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DISCLAIMER : Im not encouraging sleep deprivation. Im simply sharing my experiences because I've insomnia and i tend to be sleep deprived everyday. Also, a very long post ahead! [+Permashifter]

TRIGGER WARNING : Su!c!d3

I wasn't expecting myself to write this which is crazy because I've been wanting to write this kind of blog for a long while.

I didn't had this full knowing belief in the void. I never really did even when I was affirming like my life depended on it (which it did). I never contradicted myself in the past two weeks. But somehow it still felt, like it's all so unreal. Because you are telling me, who always wanted to live her life but never this life due to her very shitty family, is now getting a chance at second life? It felt like a dream come true. Like it's a genie. Like it's something that can get me out of this hell finally.

So maybe I did put the void on pedestal for a while.. a long while. Before I was forced into realizing that shouldn't be the case. The only thing that im supposed to put on the pedestal is ME! Thank you to the dozens of bloggers who keeps me on my toes with their tough love posts. I really fucking needed it to get it through my thick skull.

[I think im yapping too much so moving on]

I've known LOA for years now. I found it probably by 2022-2023. Though, at first it was law of attraction and uhm yeah, that didn't end well. So I moved on to law of assumption very quickly. I used to manifest a lot, like a lot on daily basis. Mind you i was a teen, like 15-16. Though i vividly remember myself manifesting weathers and stuff on daily basis at the age of 17. So yeah, LOA has never been a problem to me. Though.. i did use tumblr back in 2023, and ofc it led me to void state because it was so popular.

And yeah, long story short— I put the void state above me. Alas, I never really entered it. Though there were times i was too close to it. It happened twice and i still remember it. It was through lucid dreaming.

I've been struggling from insomnia for a long time. From the age of 13 to 20 now. It's hard for me to fall asleep most of the time. At some point, I ended up in a constant cycle of sleep deprivation and only small naps in the afternoon. That was where the LD started. It happened once, then again the next day. I was like.. damn, it's quite easy huh? Why not use it for void? So i did!! I ended up in a dream, remembered that im dreaming and then affirmed like a mantra "iminthevoidstateiminthevoidstateiminthevoidstate". I starting to fall backwards, somewhere in pitch black and my heart started beating so fast. I was panicking inside and ofc.. i woke up in my bed. Sigh.

It happened again, and I kind of lost it because 'maybe it wasn't really for me'. At that time I was suffering through life-long medical issues. I've been sick for years now, still am. It got so bad at some point that I couldn't attend school at all. I was in senior highschool. [Im Indian so boards are hell iykyk so yeah 11th and 12th was a misery for me. But ay! I still passed with 80%.]

And at that time, I left tumblr to focus on studies. Idk how but i completely forgot about void state. I didn't use tumblr, or anything related to LOA.

Until this damn year! It was 10 march. My bias left his group.. (fuckyouhybe). God i was so devastated (still am). Kpop groups have been such a comfort for me and I just couldn't digest hee leaving enha. Somehow through the protest and stuff on X, a baddie was gathering other Manifestation believer baddies. I gasped so loudly and downloaded tumblr so fucking quick yall.

So I've been lurking on here from late march. Uhm yeah, i knew what I was reading. I knew what to do but I still couldn't. I was stuck in the constant cycle of procrastination -> scroll through tumblr -> read hundreds of blogs -> not applying -> no fucking results. I knew i was procrastinating, I KNEW i need to stop it because this reality is so close to having me h@ng myself.

So i locked the fuck in. Affirmingaffirming, listening to subliminals, mental diet but my birthday was approaching. I've been fucking horrified for the past three weeks cuz I did not want to experience it. I did not want to turn 20. Did not want to listen to my family talk shit about how wørth!ess I am. And god, my birthday was yesterday. I survived but it was the worst day of 2026 so far (second being 10 march, fuckyouhybe)

I cried so much last night. I wanted to k!llmyse!f. I couldn't sleep yesterday at all but I've never really been able to sleep anyway. So it wasn't a big deal. Sigh, consoling myself (its okay)

[Context— I was affirming for LD the past two days. Whenever I remembered, I did reality checks like trying to push my finger through my palm before lazily whispering to myself 'am i dreaming? Oh im not dreaming'. I just did it because why not? I was so desperate two days ago. So I started at the night of 16th, affirmed everytime I rememberd. And just this morning, it started to feel somewhat natural like i kept remembering to affirm even though i wasn't really putting effort into it. Like i said, I did it lazily]

Until i took a nap just this afternoon. I ended up having a lucid dream. Idk what the fuck was happening but my voice ringed in the same lazy manner 'am i dreaming?' I couldn't even finish my sentence because lmao i gasped so dramatically, 'shit im dreaming' I started affirming 'imthevoidimthevoidimthevoid' immediately.

When I tell you it was so fucking crazy. My body immediately start flying upwards like i was being vacuumed? There were crazy tremors, like i was having a seizure of some sort and there was a clock. Like when u close your eyes and instead of darkness theres a fucking clock— it was moving so fucking fast. Almost felt like it was going to announce the time of my death 😭 but i did not stop affirming. I ignored it. I kept and KEPT affirming stubbornly. My heartbeat was so loud for a moment before I started to feel like somewhat peaceful. Like i was so close to the void state because that kind of relaxation— I never felt it.

Just, JUST RIGHT WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO ENTER IT— I WOKE UP HERE OH MY FUCKING GOD. I was so close. SO close. Even when I opened my eyes, my body was so fucking heavy and it felt like I was glue sticked to the bed. I never felt this kind of sensation ever after waking up. Even after sitting up, my limbs felt so heavy like i was in MABA before waking up.

I immediately got teary but didn't cry because of course i knew the void is easy. It is but it never felt like that way. Cr to that one video I saw today and the pretty lady in it said 'Just because it feels like doesnt mean its a fact'. Yeah. Just because void/shifting/anyfuckingthing feels like it's hard, it doesn't mean its a fact. It's simply a feeling.

trust me, i get it. for a lot of people (2020 shifttok survivors), it’s been years. and after waiting for that long, you get sick of hearing people say it’s “as easy as breathing,” “you’ll shift when it’s right,” or “i shifted once i stopped caring.”

and it’s so easy for giving up to look more appealing than continuing your journey. it’s all too effortless to say “fuck this, it’s been too damn long, maybe this just isn’t for me.” i used to often find myself struggling to find a reason to keep going, keep attempting, in the face of what felt like endless failure.

i'll start by saying that shifting fatigue is so real and so normal. you're not wrong for feeling this way. you're not lazy or undeserving of shifting. when you want something so badly for so long, and you feel like you're so close only to be denied again, it is genuinely exhausting. why wouldn't you become bitter? why wouldn't you get tired of forcing yourself to stay hopeful? you're not wrong for that.

over time, shifting can stop feeling fun and just feel like a chore. you don't think about how excited you are for your dr throughout the day anymore, you just anticipate another failure.

it's no wonder that becomes exhausting. you're not supposed to bully yourself into shifting or brute force your way there. stop pretending to be motivated if you're not. that's why i stopped posting on this blog for a long time, i just didn't have it in me. i was tired and i admit that. but that doesn't mean i ever gave up, and neither should you. resting is not the same as quitting.

reconnect with the part of shifting that actually brought you joy in the first place. stop worrying about methods, symptoms, the 3d, if you're doing not enough or too much or everything or next to nothing. think about your actual desire.

where are you most excited to go? what's the first thing you want to do? who's the first person you're going to hug? what are you gonna eat? what's your day-to-day life like? where do you go to school? who's your best friend you can't wait to gossip to? who's your worst enemy you can't wait to beef with? remind yourself why you want this.

and if you can't bring yourself to do any of this because you're that burnt out, let me remind you that that still doesn't mean you won't shift. your emotional state is not a blockage. you do not need to be your most faithful sunshine and rainbows self in order to shift. you don't need to raise your vibrations or do shadow work or become a monk with perfectly balanced inner peace. i'm not denying that those things can help, but you can still be tired and over it and decide "i'm in my dr", and end up there.

sometimes the healthiest thing you can do for your shifting journey is to take a step back from it. stop digging up the roots to check if they've grown, let the seed stay in the soil. and above all, don't be ashamed to admit that sometimes you're just over it and that's okay.

No idea how alive the KREW community is here but hiiii the ending to yhs was finally revealed ten whole years later in the 12 mil special and they mentioned that there’s a new thing in the works yall i am SO HYPED

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HELLOOOOOOOOO AGAIN!!! been a couple days since my last post . . . i've been chilling lately, just trying to let my brain reset a bit after my last shift. I shifted from a lucid dream but when i woke up i had the most insane, debilitating headache for some reason. It like really turned me off from shifting again for like a week. Anyway, I'm back shifting again !!

I've been trying more and more with my method, letting myself enjoy the moment and have patience with my body during meditations. It works every time, what can i say? I always have a good experience when i just sit back and relax.

Because of this i think that i'm just done with all the other methods i like to do lol. They work okay i guess but this method is the easiest and most relaxing for me (which is why its called the super duper easy method LMAO). I used to not be able to meditate or even shift using intention. It took me 5 years to get here, and honestly I'm not mad about it ! I learned some lessons here and there. I'm saying all this to tell you that even if you think you're failing or incapable of a certain method, it's not necessarily true. You can't fail to shift. You can shift but not end up in a place you like, sure, but you can't fail. You can only teach yourself / your Awareness to wake up in a place you like, using any method. Remember: patience is always key.

JUST SO YOU KNOW: Awareness is everything and doesn’t need any mental conditions or physical yada yada to be awareness. You don't need to meditate, but if it makes your thoughts quieten and create less resistance from your EGO, then its highly recommended. :) This post is for those who like to meditate and end up in altered states of consciousness.

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For a percentage of shifters, altered states are the key to everything. States tend to help for those of us who have racing thoughts and doubts that hinder our journey when we feed into them. When you get into an altered state, you're less connected to your brain and therefore your ego, which only exists in your brain. From an altered state it's very easy to shift. It may take some a while your first time around but that shouldn't matter because time doesn't even exist and you shouldn't care anyway. I sure don't. Just make sure you pick a time when you're "free" and can just chill for a while.

Getting into an altered state may feel like a total fail at first. You get into your comfy position, start meditating and are immediately hit with doubts. This an amazing post that explains it very well. The person who wrote that is literally a f*cking god. I recommend you read that before you read this because that is the post that truly opened my eyes to how easy awake shifting is.

Anyhoo, at this point you should know all about the encounter stage and how to get past it. I'm not here to explain that because you hopefully read the post. What I will tell you is what to do after that, and what typically happens for me.

After about 18 minutes and 9 seconds (yes, i've counted), my mind gets extremely fuzzy and i immediately start heading in tons of different OBE directions. Just now before I made this post, I randomly got the idea to Astral Project despite never doing it before. I imagined myself out of my body, doing astral things i guess and then i literally felt my Spirit(?) begin to JUMP out of my body. It felt very weird but i didnt do it fully because my heart isn't in it all that much. Then, I started shifting. This happens very quickly for me but can either go right or wrong because I always shift with one or two senses before the rest, so it sucks because i can still feel my ego while simultaneously feeling a whole different person in another reality. This won't happen to everyone. I feel like it only happens to me because I may have an attachment to my CR.. idk.

You'll know when you get to the Point of No Return (sounds scary but its not trust me lol). Your doubts will be quiet and the only thing that will prevail is your affirmations and your want to shift. It'll feel like your shifting voice is much much louder than your doubting voice, which is good because you're right there on the edge!!! At this point all you have to do is keep up with assuming whatever it is you want to do. Typically, I affirm "I am pure awareness" until i start rolling around in a pit of darkness. I just end up completely detached from my body and surroundings and just exist within the Void. Or, I end up doing 5 senses until i start blinking through my DR self... and then yea! Thats all!!!

If you don't shift to your DR this time, that's fine. You can stop at any time. As long as you know that you will improve at this and keep consistency, then you'll awake shift in no time ! i literally taught myself this after 5 years of hoping and begging for results. I had no clue what i was doing. If i can do it, you can do it way faster.

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