FINAL POST
All right, itās been 5 or so months since I last posted here.Ā
The long and short of it is that SnK wasnāt the only reason I left this blog. Real life/work stress was a big part of it on top of SnKās clumsy handling of delicate subject matter and the SnK fandomās overwhelming insistence that the author of SnK was a genius (and I was the dumbass who just Wasnāt Looking Closely Enough to Realize It).Ā
It was just too much to deal with all at once.Ā
Yāall know my stance on how fiction can and does affect reality, so letās not go there. The issue I have was that all of these negative things wadded themselves up into a giant hateful ball in my mind. This blog, and the fact that its very foundation was almost entirely based on being an SnK blog...made me feel gross and ugly. Look, I donāt think itās silly to be disappointed or put off by something youāve been thinking about and dissecting and having fun with for literal years of your life. Itās been something like 4.5 years Iāve been following this series! Iām upset that something I thought might do a 180 and be great...ended up feeling bad to me. Itās hard to see something with potential lambaste itself like this, especially when Iāve spent four and a half years following it and defending it.
You are free to disagree. I totally understand that some of you adore the series for the good parts, or you ignore the hateful things; maybe youāre just here to see how it ends. I can respect that.
But I literally canāt exist without being critical. I know a lot of my followers resented my posts because it makes them feel stupid or weird for liking the things that I criticized. I tried to stop being negative (because constant negativity is a downer), but it was hard to exist in a fandom space where I felt I couldnāt say my piece any longer without putting off people who followed me.
But hey, after a break... I feel a lot better! I think Iāve come to terms with wanting to like a series/a world/characters/whatever, but struggling to because of fandom opinion and my personal discomfort, not to mention the frustration and uncertainty of the series itself.
SnK isnāt any different than Harry Potter or RK or Twilight or any other series where the author turned out to be shitty or misinformed or just generally an idiot.Ā
If my salt makes you uncomfortable or uneasy, this is goodbye. I had fun here! I enjoyed interacting with you guys, talking characters and meta with you. It was lovely. But if reading my meta and posts makes you feel bad about yourself or uneasy or just awful? Itās okay to break ties. Sometimes itās necessary and I want you to take care of you; have a good one!
For those of you who would like to follow my new blog, the url is @mannatea.Ā
Please view this blog as an archive. I hope some of you will still find it useful. :)

















