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I’ve gotten quite a few asks over the past few days asking where I was so I figured on top of going over my weird disinterest in the show lately I would share some personal stuff as well.

First off thanks so much to those who care and actually notice my absence. When I started this blog I never thought I would gain any type of a “following” or other people would actually be interested in what I had to say. Anyways on to the first part of this thang.

SO. About a week before the show came back from hiatus I started a new job and let me tell you….It’s literally been the most mentally stressful thing I’ve ever experienced. Tons of math and problem solving and my anxiety level has been at a stern nine for about a month now so I really haven’t had a lot of time to put any energy in this blog. I tried at first but this job was really the type of thing I had to focus on 100% and that means I had to fully step away from thinking about Brallie.

That being said, after having stepped back and staying stepped back it made me realize how pointless being so far up this shows ass is for me.

I’m not saying I don’t love it anymore because I do and I always will, but here we are in season four and we’re still going through the same shit. Callie is seeing other people and doing other things away from Brandon and Brandon is seeing someone and occupying his time with other things and I’m just….not here for it?

I’m not going to stop watching all together but I’m also not going to sit here and lie and say that if Brallie doesn’t get together I’ll be as emotionally invested in the show as I usually am. 

Anyways, this post turned out to be a lot messier and I really can’t express a lot of the things I feel in words for some reason but this is what I’m leaving here for tonight. 

Brallie has so much potential and when I think about their story It makes me happy that we’ve gotten to experience it with them. If it’s over….that’s a real shame….but if we’re still in for something then I’ll be here for it.