technically this is a canon star trek url

sometimes being a fan of something means not wanting them to make any more of it

fuuuck I gotta do my nova squadron continuing education credits (rewatch first duty) (I have honestly not focused enough on jean in prior watches other than in broad strokes and if I want to rotate this Concept I’m gonna have to get way more specific with it)

I should get insane about sito jaxa again

if I’m not posting about jaxa josh weird codependency in cartographyverse who am I. I’ve lost my way.

the thing is that I like it when characters I like have a weird codependency thing already built in but I will not let that limit me. I’ll do it myself if I have to. canon may not have “your best friend adds you into the access key for his quarters and sometimes you show up in the middle of the night because you’ve woken up trying not to scream from nightmares about being tortured and brainwashed and you don’t want to be alone and neither of you have to talk about it. and he is the one person in the universe you feel safest around but you’re not sure you will ever entirely trust the reality of him due to the aforementioned torture and brainwashing. and he trusts you enough to be the one person he is entirely honest with about the fact that he spends a fair bit of his life in pain because the medical technology that controls most of his movement is imperfect and most days it’s okay and it’s livable and it’s better than being atoms smeared across the solar system, but on the worst days it’s not that he wants to die it’s just that he wants it to be done, and he’s also honest about the fact that he’s stupid for spending so much of his time waiting for someone who is not there. and neither of you want to be separated but you’re also afraid that if you stay you’ll always be too much his reclamation project and not enough yourself, either in your own eyes or everyone else’s, so you have to leave for at least a while, but immediately you just want to come back.” but I do.

I should get insane about sito jaxa again

if I’m not posting about jaxa josh weird codependency in cartographyverse who am I. I’ve lost my way.

"your purchase will help restore Bajor" i fucking doubt it