Saint Jude Of Inappropriate Relationships

I didn't even notice until first read of chapter 8 how my obsession bloomed into fucking tree all of sudden, and i kept forgetting about Lorcan because this fucked-up manfailure stinky wet soppin delusional brother started haunting my thoughts every day of my life. Because i love pathetic men, and between Lorcan and Sally... Sally's the most pathetic at this point, even if he'll be offended by that fact lmao. And i also loved heart-slicing angst for nearly all my life, and which story is most painful and hopeless with probably no good end ever on horizon? SallyCrowny. He's in my head since may and is still here to this day. I tried to distract myself with new games and stories and i thought i started managing somewhat, but soon after you created this blog with news that Sally x Crowny DLC will be.... oh boy, was i doomed. I don't know how to get rid of this curse, thank you???😭

But i want to start with, well, perception of him at first, as a fellow aro...

I just don't know if anyone ever thought, but i surely did not see anyone talking about it on both your blogs, so:

I think that one of the reasons why Sally is so possessive and doesn't want to let go of Crowny is his aromanticism. As he's traditional, of course he will clutch onto Crowny for dear life - values where it is important to have family, a spouse with kids especially, and that friends are nothing but afterthought in the end.... being aromantic is already lonely af even in more inclusive world, but in Croun??? Where people he surrounds himself with beside his family also share the same values? He doesn't have a gf/wife nor children, nor does he want to (even if he wishes that he wanted to, he just can't?? can't make himself), Orla was normal and had relationship, Percy is normal also and has a gf, of course if anything they would eventually marry and start their own family or whatever - it's possible. And some people he knows probably all have romantic partners and families already. But Crowny is here - the one who's unlike others and never thought about romance (so far as he knows), and the way he grew them- so he believes, or hopes very badly, that they would be just like him. At least he'll have Crowny without being lonely. Because they are family, of course they are the only one for each other in this world. Because Crowny won't leave, right? That's why he doesn't want them to ever fall in love - not only because of "what if somebody will break their heart" or being unfit for them, but fearing "what if they will fall in love and leave, just like everyone normal would", because romantic relations are the most important ones, and then where will it leave Sally? Alone in this house, realizing that he has no one at all...

If he was in better environment with better views and inclusive and accepting world growing up, maybe then he would have friends and be better mentally, but as much as his traditional values hurt queer, trans/enby Crowny and therefore queer readers who hate/love him, not everyone sees that these values also hurt him as much. I'm afraid there's no way out for Sally beside death or lonely/unhappy life if he doesn't ever want to change or believes there is anything needing to change in his worldview. He's literally doomed.

So if i remove myself from my low worth Crowny's blind love for him, at least as fellow aromantic i feel so bad for him. What could have been. But what won't be. JUST PURE ENDLESS PAIN.

But on "brighter" topics, it's fun to imagine many ways his relationship with Crowny can be in many AUs or whatever: aro4aro SallyCrowny who are: 1. each others exeptions, but still aro 2. queerplatonic relationship 3. just same canon relationship but WITH BENEFITS (which includes his greysexuality, and whether Crowny is allosexual, demisexual or grey, too, or whatever else there is), or 4. allo Crowny who has one-sided feelings for him

and so on, and so forth

honestly, at this point i have so many aus for Crowny and Sally and even crossovers - that's how bad this story haunts me.

I never cared for incest, but damn was Crowny's relationship with Sally so crazy, where out of normal siblings like Percy and Orla where thinking about such things makes me feel the same "ew, gross" as with my real family, he was the only one who made the wrong thing feel so... right. And so fucking desirable and hot.

And i'm also happy that you write such dark things in fiction, because that purity culture was already bleeding me dry. You heal the nature of fiction. I wish you a lot of strength.

Anyway, i'm very looking forward to how suffocating Sally's love/care will feel in that DLC. I still have many questions and things i want to share, but i'm already scared this ask is too long already to fit

So, I don't have much to add to this I just thought it was a nice analysis from a perspective we don't see much with Sally, his sexuality.

Carmen has the biggest

Carmen can last a while, not the whole night but between an hour and two

I know of another if that will have a brother RO but since it's not my secret to tell I will reblog when the time comes

HOW MUCH MORE DEPRAVITY CAN MY POOR SOUL TAKE?!

Hmmmmm

Dante never has. As a modern American™️ man he didn’t even think of it being something he had to keep in mind. TBF! It’s not gender specific, he doesn’t prioritize anyone’s pleasure but his own. Luce will straighten him out

this is another uterus haver reporting: lmao, I did not have to be trained to enjoy anal like. it was just fun from the getgo T-T so sorry to that other person though!!!

analingus exists, toys exist, most of the same nerve endings … are also there … for the uterus havers (also fwiw ime you can hit the vaginal gspot with anal… it’s just a millimeter of tissue further away…)

So I did say it varies from person to person. Just like how although most women cannot orgasm from penetration, some can

Truth told, uterus havers on majority don’t take to it so easily. I think it not only has to do with anatomy but also that if you’re a gal dating a guy, men aren’t taught to prioritize women’s pleasure by porn nor society at large, so there isn’t proper foreplay and preparation in most cases. So I guess count yourself lucky? Haha

Courage… hmm… where does it come from?

I don’t know. My personality was just the type of eventually say fuck it and do it.

But if you’re scared, I would say what’s stronger? The fear or the desire to do what you want? You can’t stop yourself based on what future strangers will say

These people who you don’t know, will already win without having ever tried if you decided to remove things you wanna add for fear of them.

Plus, there are authors here that will defend you if need be. I’ve gotten so many people tell me I inspired and so I feel a responsibility to protect them

Interesting question!

So I searched up how often it happened and like the peak was apparently from the 40s until the 80s. So a whole 40 or so years after the birth of my amab ROs from OYHS

Greer, Ashley and Jack have foreskin (apart from the time periods of their birth, Greer and Jack weren’t born in a state of the art hospitals anyway to even consider it).

Um so I’m not gonna give a detailed account of my sex life but I know how the difference between how each orifice feels like 🫣

And all I can say is I will never quite understand why uterus havers would enjoy it

Also I’ve always thought frotting is scissoring for men and I didn’t know it had a name until recently

Well it does vary person to person from what I know any hole can be trained but our anuses aren’t as “elastic” as vaginas but some people can train it — although it’s rarer

And then there’s also how differently men and women experience arousal and maintain it

Anyway, can't wait to get to the actual sex with our dear ROs (besides crazy Dante), it's crazy how much we talk about sex in the blog but we barely saw any action 😔 we live in a society

We do live in a society 😔

I was mentioning this the other day that my stories are dark asf and that my blogs are full of sex fiends but that there’s relatively little sex in my games 😭

Dw chapter 2 of OYHS will change that…

Look if the mc ain’t human I could accept that