go outside i'm not joking

graduated magna cum laude w my creative writing ba in 4.5 years w manageable loans. got a new car bc my old one was dying, went from a huge ass suv to a subcompact hatchback and the gas mileage difference is crazyy i do have a loan on that i wanna get knocked out asap. havent named the new car yet, gotta wait for inspo to hit, cant force it yknow. got into and out of credit card debt in like 3 months. 3000 it was rough had to put my whole tax return into paying it off check your accounts guys :^ waiting on half my masters apps to get back to me, trying to stay optimistic but idk if i'll get accepted this round. trying for fully funded poetry mfas. super competitive most are less than 1% acceptance rates. one waitlist three rejections three pending rn including my dream school which is hell waiting on. there's one i havent heard back from i think i could have a solid chance getting accepted into though, it's catered to a writing niche i'm in. problem is it's in a very small town and im a mid to big sized city guy :/ like if you got less than 500k idk.. oh yeah im published now and got 2nd place for a poetry award. working 55 hours a week between 2 diff jobs to start paying of loans and to save for the cross country move if i get in somewhere. morning job is barista lead at a tiny cafe where i design seasonal drinks and menus, pay isnt the best ever but not too bad and it pays the bills and very creatively satisfying. night job i hate tbh im order taker/food runner/expo for a bbq place and im technically pescatarian but mostly vegetarian so the shifty is kinda useless and the coworkers are annoying but the pay is insanely good. they do have tofu actually but it's deep fried and i have familial hypercholesteremia so i gotta avoid fried food so i dont have a heart attack or whatever. i hate working with cishets bro why are you trying to talk to me about football i have facial piercings and soap brows what do you expect me to say. lost 10 lbs so far this year and trying to lose 10 maybe 15 more before summer. doing pt bc i keep getting bad running injuries. havent been able to run since september which has been really hard on my mental. it's my favorite hobby and helps w my mental health and sleep so much and it's so fun i just want to get back into ittttt. pt said if im still improving this week i could get the green light to run like 5 mins twice a week but my knees have been hurting so i dont think theyre gonna let me :((