talentāsāsomeone like Macklin Celebriniācomparison is unavoidable and really fucking unpleasant. Because no matter how you look at it, stats and numbers donāt lieāyou automatically become a walking second place medal. So, better to pass and let someone else fail (or get an assist if they succeed) than try, miss, and remind everyone youāre not as good; why youāre the sidekick and not the one being compared to Crosby.
You canāt fail if you donāt try.
Hereās the thing. Will is only second to Mack in points within the Sharks, and heās tied with players such as Evgeni Malkin and Mitch Marner across the league, which is stupidly impressive for someone on his second year. And yet, his name is rarely brought up without Mackās attached. And no matter how good the friendship, that takes a toll.
Will adores Mack, thatās not up for discussion, but first and foremost these guys are hockey players. Elite, competitive athletes who only got this far by consistently being better than everyone else, outdoing their peers, and proving their worth.
And if suddenly his every achievement is used to elevate someone else? Someone whoās already being compared to the players he grew up idolising? It cuts deep.
Additionally, Willās always been among the top players of every team heās been a part of. Maybe not the best, but at least it was acknowledged that he was important. Now? Heās repeatedly benched after the most mundane of mistakes, he wasnāt allowed on the same line as Mack at first, and when he scores the media hones in on Macklinās assist instead.
Every single time. Because up until yesterday, Mack had been involved in every single one of Willās goals this season.
Itās hard to hype yourself up while spending 24 hours a day next to a legend in the making. A living, breathing reminder that breaking records at 19 is possible, just not for you.
Mack has already cemented himself as the future of the franchiseābound to be One Of The Greatsāand it comes to a point where we have to remember that, yes theyāre friends, but theyāre also NHL players who compulsively watch tapes of their own mistakes and highlight reels of everyone elseās successes.
Weāre talking about people who spend 90% of their time picking apart their every flaw, so it must be excruciating to know that he can train as hard and for as many hours as Mack, and still fall short. Because the fucked up truth of the matter is sometimes you just donāt have it.
Accepting heāll be in Mackās shadow for as long as they play together mustāve been a hard pill to swallow.
So, to summarise: Iām very glad he put his foot down and is finally taking chances on his own; shooting the puck from impossible angles and reminding himself (and everyone else) that he got picked 4th overall for a reason
Will and Mack, as a pair, have become a force to be reckoned with and thatās indisputable, but I think Will got used to being āthe magicianās assistantā and forgot he can do magic of his own
I hope that what we saw last game in Vegas is here to stay, because no matter how gratifying willmackās chemistry is, Will has been relying on Mack like a crutch heāll stumble without.
And thatās simply not true, my guy. You were picked 4th, youāre the highest BC draft in history, youāre on par with Evgeni Malkin and one point away from Alex fucking Ovechkin. Act like it š«µ
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disclaimer: iām theorising based on game footage, interviews, and this seasonās statistics. However, no matter how objective i try to be, i donāt know this man. At the end of the day iām speculating based on observable behaviour and studies regarding athlete psychology ā i could be completely, utterly, and throughly wrong
The willmack of it all.
A summarised list of miscellaneous things that have brought us to this point (them becoming the most popular hockey rpf pairing despite this being their SECOND year) :
Less than 2 years ago they were rivals, genuinely hated each other. Nowadays they mention one another anytime the opportunity presents itself (fondly and smiling softly).
They openly and happily admit they spend most breaks together. They used to sneak out of their respective houses to have dinner together.
Theyāre side by side at every anthem and skate out one after the other at every game.
They often go out to lunch, and golf, and basketball games, and sometimes broadway shows on their own. They still share hotel rooms (and anytime they had to room with someone else, they called the experience āstrangeā). They admit to being disappointed when their stalls arenāt next to each other in the locker room.
They sometimes ditch the group to play sewer soccer by themselves.
They accidentally have matching suits (and cars, and shoes)
They spend most of their free time at each otherās house and have gone through a considerable number of classic movies (not horror) and niche romcoms.
Will puts up with Mackās white noise at night, and Mack puts up with Willās synth pop music in the morning. They would be each otherās emergency contact. They objectively perform better on the ice if theyāre on the same line.
They have a joint TikTok account. The username is both their names smashed together ā wcpsmrc ā and it used to be Willās personal account. He offered it up. Instead of, yknow, making a new one.
Mack often seems to instinctively lean into / sway towards Will if theyāre standing / sitting close enough.
(Not to say Will doesn't lean into Mack's space, because he does. A lot. But as far as i can tell Mack does it more often)
(i mean. look at those nfl game pictures, that man tries to have as much direct contact with Will as possible) -- (they're different pictures, i swear) -- (also peep the iron grip)
On the bench Mack tends to yap nonstop right into Willās ear (bc personal space isnāt a thing) and Will lets him, silently nodding along.
(Mind you, on average thatās 40 minutes on the bench per game).
They look for each other after scoring. They look for each other even if theyāre not the ones who scored.
Will taps Mack's ass after celebrations (I'm not fucking joking) and Mack simply smiles.
During cellys they refuse to let go of each other, even as the other guys crowd them.
Mack has an assist on all of Willās goals. Will has an assist / was on the ice for most of Mackās goals. Theyāve already entered the top 5 scoring duos (and they werenāt even on the same line the first month of the season).
They made each other wear their college jerseys after losing a bet.
Other teammates use them as a measuring scale when explaining how close they are to other players "we're good friends but not like will and mack, those two are different".
When they get to hotels, they rarely use the TV at all because they spend too much time talking. Additionally, Toff has said sharing a wall with them during roadies is Hell because those two will be wrestling/play fighting/laughing and āmaking weird noisesā until midnight. They also order milk and cookies every night.
When one of them is being photographed to capture that ātying his skates before the gameā picture, the other one is usually trying to make them laugh by being an idiot behind the camera.
They have a specific handshake they do in the locker room before skating out onto the ice
Theyāre together so often there are virtually no candid videos of one without the other in the background.
Mack is helping rehab Will through strength training.
Will stays nearby when Mack argues with a ref.
If theyāre not sitting together on the bench, Mack constantly glances over at Will, even if someoneās talking to him.
There have been multiple instances of Will pulling a face or doing something funny in between whistles to get a laugh out of Mack (ie: pretending to eat the salts).
And theyāre both pathological liars. For instance: Will often claims to be a communication student at Boston College to avoid social interaction, and Mack claims to be 6āft.
He is, in fact, not 6āft. He is 5ā11.
Honorary mention to their banter:
āThat didnāt happenā āIt did happen and thereās proofā āHeās being dramaticā āThere is a HOLE in my WINDSHIELD?ā āThereās a small dent in your windshield, you can barely see itā āITS THE SIZE OF YOUR FIST??ā
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(disclaimer: some of these events have been exaggerated. i am looking at it through an rpf lens)

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Hii I donāt follow hockey but I love that style and you said something about drawing f1 drivers I think
Will you do all the hockey players first and then f1?
I think if I tried to draw all hockey players (even just one full team) Iād go insane
Rn my plan for hockey is to draw another 5 or 6 maybe? I have specific ones in mind. And then keep adding whenever a player catches my attention yknow
That said I donāt have a set schedule for this and Oscar Piastri is calling my name. So idk. Iāll probably finish up the Macklin chibi and do Oscar (and Max)
but donāt quote me on it
WILL SMITH HOCKEY
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This took longer than I'm willing to admit. So much longer.
Me: omg what if I make chibis of all my fav hockey players and fi drivers-
* spends 7 hours on this shit *
...okay so maybe not. ( probably will let's be honest)
And without the visor bc Iāve spent so long looking at this I canāt tell what looks better anymore
You think youāre having a bad day? The sharks scored and the goal was overturned. Klinberg is still on the damn ice.
The devils scored first and then let through 3 GOALS in a whopping 25 SECONDS.
This is awkward.
You think youāre having a bad day? The sharks scored and the goal was overturned. Klinberg is still on the damn ice.
The devils scored first and then let through 3 GOALS in a whopping 25 SECONDS.
the devil couldn't reach me so he made me watch my favorite driver slowly lose his spark

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all the f1 x gladiator drawings i've done so far
do you have the āi love getting complimentsā clip? i donāt think ive ever seen it :D
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