its always been you it will always be you

i miss writing pretty words, but i don’t want to make you sad anymore

“don’t you understand??? i fucking love you, i would scream it to the heavens if i believed in them. i’d shout it loud enough for the bottom of the sea to hear if only noise traveled so far. i would stop to tell every person on the streets of New York City if only it were possible. i would plant a million sunflower fields just to see your smile as we drive by. when the windows are down i watch the wind play with your hair. i would travel to every country spreading my love for you. everyone would know our names and everyone would know my heart beats for you. don’t you understand? you’re all that matters. the sun rises for you. i rise for only you.”

i feel like you’re still not over her, like i’m not the real love of your life, like i’m just filling her spot until you make your way back to her. i wish you would prove me wrong but i don’t even know how you would

i’m not enough

why don’t you ever write for me? do i not inspire pretty thoughts?