Y'all before I made this tumblr account, I've been writing a whole year's worth of stuffđ (I am not over exaggerating). I started writing last year but never got the guts to actually make an account to post, until a few weeks ago. I have some pretty cute fluffs that are mostly one-shots rotting away deep down my notes. (And smut) should I post it? ;))
MASTERLIST:
Albert Wesker:
NSFW/smut!!:
Deviation (Part I)
Observations Classified (Part II)
Precautionary Measures (Part III)
Precautionary Measures 2 (Part IV)
"Way above your years" (diff One-shot)
Chris Redfield:
NSFW/SMUT!! :
âDidnât Mean to Wake You, BabyâŠâ(Slight somnophilia)
NSFW ALPHABET
Johnny "Soap" MacTavish:
NSFW/smut!!:
"Can't talk right now sir"(One-Shot)
SFW/fluff:
A very serious fishing incident(One-shot)
Wear whatever ye want(One-shot)
Volume control was never in the vows(One-shot)
"Stop singing ya menace, I love you"(One-shot)
"You could've knocked, y'know?"(One-shot)
Ashen Roots(1880s AU Hanahaki Disease edition) Johnny MacTavish x reader:
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(A drabble ft. Soap and his tragically competitive gamer wife)
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"REEL IT IN, LASS! ITâS A BLOODY LEGENDARY! DONâT LET IT WIN!"
"JOHNNY I SWEAR TO GODâSTOP YELLINGâYOUâRE STRESSING ME OUTâ"
"LEFT! NOâRIGHT! JIGGLE IT LIKE YER LIFE DEPENDS ON IT!"
Youâre sweating. Visibly. The little Stardew fishing bar is jittering like itâs possessed. Your thumbs are cramping. Your in-game avatar is shaking with exertion. Johnnyâs leaning over your shoulder like some twisted military drill sergeant, shirtless, holding a banana like a walkie-talkie.
"Alpha to Bravoâsheâs LOSINâ IT. FISH IS EVADING. SEND BACKUP."
"Johnny I will throw this Switch into the fucking sun."
He gasps. âLanguage in front of the fish?? Shame on ye.â
The fish escapes.
You let out a shriek so feral the dog runs out of the room. Johnny dramatically collapses onto the floor like youâve just been widowed in a war film.
âYE LOST A LEGENDARY CRIMSONFISH, WOMANâA CRIMSONFISH!â
âI DONâT CARE IF IT WAS KING NEPTUNE HIMSELFâYOU SHUT UP NEXT TIME.â
You shove him with your foot. He grabs it and fake-cries into your sock.
Ten minutes later you log back in and see heâs changed your characterâs clothes to camo and re-named your horse Soap's Wife. You change his outfit to a pink tutu and add butterfly wings.
đž âWear Whatever Ye Wantâ â Fluffy/goofy! Johnny "Soap" MacTavish x reader fic
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âYou sure this isnât too much?â you ask, adjusting your bikini top as you toss a towel into your beach bagâsomething strappy, something dangerous, and very much something that made you hesitate in the mirror for a second.
Johnnyâs already lounging under the beach umbrella, shirtless, sipping from a coconut like a smug little gremlin. He takes one look at you and nearly chokes.
âWear whatever ye want, henâ he says, coughing dramatically, âI can protect whatâs mine.â
And he means it. In that stupidly hot, possessive, âIâll deck a man with one sandal if he stares too longâ way.
Five minutes later, youâre trying to lay your towel down like a normal human, and heâs fully squatting in the sand with your phone, muttering like David Attenborough but horny.
âRIGHTâLIGHTâS HITTINâ YE LIKE A GREEK GODDESSâSTAY THEREâDinnae move! DO THE LASS-THAT-COULD-CRUSH-MY-SOUL LOOK.â
âJohnny, people can see usââ
âGOOD. LET âEM SEE WHAT I GET TO RUB SUNSCREEN ON.â
Heâs snapping pics with the intensity of a man crafting a legacy. Two lifeguards walk by. A seagull poops dangerously close to him. He doesnât care.
"NOW GIMME A WEE SMIRKâNAH, NOT THATâTHE 'IâM TOO GOOD FOR THIS ENTIRE OCEANâ ONE. AYE. THERE SHE IS. WIFE OF THE CENTURY."
You check the pics. Half are blurry âcause he tripped on a crab mid-shot. The other half have his face in the reflection of your sunglasses âcause he âwanted to haunt the masterpiece.â
Still posts them anyway. Caption?
âMarried the hottest creature ever spawned by sun, sea, and pure danger. Sorry lads. Sheâs got SPF and a ring.â
(Includes 23 fire emojis, 3 dolphin ones for âbeach vibes,â and one inexplicable gorilla emoji.)
And when you try to take a photo of him?
âOh no no no, darlinâ. Mâjobâs beinâ the camera goblin. Yer jobâs beinâ the temptress.â
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Sand in your shoes. Him in your pocket.
The thirst? Mutual.
The sunscreen? Applied with suspicious enthusiasm.
The marriage? UNDEFEATED.
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You scroll through the photos on your phone, snorting at the one where his thumb covers half the lens.
âJohnny, this oneâs just your eyeball.â
âArt,â he says, dead serious, âYe wouldnât understand.â
You roll your eyes, tuck the phone into your bag, and stretchâarms high, skin warm, the sea breeze catching your hair just right. Heâs watching you.
Of course he is.
âYer killinâ me,â he mutters.
âWhat?â
âNothinâ. Justââ he pauses, squints at you like youâve personally offended him with your existence, âwhy dâyou look like a bloody dream in the daylight? Sânot fair. Iâm over here lookinâ like a soggy tortilla.â
You burst out laughing. âYouâre ridiculous.â
He grins. Dangerously. "And youâre not runninâ fast enough."
Your heart stutters. âWhat?â
âYou heard me.â
Then heâs upâsand flying, grin sharpâand you scream-laugh as you bolt down the shore, towel flying behind you.
âJOHNNY, NOâSTOPâIâM GONNA TRIPââ
âYou better, âcause if I catch yeâ!â
Heâs gaining.
You zigzag. He fakes left. You shriek. He howls with laughter.
When he catches you, itâs all arms and warmth and spinningâhe scoops you off your feet with zero effort and collapses with you into the sand in one chaotic heap.
Youâre both breathless. Sun overhead. Waves kissing your toes.
He brushes a bit of hair from your face, voice quieter now. âYâknow Iâd chase ye forever, right?â
You grin, cheeks flushed.
âI know.â
And he just kisses youâsalty, soft, slowâlike heâs still trying to catch you even now.
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You: winded.
Him: obsessed.
The beach: now a crime scene.
Marriage: undefeated (again).
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Afterwards
Youâre still half-laughing, half-winded as he rolls over beside you in the sand, both of you sprawled like shipwreck survivors.
He turns his head toward you, one eye squinting against the sun.
âAlright?â he pants.
âNo,â you wheeze. âI got tackled by a military-trained lunatic.â
He smirks. âAye, but a romantic lunatic.â
You flick sand at him. He flicks it backâwith way too much accuracyâand then immediately regrets it.
âWaitâyer bikini bottoms are gonna catch it like a sand trap, hang onâHANG ON! Lemme helpââ
âDONâT TOUCH ME WITH THOSE HANDS.â
Too late. Heâs brushing sand off your leg like a man possessed, muttering, âIâll defend yer arse from the elements, womanâye deserve better than this cruel terrainââ
Eventually, you're both quiet. The waves roll in, soft and steady. The kind of hush that makes your eyelids heavy.
You barely notice heâs slipped his shirt under your head like a pillow.
You do notice when a suspiciously warm strawberry gets booped to your lips.
âEat it,â he whispers. âVitamin C. For yer glow.â
You crack one eye open. âAre you feeding me now?â
âMarried life, baby.â
He lies beside you again, propped on one elbow, still watching you like you hung the damn moon. His hand finds your waist, thumb tracing lazy circles.
âCanât believe I tricked ye into marryinâ me,â he murmurs.
You hum. âWasnât tricked.â
âNo?â
You turn your face toward him, sun-drunk and grinning. âYou just chased me till I stopped running.â
He makes the softest noiseâsomewhere between a laugh and a âGod, I love yeâ sighâand leans in, forehead resting against yours.
âHope ye never start again.â
You donât.
--end--
(A/N: This one's been collecting dustđ finally unleashed it. WANT MORE?? I HAVE SCREENSHOTS TO PROVE JUST HOW MUCH SOAP FLUFF I HAVE IN MY NOTES FROM WAYY BACKđ It's all rotting, just like cannon him rn as we speak.)
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Albert Wesker x Reader | NSFW!!| Controlling/Obsessive Boss AU
â ïž Smut | Office/Power Dynamics | Oral (F receiving) | Overstimulation | Light Restraints | Possessive Language | Praise | minors dni | Dark Themes | (HE IS NOT A HEAR ME OUT- HE'S A HOLD ME BACK.)
âYou're not confined,â he murmurs. âYou're kept.â
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His hand drops from your chin. But the weight of it lingers. You feel like youâve been markedâwithout bruises, without blood.
âYou really think locking me in here with you is going to earn you anything?â you ask, dry. âLoyalty? Gratitude?â
âNo,â he says again. âBut it will make you understand.â
Then he steps closer. Close enough that your back touches the cold steel wall.
You expect a threat. Instead, he kisses you for the second time.
Thereâs no warning. No tension. Itâs matter-of-fact. Like heâs proving a hypothesis.
And youâ
God help youâ
You let him.
Because the truth is, part of you had always wondered what lived under the surface of him. Whether there was anything at all beneath the precision, the control.
Now youâve seen it.
And itâs worse than you imagined.
When he pulls away, he doesn't say something dramatic or proprietary.
He just studies you.
âYouâre shaking,â he says.
You are. From adrenaline. From rage. From something else you donât want to name.
âYou scare the shit out of me,â you mutter.
He doesnât look proud. Or apologetic.
Just amused.
âGood."
âYou sound possessive,â you say quietly.
He leans in, low and smooth.
âThatâs because I am.â
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đ¶đ§Ź The shift is subtle but immediate.
He kisses you againâbut this time, thereâs no cold calculation.
His gloved hand wraps gently around your throatânot tight, just present. A reminder.
âYou donât have to think right now,â he murmurs against your mouth.
âJust do what youâre told. Youâve always been good at that.â
The lab feels feverishly warm.
He lifts you onto the steel workbench like you weigh nothing.
His thumb presses lightly beneath your jawâsteady, grounding.
You try to speak, but he doesnât give you the space. His mouth ghosts over yours again, slower now, like he's testing how long youâll hesitate before following his lead.
Thereâs no demand in the way he holds youâonly expectation. The kind that makes refusal feel foolish. Pointless.
He leans in, breath warm against your cheek.
âDonât make this harder than it is.â
Your pulse jumps beneath his hand.
And when you donât moveâwhen you donât pull awayâhe smiles.
Just barely.
But itâs enough.
âNo oneâs coming in. No one can see you,â he says, sliding the zipper of your lab coat down, slow and deliberate.
âThere is no world outside this room. Not tonight.â
You shouldnât want this. But god, you do.
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đ¶đ§Ź His control doesnât slip â it sharpens.
He kneels in front of you like heâs conducting an experiment.
Not rushed. Not eager. Just methodicalâclinical.
His gloved hands shove your underwear aside, and he looks up through those damn sunglasses like heâs documenting every flicker of hesitation in your face. As if your reactions are data to be archived. Controlled. Repeated.
Then he leans inâ
And presses a kiss to your inner thigh.
Measured. Cold. Almost reverent in the worst way.
His breath is warm, but his mouth is not. And that contrast sends a flicker of heat down your spine, sharp and involuntary.
You tense, just slightly.
âBe still.â
A command.
Spoken low, not loudâbut enough to still the breath in your throat. It isnât a threat. It doesnât need to be. Itâs a statement of fact, like he already knows youâll obey.
And the worst part isâyou do.
His mouth finds you.
Tongue precise, steady, devastating. Like heâs memorizing youâcharting nerve endings the way someone maps territory they already intend to claim.
Not sloppy. Not rushed.
Every movement feels rehearsed. Controlled. Like heâs pacing himself on purpose, just to see how long it takes before you break protocol.
He works you open with practiced pressure, dragging slow circles until your hips twitch forward. Instinctive. Desperate.
And when you arch with a sharp cry, his grip tightens around your thighsâholding you down like itâs nothing.
âNo noise,â he murmurs against you.
âContainment protocols.â
His voice is almost amused. Almost.
But the order is real.
Then you make a sound anywayâsoft, bitten-back, helpless.
And he hears it.
He pausesânot to stop, but to let the sound hang between you. A quiet act of disobedience.
Then:
That smirk. Barely there, but unmistakable.
âSo undisciplined...â he hums, tongue dragging slow and deliberate.
âWeâll need more conditioning.â
His mouth returns to you like a punishment.
Like a promise.
And this time, he doesnât go slow.
It builds fastâheat blooming sharp and immediate, like heâs pulling pleasure from you with mechanical precision. Thereâs no fumbling. No hesitation. Just a devastating rhythm that leaves no room for thought, only instinct.
Your breath stutters. Legs shake.
Every swipe of his tongue leaves you raw, sensitized, undoneâlike he's dismantling you piece by piece, learning what makes you twitch, gasp, beg.
You try to hold still. Try to obey. But itâs impossible. He knows exactly where to press, when to pull back, when to push harder.
Your bodyâs not yours anymore. Itâs responding to him. Because of him.
You're burning aliveâand all he does is hold you in place, methodical, composed, like heâs watching his favorite experiment succeed.
And godâ
It feels so fucking good you almost forget to be afraid.
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đ¶đ§Ź You come hard, hips twitchingâbut he doesnât stop.
âOverstimulation breeds obedience,â he says in that damn cunning, merciless voice.
âYouâre not leaving this table until youâve internalized that.â
And he means it.
The aftershocks havenât even finished rolling through your body before his mouth is back on youâtongue unrelenting, dragging sensation out of raw nerve endings that havenât had time to settle. It hurts, almostâbut itâs the kind of hurt that coils low and tight and unbearable.
Your thighs tremble. The edge is sharper now, pleasure warping into something hotter, more fragile. Thereâs no time to breathe, no time to think. Just sensation, again and again, until your body forgets where the first orgasm ended and the next begins.
When you come again, it tears through you. The heat in your legs turns to static, your muscles locking tight before they unravel all at once.
You sobâvoice breaking under the weight of it. But he doesnât falter. He likes that sound.
He licks you through it, steady. Focused. Devoted in that cold, obsessive way of his.
Only when you're shakingâeyes glassy, breath stuttering like a broken machineâdoes he finally lift his head.
And even then, heâs not done.
Heâs just⊠evaluating.
Gloved fingers stroke your cheek.
Youâre breathless, soaked, legs trembling from the second orgasm he forced out of you with his tongue. Your muscles wonât stop twitching. Your skin is hot. Overheated. And your thoughtsâwhatâs left of themâcome in fragmented pulses of more, more, more.
You barely register the shift in weight when he rises to his feetâmethodical, towering, composed. Not a single movement wasted. No urgency. No mess. Just quiet, controlled escalation.
He begins to remove his gloves.
The leather slips from his fingers in one fluid motionâslick, deliberate. They hit the floor with a dull slap, like the prelude to something youâre not built to handle.
âDonât move.â
The command slices through the room like a scalpelâsharp and clean, cutting through the thick hum of fluorescent light and your own thundering pulse. You obey without thinking. You have to.
He unfastens his belt nextâslowly, deliberatelyâand the soft scrape of leather through metal rings out like a gunshot in the sterile quiet of the lab. Itâs obscene. Wrong. Perfect.
Your eyes drift downâhelpless, hungryâandâ
Fucking hell.
Heâs thick. Veined. Long enough to make your stomach tense. Ridiculously proportional to the rest of his impossibly crafted body. Like everything else about him, it borders on inhuman.
Dark. Flushed. Leaking, because of you.
Because he planned this.
He wraps a hand around the base, stroking himself onceâjust onceâand it sends another wave of heat tearing through your already broken body.
âNo more waiting,â he mutters, voice like crushed velvet.
âYouâll take it. All of it. And youâll thank me for the privilege.â
He doesnât say it like a threat.
He says it like an equation. Something inevitable. Proven.
And as he lines himself up against your aching, overstimulated core, you already knowâ
Youâre going to let him.
Youâre going to take it.
And youâll thank him for ruining you.
He presses inâslow, stretching, merciless.
Your body clenches around him involuntarily, muscles taut, breath punched from your lungs as he fills you inch by unbearable inch.
âW-Weskerâ!â
âSir.â
His hand is on your jaw instantly, grip firm but not cruelâcommanding. He tilts your head up until your eyes meet hisâthose golden irises burning behind the lenses like warning lights.
âIn here, Iâm not your colleague. Not your peer.â
âYou call me sir.â
You whimper. Something desperate leaves your throat. But before you can even try to respond, he thrusts forwardâonce, hardâbottoming out in a single, brutal stroke.
Your mouth drops open, but no sound comes out.
Youâre full. Stuffed. Split.
And thereâs no grace period. No pause. No adjustment.
He starts to moveâhips snapping with cold, mechanical precision, like heâs recalibrating you from the inside out.
âWhatâs wrong?â he murmurs against your neck, voice dark silk.
âYou were so cockdrunk on my tongue.â
âNow youâre quiet?â
You gasp as his pace intensifies, dragging friction against every overworked nerveâpain-pleasure rippling so deep it short-circuits thought. His hips grind just right, his angle unerring. Itâs too much. Itâs not enough.
His breath fans hot against your throat.
âSpeak.â
âOr Iâll fuck the ability out of you entirely.â
The table creaks beneath you with every thrust, metal legs groaning in protest as he drives you into the surface like you belong thereâlike you were made to be taken apart by him, and him alone.
His grip on your hips is bruisingâfingers digging in, anchoring you in place, keeping you where he wants you. Where you need to be.
Youâre already close againâtoo close. Your walls flutter around him, a tell you canât hide.
And of course, he notices. Of course, he fucking knows.
âTight little thing,â he growls, voice shredded with restraint.
âAnd all mine. Say it.â
Your bodyâs breaking open again, pressure coiling hot and unbearable in your gut. Your vision blurs. Your breath stutters.
And stillâhis voice is what wrecks you most.
âYours, sir~,â you sob. âIâm yoursâIâm yoursââ
He groans, low and feral, a sound punched from somewhere deep in his chestâand then his hips slam forward harder, sharper, as if your admission unshackled something in him.
âGoddamn right you are.â
He fucks you like he means to burn the memory of anyone else clean out of you.
Like heâs branding every inch from the inside out.
And you let him. You fucking let him.
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đ¶ïž After
Youâre wrecked.
Shaking. Glistening. Leaking his cum down your thighs like a failed sealant test.
Wesker doesnât move to clean you. Doesnât reach for a towel.
He just stands thereâcomposed, calculatingâwatching you fall apart on the table he set the terms for.
His gaze is unreadable behind the glasses, but you feel it like heatâscanning, cataloguing, claiming.
âYouâll be sore tomorrow,â he says, as if itâs protocol.
âIâll authorize remote work. Tell HR Iâve reassigned you to internal development.â
A button clicks shut. His belt slides back through the loops.
He tucks himself away like nothing just happenedâlike he didnât just ruin you with expert precision.
And thenâ
He picks up your ruined panties off the floor.
Slips them into his coat pocket like evidence.
Doesnât say a word.
Just smirks. Barely.
âYouâll report to my quarters next week. 0100 hours. Untraceable route. No badge.â
You try to speakâtry to form a soundâbut your throat betrays you. Thereâs nothing left but your pulse hammering in your ears and the way your body still clenches at the thought of more.
Wesker leans in.
Kisses youâslow, deliberate. Like the claim wasnât complete until now.
Like he's proud by how quiet youâve become.
âYouâve passed containment,â he whispers against your lips.
âNow letâs work on submission.â
And with thatâheâs gone.
He turns without hesitation, boots echoing across the sterile floor.
One tap to his comms. A low voice, smooth and absolute:
Locks disengage. Doors slide open. Lights return to full power.
Just like thatâthe breach is over.
But you know better now.
The real experiment⊠has only just begun.
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(A/N: Hi lovelies I've risen from the dead to provide the wesker fic I promisedđ„ș I'M SORRY I WAS GONE FOR SO LONG- BLAME THE SYSTEM. But even so, I didn't let it stop me from posting this hot, horny, sunufabitchđ Enjoy sluts.) :>
One-Shot part 2 | Albert Wesker x Reader | AU: Overnight Lock-in | Slow tension to heat
âSecurity protocols are temporary.â
He says it like a promise. But his eyes sayââI planned this.â
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đ§Ź You stayed late. That was your first mistake.
Lab 3C was always freezing past sundown. The kind of cold that hummed in your molars. You shouldâve left two hours ago, but your project data was finally syncing and you knew if you didnât back it up manually, the system would eat it alive.
Besides⊠Wesker was still on-site.
Youâd seen his shadow move behind the frosted glass of his office when you passed by earlierâtall, controlled, silhouetted in gold and blue light. The late afternoon sun had cast long beams across the corridor, catching the edge of his frame and turning him half-myth, half-monument. He rarely acknowledged you outside of debriefings, but you always felt him before you saw him.
His presence was clinical.
Like a scalpel laid neatly beside an open wound.
You hear the metallic clang of security shutters droppingâone by one.
Thereâd been a pause.
Not one minute later, the emergency lights flicker red. A low, stuttering whir begins to echo through the hallâthe telltale warning of isolation modeâand then, without ceremony, the sirens start. Not loud. Not panicked. Just a shrill, calculated chirp every few seconds. As if the building itself were breathing slower. Sharpening its teeth.
The lab doors hiss shut behind you with a finality that rattles the glass.
LOCKDOWN PROTOCOL â UMBRELLA HIGH SECURITY ZONE. ALL ACCESS RESTRICTED.
You freeze mid-step, breath caught.
The hallway, once humming with fluorescent light and the low murmur of researchers, now pulses crimson. Shadows crawl and multiply in the corners. Every movement looks suspicious under emergency lightingâevery silence louder.
You break into motion.
Your shoes tap brisk against the linoleum as you move back toward your deskâheart already thudding against your ribs. Fingers slightly trembling, you swipe your ID badge at the reader.
Nothing.
Red light.
No response.
You swipe again. Harder. Slower. Faster.
Still red.
Still nothing.
ââŠNo, no noâcome onââ
Thenâ
âHaving trouble?â
The voiceâlow and measuredârolls from behind you like the drop in a symphony.
You turn.
Albert Wesker stands in front of the threshold of the lab, arms folded behind his back. Sunglasses on, as always. No lab coat. No clipboard. Just himâdressed in tactical black, gloved hands pristine, boots gleaming beneath the pulsing red lights. He looks like he stepped out of some other world entirely. One with tighter rules. Sharper consequences.
You hesitate.
ââŠSir. Iâuh, I think the systemâthereâs a malfunctionââ
âThere isnât.â
That makes your heart drop.
ââŠSorry?â
He approaches.
âSecurity initiated a precautionary lockdown. Protocol requires a full overnight reset before clearance is restored.â
ââŠYou mean weâre stuck?**â
He inclines his head.
âTemporarily.â
Silence creeps in, unwelcome and heavy. Somewhere in the ceiling, a vent groans as the ventilation adjusts to lockdown mode. Your pulse pounds in your earsâtoo fast, too loud for the silence that follows his answer.
Wesker steps further into the room, his boots quiet against the tile but still deliberateâmeasured. You track his movement out of instinct more than choice, like a rabbit unable to look away from the wolf.
âNo staff may enter or exit,â he adds, tone bordering on casual, as if quoting an instruction manual. âUntil 0600 hours. All systems are suspended. Communications are disabled.â
You glance toward the terminal again, trying not to show your unease. âRight. Of course. That makes sense.â
He pauses in front of one of the containment consoles. Gloved fingers drift over the edge, not touching, merely hoveringâlike a man familiar with every inch of this place, yet still amused by its little performances.
Then he looks at you again.
âYour shift ended forty minutes ago.â
Your throat tightens. âIâI was logging the results from the sequence trial. I didnât know the lockdown was about toââ
âI didnât ask why you were still here,â he says smoothly, and thereâs no sharpness to the wordsâjust a kind of quiet, clinical amusement. The kind that makes you feel like a scalpel laid out on a tray. Examined. Catalogued.
He begins to circle the room slowly, glancing over the scattered reports, the sterile equipment, the monitor still blinking an error code. You fight the urge to follow him with your eyes, to watch him too closelyâbut itâs impossible not to. Thereâs a gravity to him. Calculated. Cold.
And then:
âItâs fortunate,â Wesker remarks, âthat I remained on the premises. Some staff tend to⊠panic. During containment scenarios.â
You blink. âOh. NoâIâm not panicking. I justââ
âYouâre trembling.â
He says it plainly. A statement. Not an observation, not a judgment. Just a fact, delivered with surgical precision.
You glance down at your hands. Damn it. You hadnât noticed.
ââŠItâs just adrenaline,â you mutter.
Wesker steps closer. Not close enough to touch, but enough that you can feel the shape of himâpresence, more than proximity. Heâs a wall. A locked door. A sealed vault of intent you cannot read.
âIâd advise you to sit down,â he says. âYou wonât be leaving for quite some time.â
A faint smile ghosts across his lipsâjust barely there, just long enough to make you question whether you imagined it.
And then he turns, slowly, walking back toward the central terminal.
Behind you, the lab doors remain sealed. The red emergency light pulses.
Your badge is still useless.
And you are very much alone with him.
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đ§Ź The night passes in a blur of static silence.
You pace. He does not.
You check your watch. The hands havenât moved in minutes. Or maybe youâre imagining that.
The lab feels colder nowâjust a few degrees, but enough to slip beneath your clothes like a second skin.
You try again to badge out as if you're in denial. No response.
You try your company-issue phone. Dead. No signal. No bars. Just the dull, mocking glow of the Umbrella logo.
Wesker hasnât moved.
He stands near the server rack, arms folded behind his back, legs squared. Perfectly still. Like heâs waiting for somethingâwatching somethingâbut not you. Never just you.
He might as well be carved from obsidian. A fixture of the room. Part of the design.
You break the silence first. Voice quiet.
âI wasnât informed of any lockdown drills tonight,â you mutter.
He doesnât look at you when he answers.
Just that faint hum, low in his chest. Amused.
âNot a drill.â
You frown, trying to keep the edge of nervousness out of your tone.
âSo itâs real?â
A beat.
ââŠReal enough to warrant containment.â
He finally glances your way, just over the rim of his glasses. You catch your breath, unsure why.
âBut thereâs no incident?â you ask.
He tilts his headâjust slightly, the kind of motion that feels reptilian somehow. Studied. Deliberate.
âThere is no need for alarm.â
He says it with that steady, quiet finality that makes you feel ridiculous for asking.
You swallow.
âFeels a little excessive,â you offer, with a half-laugh you regret the moment it leaves your mouth.
Weskerâs head turns the rest of the way, attention fixed on you now like a pressure point.
âExcess is subjective,â he replies. âContainment, however⊠is effective.â
The words hang there.
You donât speak again.
Not because you agree.
But because something in the way he said itâmeasured, near indulgentâtells you heâs enjoying this. Not the situation.
Your reaction to it.
A chill settles deep in your spine.
You take a seat, finally. Far corner of the room. As far as the walls will allow.
He watches you only briefly.
And then the silence returns.
Soft. Clinical.
Unbroken.
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đ§Ź Hours pass.
The hum of the lights becomes a lullaby for anxiety. A perfect, droning loop.
Your hands are cold. You rub your palms for warmth, pacing in tight loops near your workstation. Not out of restlessness anymore.
Out of survival.
Motion keeps you from spiraling.
From the corner of your eyeâyou catch him watching.
Not idly. Not incidentally.
Wesker watches like itâs a diagnostic process.
As if your heartbeat is on a screen.
As if heâs logging how many steps you take before you start repeating yourself.
His head tilts a fractionâalmost imperceptible.
His arms remain behind his back, posture straight, boots planted with a soldierâs rigidity.
No movement. No flicker.
Like a statue carved from something ancient and intentional.
Like a predator learning your pattern.
You speak before you can stop yourself.
You try not to meet his gaze. Try to pretend itâs nothing.
But the silence stretches and coils, tighter and tighter, untilâ
â...Do you ever blink?â
A pause.
Thenâbarelyâhis lips curl.
âI do many things you donât notice.â
Thereâs no need for emphasis. No shift in tone.
Just that sentence. Icy. Controlled. Unsettling in how true it feels.
You feel your throat tighten.
Across the lab, Wesker doesnât move. Doesnât look away.
You do.
You turn back to your terminal, pretending you have something to check. Pretending the screen isnât blank. Pretending you're not being studied like something contained.
And from behind you, the weight of his presence lingersâcoiled, steady, waiting.
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đ§Ź Around 3:00 AM
Youâre exhausted. Strung out. Muscles trembling from tension you hadnât realized youâd been holding since the doors sealed. His presence has made the air itself feel wired.
Like the oxygen has teeth.
Like the walls are watching with him.
âIâm cold,â you murmur, mostly to yourself.
The words fog a breath into the sterile air.
He doesnât respond right away. But you hear the soft flex of leather as he moves. He doesnât respond right away. But thereâs a shiftâso subtle itâs soundless.
You hear the soft flex of leather, a movement so deliberate it cuts through the quiet like a thread being drawn taut.
click.
The overhead fluorescents dim a fraction.
Thenâlike dusk slipping inâthe corner near your workstation glows softly with ambient light. A warm, amber hue. Not Umbrella standard.
Your eyes adjust slowly, blinking at the unexpected softness.
ââŠHow did youâ?â
âI made a few modifications.â
You stare.
âSo⊠you can override lighting, temperature, accessâ?â
âCorrect.â
Your stomach dips.
âAnd you didnât use any of that to let us out?â
He regards you evenly. Calm. Not defensiveânever defensive.
He could be talking about the weather.
He looks at you.
âI didnât say I couldnât. I said we were required to wait.â
Your stomach turns.
âWhy wait?â
He steps forward, boots whisper-quiet against tile. He doesnât rush. He never does.
And somehow, thatâs worse
âTo... observe.â
You stand up sharply. The chair scrapes.
Your heartbeat stutters in your throat.
âAm I being tested?â
A pause.
âNot officially.â
Your fists clench before you can stop yourself.
âThen what the hell is this, sir?â
He doesnât flinch at your tone.
If anything, thereâs a flicker of interest. Something beneath the surfaceâsharp and cold and interested.
Then he steps into your space.
Closer than heâs ever been.
Close enough that you can see the faint lines at the corners of his mouth, the hint of something nearly-smiling.
Close enough to catch the pale reflection of yourself in the dark sheen of his lenses.
Close enough that the scent of sterile gloves and something colderâmetallicâlingers in the space between you.
âIâve found,â he says quietly, âthat true behavior reveals itself only under pressure. In isolation.â
You inhale sharply. Your breath sounds too loud in your ears.
âYou planned this.â
âI enabled it.â
The correction slices cleanly through your accusation.
You shake your head, disbelief warping into something half-wild.
âThatâsâpsychotic.â
âThatâs efficiency.â
He brushes past you then, and you nearly flinch.
But his handâgloved, preciseâghosts along your wrist as he passes.
A touch so fleeting it barely counts as contact.
But it lingers. Burns.
Like static. Like warning.
âYouâve performed admirably.â
You turn to face him, pulse high in your throat.
âI wasnât performingââ
âAnd yet you still impressed.â
The words land somewhere low in your chest, where panic and something colder begin to mix.
Where you start to realize:
Youâre not just being observed.
Youâre being chosen.
---
đ¶ïžđ§Ź The air shifts.
You're not sure when the tension stopped being frightening and started feeling... charged. Heavy. Electrical.
Like something waiting to strike.
He stands just in front of you now, a wall of silence and shadow. When he speaks, itâs lower than beforeâcloser.
âYou adapt well. Even when discomforted.â
His presence fills the space like gravityâanchoring, absolute.
He's so close now that the sterile scent of leather and ozone wraps around you, tightening with each breath.
âYou wanted to see how Iâd whatâbreak down? Panic? Run?â
He studies your face, head angled just slightly, as if fine-tuning an analysis only he can see.
âNone of those. I wanted to confirm your capacity.â
Your voice softens, barely a whisper.
ââŠFor what?â
A pause.
His gloved hand lifts with surgical precision, fingers brushing the collar of your lab coatâjust once.
Itâs not a grip. Itâs an assessment.
âObedience.â
Your throat dries.
âWhyâwhy would you want that?â
âBecause chaos is inevitable. And I require constants. Assets I can rely on.â
You bristle, jaw clenching.
âIâm not an asset.â
But instead of correcting youâhe agrees
âNo. Youâre not.â Then the curve of his mouth shiftsâslow and slight. Not a smile. Something more primal. More interested. âYouâre something far more rare.â
He steps forward, the motion quiet but undeniable.
You feel your back nudge the edge of the desk behind you.
Trappedânot by force, but by design.
âSir, Iâthis isââ
But his voice dips beside your ear, a phantom breath across your skin.
âYou donât need to speak.â
You freeze. Not out of fear.
But because itâs working.
Because every molecule in the room feels aligned with him.
You gather breath, manage:
âIs this protocol?â
A stillness, briefâand then:
âNo.â
He reaches up.
Removes his glasses.
Youâve never seen his eyes before.
Theyâre golden. Glinting with something not entirely human. Not soft, not kindâbut focused.
Hungry. Clinical. Inevitable.
âThis is instinct.â
Your heart stutters.
And before your brain can catch up, leather-clad fingers tilt your chin upward.
Deliberate. Gentle. Commanding.
The first kiss doesnât arrive like a question.
It arrives like a conclusion.
Planned. Earned. Controlled.
Like youâve crossed an invisible thresholdâand heâs marking it with the most human gesture he knows.
You donât resist.
You donât want to.
Because part of you has always wondered if Albert Wesker ever blinked.
Albert Wesker x Reader | not really a part 2 | late-night voyeurism | NSFW đ¶ | obsession, formal restraint snapping like a bone.
reader is unaware; Wesker is very much not
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02:14 A.M.
Late night. Facility security room.
The screens flicker in sterile white. Most are still.
But Camera 6A, the laboratory, glows with motion.
You.
Alone.
On screen, youâre in the west lab, arching slightly over the sink. Just rinsing out a beaker. Simple. Innocent.
But the fabric of your blouse stretches tight along your spine when you lean forward.
And something in him... pulls.
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Wesker sits, arms folded, jaw stiff.
Heâs already undone the top of his collar. Already removed the gloves.
Not because of you.
Of course not.
Itâs hot in the control room.
The server fans are loud.
The stress levels are unusually high.
Heâs justâadjusting.
Except... your voice, soft and oblivious, carries over the audio feed.
A hum. A simple, lovely, innocent note.
Unaware of the man whoâs been replaying your shift three times over.
Unaware of how heâs zoomed in. Cropped the others out. Enhanced the footage of you turning to brush hair behind your ear.
âLook at you,â he murmurs,
to no one. To the air. To himself.
To you.
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By the third time you lean forward, the motion is burned into his brain.
He doesn't mean toâ
but his hand is already dragging over the front of his slacks, slow. Testing. Pressing down.
His breath leaves sharp through his nose.
This is beneath him.
This is pathetic.
This is...
His palm stills.
But your figure remainsâgraceful, hypnotic, damningâon-screen.
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02:44 A.M.
He gives in.
Fingers pop the belt loose with one flick.
Zipperâquiet, slow. As if anyone might hear.
He leans back in the chair with a long, soundless breath through gritted teeth.
This is beneath him. He repeats.
His fist moves anyway. Down. Up. Slow at firstâcontrolled, like everything else in his life. But his jaw is tight. His brows drawn. His breath shallow. He shouldnât need this.
Heâs superior. Beyond weakness. Beyond base urges. Beyond the kind of pathetic, primal desperation that leaves lesser men gasping into their palms in the dead of night.
But here he is. Knees spread. Glove tossed aside. Muscles flexing tightly on the fabric of his shirt in the dim light. His cockâs already slick, already hardâalready leaking for you.
Disgraceful.
Illogical.
Weak.
Thereâs nothing clinical in the way his hips lift once, slightly.
Nothing detached in the way he groans when your laugh echoes through the speakers.
He imaginesâ
your lips parting when he finally corners you.
the way youâll gasp when he tells you what heâs done for you.
How youâll cry when you realize you were never alone.
---
âYou donât even know,â he whispers.
âWhat you do to me.â
âHow long Iâve watched.â
âHow hard Iâve worked to keep others away.â
âTo keep you... close.â
Your laugh. Again. On loop. It plays like pure torture.
He imagines you writhing beneath his gloved hand, spine arched, eyes glassyâlike a creature begging to be dissected. Every sound you make, every breathless moan, cataloged in his mind like data points. Youâre not just a bodyâyouâre a subject. A specimen. One he intends to ruin.
He imagines pulling you apart slowlyâmethodicallyâstretching your tolerance until you're no longer sure whether you're sobbing from overstimulation or worship. His thrusts would be relentless. Calculated. Deep enough to make you cry out, shallow enough to make you beg for more.
He imagines how your body would cling to him, trembling and slick, so desperate to keep him inside. Heâd slow downânot out of mercy, but to watch you fall apart more beautifully.
He imagines gripping your face, forcing your gaze up to meet hisâglasses still on, smile absent. Just cool, exacting control as he thinks, "This is what you're made for. Submission, chaos, and absolute obedience."
He imagines not stoppingânot when you beg, not when you shake, not even when you forget your own name. He wants you empty, filled with nothing but his voice echoing in your skull. No thoughts. Just Wesker.
He imagines marking every inch of youâbite, bruise, handprintâproof of his ownership. Scientific. Clinical. Intimate in the most violent way.
He imagines your voice going hoarse from crying out for him. And he knowsâyou would. Again and again.
His strokes speed up. His breath stutters. He thinks of your lips wrapped around him, warm and wet and reverentâof bending you over some cold, sterile lab table, pressing your face to the glass just to see your fogged-up breath as he ruins you from behind.
You're his already. You just donât know it yet.
He should be above this.
But he's not. He's fucking not.
He'd KILL for the real thing. Heâd burn the whole facility just to hear you moan his name like you mean it.
âMine,â he hisses through clenched teeth.
âYouâve always been mine.â
He hates this. Hates the shaking in his thighs. The raw, desperate sound that slips past his clenched teeth. The image of you sprawled and crying on his sheetsâsomething heâs never even seen, but imagined with such terrifying precision he could swear it's real.
The monitor crackles slightly as you tilt your head and smile on screenâ
and Wesker spills over his own hand with a low, brutal sound.
---
03:39 A.M.
Silence.
He exhales.
Reaches for a wipe.
Tucks himself away again.
He stares at the mess. Then at nothing.
Never again.
...Until next time.
Rewinds the tape.
Watches you one more time.
And doesnât delete the footage.
---
(A/N: HAHA got you lovelies with the booby trap picđ Here's a little tease for you hoes;3 you'll get that wesker coc next time, I pwomiseđ„ș and he sure as hell won't make it easy for you. P. S. I'M STILL LEARNING HOW TO USE TUMBLR ALRIGHT???) Posted this draft at 3am.
(Soap x Reader | Married AU | Fluff + Comedy | Chaotic Love)
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It starts with a pan.
Well â your pan.
The nice nonstick one you swore youâd keep pristine. The one he said, âAye, love, not even I could mess that up.â
It hits the floor with a clang like a damn gong announcing the beginning of war.
âWHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?â
âYOUR ELBOW, JOHNNY.â
âTHAT PANâS A DEATH TRAP!â
âYOU MEAN THE PAN YOU TRIED TO FLIP EGGS WITHâWITHOUT ANYTHING IN IT?â
Silence. Then:
âI meant tae do that!â
You peek into the kitchen. Heâs standing there looking deeply offended. One sock on. Hair everywhere. Spatula clenched like a weapon.
âOh, did you also mean to pour half the batter in the sink?â
âYe startinâ with me, bonnie?â
You raise an eyebrow.
âAlways.â
He drops the spatula.
âThatâs itâinsubordination!â
You shriek as he lunges.
Fast. Military-trained. Stupidly strong. You try to flee but itâs hopeless â heâs got you over his shoulder in three seconds flat, cackling like a maniac while you kick helplessly.
âPUT ME DOWN, YOU GREMLIN.â
âNOT TIL YE APOLOGIZE FOR INSULTINâ MAH COOKINâ.â
âYOU BURNED OATMEAL, JOHNNY. OATMEAL.â
Then comes it:
THUD THUD THUD.
A firm knock-knock-knock from above â a broom handle to the ceiling.
You both freeze mid-rampage.
Your face pressed to his back.
His hand still bracing your legs.
And in perfect unison, without missing a beat:
âSORRY!!â
The building goes quiet again. Johnny gently puts you down. You both try to act normal.
Five full seconds of silence.
Thenâ
âIâM GONNA GET YE!â
He bolts after you again, and your laughter peals through the apartment as you nearly slip on a dishtowel trying to escape. You shriek, he roars, and somewhere upstairs poor Mr. and Mrs. McLaren are probably regretting ever renewing their lease.
---
Later, breathless and tangled on the couch, you share the sad, mangled pancakes he tried to save. Heâs got flour on his jaw. Your shirtâs inside-out. The pan is suspiciously dented.
He looks at you like you hung the moon.
âWorth the noise complaint.â
âWeâre gonna get evicted.â
âThen Iâll build us a soundproof cabin.â
âYou canât even fix a pan.â
âDetails.â
You clink forks and dig in.
Because chaos aside â
thereâs nowhere else in the world youâd rather be than too loud, too happy, too in love⊠in the kitchen with him.
---end---
(A/N: Someone requested more soap fluff so here we are again:> digged it out of the very bottom of my notes)
It begins, as most things do with Wesker, in silence.
Your first day on the team, you barely warranted a glance in the surveillance feed.
Another lab technician. Another replaceable assistant. Another insignificant moving part.
But then you lingered.
Stayed late. Came early.
Read the case files beyond your clearance level and didnât flinch at the corpses.
You passed the first test.
Not that you knew there was one.
You thought it was coincidence that no one sat beside you in meetings.
That your access card opened doors you never requested.
That the intern who made a joke about your smile was transferred within the hour.
It wasnât coincidence.
It was calibration.
He was isolating the variables.
And you, you became an anomaly worth noting.
He began compiling minor reports on your behavior, tucked into encrypted files labeled with meaningless acronymsâjustifications for your existence in his system. He logged your arrival times, the hesitation in your speech, the way you handled scalpel trays with a certain⊠reverence. Clinical on the outside, but with the sharpness of someone who wanted to understand.
You werenât like the othersâthose limp, nodding bureaucrats or ambition-hollowed researchers. You read between lines. You saw things. You didnât ask for approval.
It shouldâve been threatening.
But instead, it was fascinating.
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đ§Ź 2. [Containment]
Wesker doesnât trust easily.
He trusts data.
Outcomes.
Silence.
But you unsettled the metrics.
You moved differently. You saw things. You questioned protocols he didnât authorize you to read.
And he watched.
The way your fingers hovered over a scalpel you didnât need to touch.
The way your reflection lingered in the biohazard glass.
The way your laugh, rare as it was, made low-ranking guards look up.
So he changed the guards.
Restricted hallway access.
Reassigned co-workers.
Built your world to orbit only him.
And stillâstill you never noticed.
Not when your new desk faced his office.
Not when your login synced with his terminal.
Not when your lunch orders began arriving, already paid.
You thought it was protocol. Efficiency. Company structure.
It wasnât.
It was obsession.
Even your chair was adjustedâreplaced with one designed to support your back based on posture data from security footage. Your lighting changed imperceptibly across weeks, tailored to prevent eye strain and keep you awake longer, sharper.
He scheduled briefings when you were most alert.
Redirected minor crises to ensure you'd report directly to him.
He watched the way you blinked when you were confused.
Memorized the twitch of your mouth when you were about to ask something risky.
Your coworkers left one by one. Transferred. Fired. Reassigned.
Those who got too familiar? Disciplined. Quietly.
You didnât wonder why your inbox felt so clean.
Why no one interrupted your concentration anymore.
Why the company started feeling like a corridor, narrowing around you.
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đ§Ź 3. [Degradation]
It got worse.
Orâcloser to the truth.
He found himself pausing the security feed just to watch the curve of your spine as you bent over notes.
He rewound your voice recordings, cataloguing the inflections in your âGood morning, sir.â
He deleted the word sir from your tongue in his mind.
He didnât want your respect.
He wanted your obedience.
Your trust.
Your presence, constant and unrelenting.
You belonged in his space, like air belonged in lungs.
He just hadn't told you yet.
Sometimes, you left behind small thingsâsticky notes, paperclips, coffee cups. Harmless. Forgettable. But he kept them all.
The mug with a faint mark of your lip balm.
The pen you once clicked while reading virology samples.
A typed memo, crumpled, with a single word scratched out and replaced. "Necessary."
He examined them not with sentiment but calculation.
These were not keepsakes.
These were proofs of proximity.
You were slipping under his skin molecule by molecule, and he needed evidence of your presence in his domain.
But there were momentsâdangerous onesâwhen calculation gave way to something darker.
Moments when you reached for a dropped stylus beneath the lab table and the hem of your coat pulled taut across your thighs.
Moments when you tilted your head to read something over a microscope and exposed the soft column of your neck.
Moments when the feed from the surveillance cameras caught just enough.
He knew every angle of your body from security footage.
The way your blouse sometimes gaped slightly when you leaned forward.
The way you stretched without thinking, unaware of how it framed you.
Unaware of the man watchingâmemorizing.
It was a weakness.
A flaw in his design.
But sometimes he would watch the footage at half-speed, eyes burning, jaw clenched, and tell himself it was for behavioral monitoring.
That the brief tightening in his chest wasnât arousal, but concern.
And yetâwhen you bent to pick up a file one night, alone, late, and the back of your skirt lifted just slightlyâ
âhis fingers had twitched.
Not from irritation.
From restraint.
From the raw, silent thought that he could take you. Right there.
Not in fantasy. Not in dream. But in brutal, clinical, breathtaking reality.
He could fuck you against the sterile counter and no one would stop him.
No one would even know.
But he didnât.
Of course he didnât.
He was control. Discipline.
He filed the footage.
Encrypted it.
And watched it again the next night.
Hands behind his back.
Jaw locked.
Throat tight with the sick, hungry coil of desire he refused to name.
You didnât know.
Didnât see.
Didnât feel the weight of a man who no longer saw you as a subordinate or assetâ
âbut as something already his, simply awaiting the correct time to be claimed.
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đ§Ź 4. [Denial]
You never caught it, but he looked away first.
Every time.
Every instance your gaze met his, however briefly.
You assumed it was deference. Coldness. That clinical thing he wore like a second skin.
But it wasnât.
It was containment.
Because the sound of your voiceâthe precise cadence in which you said âUnderstood, Doctor Weskerââlit up some dormant, vile thing in him.
Something untested.
Something monstrous.
He was not above temptation.
He was simply better at dissecting it.
The way you smiled at your coworkers, never at him?
He noticed.
The way you stood just a fraction closer when anxious, fingers tightening at your sides?
He filed it away.
He let others believe you were isolated by accident.
But he'd engineered that loneliness. Curated it.
Suffocated anything that threatened to pull your attention elsewhere.
You never got that offer for project co-lead.
Never received the anonymous gifts left at your desk by interns.
Because Albert intercepted them.
Silently. Strategically.
You didnât know it was his hand pulling you toward him, only that every direction seemed to fold inward until he was the only constant.
The only man who saw you.
Who understood you.
He watched you trace your notes, watched your lips form silent syllables, and all the while he denied himself.
Denied the heat pooling in his abdomen.
Denied the cruel ache behind every âGoodnight, sirâ you uttered.
Denied the nightly compulsion to run simulations of what you would sound like begging.
And when he couldn't sleep, he listened to your voice on the labâs intercom archive.
Just to hear it.
To pretend.
To substitute control for contact.
And stillâhe told himself he had not crossed the line.
Not yet.
Because you were still untouched.
Still pure, in the way only someone unaware of their ownership could be.
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đ§Ź 5. [Possession]
He began to see it in everything.
The way others looked at youâa threat.
The way you spoke about your familyâa liability.
The way you said âthank youâ when he passed you reportsâintolerable.
You didnât thank him.
You didnât understand him.
You couldnât.
But that was fine.
Understanding would come later.
He started curating your tasks more delicately.
Steered you away from field ops, too dangerous.
Assigned you exclusively to him, citing âperformance optimization.â
You didnât protest.
You thought you were being promoted.
But in truth, you were being drawn in.
Woven tighter.
Placed carefully, perfectly, exactly where he wanted you.
In his office.
In his world.
In his reach.
Your name was embedded in his daily reports. Your security log-in pinged his terminal every time you swiped a door.
The other researchers stopped referencing your work without Weskerâs express permission. He had erased your reputation as independentâyou were his now.
And no one questioned it.
Not when his gaze burned through the glass walls of the lab.
Not when he stood beside you in meetings like a shadow wearing a tailored suit.
Not when his hand briefly brushed yours while reviewing samples, and he didnât pull away.
He didnât need to pull away.
He had already claimed what he wanted.
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Now, his fingerprints existed on more than your reports.
Heâd rewritten your schedule to end near his. Aligned your meals. Synced your lab hours. Even your breaks were subtly shifted, your elevator stops timed perfectly with his descent.
You didnât see it.
But he did.
Every day you returned to your workspace slightly adjustedâyour chair moved back in, your pens restocked, your personal mug rotated exactly one degree counter-clockwise.
âWeâre optimizing,â heâd say.
âFor your convenience.â
He'd begun accompanying you to biometric checks. At first, a coincidence. The second time, an excuse. By the third, he was inputting your medical logs himself.
His voice was always calm. Always formal. Always patient.
But his gaze lingered.
His presence loomed.
And his handsâalways glovedâbrushed against the small of your back far too often for protocol.
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And he watched.
From behind glass. From dark monitors. From still frames and slow replays. When your blouse sat a little too low. When your eyes wandered where they shouldnât.
You were careless with your innocence.
But he would be careful for you.
He adjusted the brightness of the surveillance feed. Zoomed in. Studied the way you leaned too close to your keyboard.
Imagined your breath fogging the screen.
Imagined how easily that breath could hitch. Could falter. Could beg.
You have no idea, he thought.
But you will.
Not yet.
But soon.
Understanding would come later.
---
đ§Ź 6. [Infection]
The final stage was the most dangerous.
You said his name once.
Not âsir.â
Not âWesker.â
Just:
âAlbertâŠ?â
His gaze snaps up from the report.
Youâre standing in the doorway of his office, the heel of one shoe slightly kicked back, as if you werenât sure whether to enter. The folder in your hand trembles slightlyâan involuntary twitch you donât even notice. But he does.
He notices everything.
The breath that stutters in your throat after the name escapes.
The flicker of hesitation in your pupils when his expression doesnât immediately soften.
The way you shiftâdefensive, unsureâbefore you correct yourself:
âI meanâsir. Sorry, I meantâsir.â
But itâs already too late.
The damage is done.
You spoke it aloud.
Not in passing.
Not as a slip of protocol.
Not with bitterness or irony.
But with concern.
Soft. Tentative. Almost gentle.
And that⊠that is what undoes him.
You donât know he has a file buried six levels deep into a server no one else can accessâlabeled with your name, storing every image of you captured on internal footage.
You donât know heâs wiped out four internal transfer requests that would have pulled you from his floor.
You donât know he personally selects your meals for team eventsâensuring your preferences are always met, even when no one else notices.
You donât know heâs kept you here, orbiting him, perfectly placed, under the illusion of promotion.
And now youâve said his name like it belongs to you.
Like he does.
âSir,â you try again, a nervous laugh escaping you. âApologies. IâI didnât meanââ
He stands slowly, measured, the desk separating you like a fragile boundary heâs had to respect for far too long.
âNo need to apologize,â he says coolly. âYou simply⊠surprised me.â
But inside? His thoughts are nothing but static.
He replays the syllables.
Not just the sound, but the shape of your mouth when you said it.
He files it into memory. Deep. Permanent.
And he knowsâsooner than even you doâthat this is the beginning of the end for the illusion.
Because from this moment on, youâve stopped being a project.
Stopped being a subject.
Youâve become a trigger.
A fixation.
An opening he hadnât anticipatedâbut cannot ignore.
You said his name once.
You wonât realize until itâs far too late:
Youâll never say it the same way again.
Because you didnât know what youâd done.
You didnât hear it the way he did.
Like it was already yours to say.
Like he wasnât a god.
Like he was a man.
A man who had already rewritten every security protocol to keep you near.
A man who eliminated colleagues who made you uncomfortable.
A man whoâif you ever truly lookedâmight shatter the illusion of ânormalâ with one cold sentence:
âYouâre not here by accident.â
âYouâre here because I designed you to be.â
But you donât know.
You smile politely.
You offer your reports.
You drink the coffee that arrives on your desk precisely how you like it.
You go home.
You live your life.
While he rewatches your day in full.
While he listens to your voicemails and deletes names from your inbox.
While he studies you like youâre the last unexplained miracle on Earth.
While he reminds himself that love is irrelevant.
Control is what matters.
And he already has it.
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Heâd timed every entry and exit.
He knew how long you took in the restroom.
Which hallway you paused in to check your phone.
What time of day your voice grew tired.
He saw it as clearly as he saw cell degradation under a microscope.
That slow unraveling.
That quiet compliance.
You were adapting.
Your posture had shifted. Subtly. You walked faster when alone. Slower when near him. You dressed differentlyâmore reserved, perhaps without realizing. You avoided eye contact with male superiors.
Wesker approved.
He didnât speak of it.
Didnât need to.
The conditioning was holding.
You had stopped asking questions.
Stopped challenging schedules.
Stopped requesting to work from other wings.
You had folded into the environment he designedâone where he was a constant hum beneath your daily routine. Where his name lingered at the back of your tongue. Where his voice set your pace and his silence set your nerves.
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âYou donât know what youâve done,â he muttered to himself, watching the security footage replay. While he studies you like youâre the last unexplained miracle on Earth.
There you were again. That exact moment. Your eyes soft, confused, lips parted: Albert�
He paused the video.
Leaned back.
Let the sound echo in the sterile quiet of his office.
It was not an accident.
Not some sweet slip of tongue.
No.
It was the infection taking root.
Your body catching up to what your environment had long accepted.
Dependence.
Deference.
Attachment.
He could work with that.
Love was messy. Emotional.
But dependenceâhe could mold.
He could reinforce it, reward it, create just enough tension to keep you needing his approval.
To keep you needing him.
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(A/N: should I make a part 2??? I mean- I already have it. I just wanna hear it from you dirty sluts;>)
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A hum while making tea. A few notes while folding laundry.
Then slowly â like a musical crescendo straight from hell â it spirals.
Johnny walks into the living room. Youâre wiping down the TV stand and belting like youâre auditioning for a stadium tour.
âAnd Iâee-III will always loveââ
âChrist on a bikeââ he flinches, nearly drops his drink. âWoman, it's Tuesday morning! Ye tryinâ tae summon spirits?â
You pause, hand on your hip.
âYou got a problem with Whitney?"
âNae! Just didnât know ye were Whitney!â
But youâre already spinning dramatically toward the hallway.
âGuess youâll never know what itâs like to love somebodyyyyy the way Iââ
âBaby, please,â he begs, laughing, holding his temples. âThe dogâs hidinâ under the couch. Again.â
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He finds you standing on the bed one afternoon, doing vocal trills at full volume. Curtains open. Neighbors listening. Absolutely no shame.
âYouâll never findââ
âPrivacy ever again, apparently,â Johnny mutters, clutching the doorframe like heâs seen war (which he has, but somehow this is worse).
âI need to warm up,â you argue, offended. âYou wouldnât understand.â
âI served three tours and somehow this is what broke me.â
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He Tries to Compete Once (And Fails)
One night youâre singing Mariah in the kitchen â completely unbothered, one sock on, spatula in hand.
Johnny storms in with a mop like a mic.
âALL BY MYSEEEEELFââ
You pause.
He hits a shaky high note.
ââDONâT WANNA BEââ
You blink.
He wheezes.
ââALL BY MYSEEĂEâoh shiteââ
âDid you just pull something trying to out-sing me?â
âIâve made a grave tactical error, aye.â
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But One NightâŠ
Itâs late.
You're soft-singing in the kitchen, voice low and tired, wiping the counter. Something about heartbreak. Something about missing someone you love.
Johnny leans in the doorway, arms folded.
He doesnât interrupt this time.
Just listens.
Then when you stop, he walks over, wraps his arms around you from behind.
âYeâve got a voice like honey,â he murmurs, resting his chin on your shoulder.
You blink.
âDidnât you call me a âscreechinâ bansheeâ this morning?â
âAye, but yeâre my banshee.â
âRomantic.â
âUnbearably.â
---end---
(A/N: pls enjoy this surprise one-shot that I unearthed like a cursed relic. I promise the other fic is still alive. sheâs just on a little break. eating soup. healing.)
Pairings: (Newlyweds) Johnny "Soap" MacTavish Ă Fem!Reader
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You knew he was in there.
The water was on, steam pouring under the door, and so was his voiceâmuffled through the walls, singing the chorus of some god-awful Scottish punk band like he was performing at a pub.
You donât knock. You just open the door, towel around your shoulders, teeth sinking into a grin.
Heâs behind the curtain, but his silhouetteâs crystal clearâbroad, casual, swaying like heâs got the whole world in there with him. Thereâs a glint on the sink.
His ring.
Still not used to that, are you?
You pick it up, thumb over the inside engraving. You were both a little drunk when you decided to do thoseâyours says "worth the war", his says "you were always home."
âYou always this loud in the shower, or is this what I signed up for legally?â
He yells through the water, delighted:
âYou love it, admit it!â
âIâm filing an annulment."
âYou wonât,â he says, and then pulls the curtain back just enoughâwet hair plastered to his forehead, water dripping off his lashes, eyes bright like the first time he saw you in white.
âBecause now youâre stuck with me, Mrs. MacTavish.â
You smirk. âDamn. Forgot.â
He leans one forearm on the edge of the tub, eyes shamelessly tracking the towel on your shoulders.
âYou in here to complain or join me?â
âI came for your ring,â you lie. âYou keep leaving it on the sink like youâre not crazy about me.â
âI am crazy about you,â he says, almost too fast, too raw. Then he grins, covers it up with that roguish confidence.
âBut you already know that, bonnie. Otherwise I wouldnâtâve married you before I had the decency to make a proper mess of your last name.â
You toss the ring at him. He catches it like heâs done it a hundred times, and turns it over in his fingers.
âStill fits,â he says, voice softer now.
âIt should,â you reply. âI sized it while you were unconscious.â
He stares at youâwet, warm, flushed from the steamâand just beams.
âJesus Christ, I love you.â
You grin. âI know.â
--- end ---
(A/N: Hi lovelies:3 This one came to me all at once and I couldnât resist. My slow burn fic (Ashen Roots) is still very much alive, Iâm just letting the muse run wild for a bit. âšâšâš Lovely art belongs to @FloweryAnarchy on x.)
The cold had been creeping in for weeks now. Frost dusted the hedges and glazed the yew trees lining the path like fragile lace, thin and still. Snow had fallen each day, Blanketing the grounds in a soft hush. It clung to branches like breath held too long. No carriages passed the gates. No birds sang from the roof. The Hall itself seemed to breathe slower, as though holding something in.
You had stepped out once already, drawn by the strange quiet of it. Everything about Braeriach felt stiller than usual. As if it, too, were waiting for something.
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She came just before dusk.
A dark figure beneath a slate-grey sky, cloak pulled close, hair damp with snowmelt. She did not knock. She didnât glance at the house. She moved through the old iron gate of the back grounds with the focus of someone who had walked this path a thousand times in her head.
She made her way toward the private graveyard behind the trees, past the wind-worn statues and the broken stone wall half-sunk in moss. Few came here. Fewer still knew how to find it. But she did.
The Hallâs graveyard was oldâolder than its newest inhabitants. It lay tucked beyond the walled gardens and the overgrown orchard, nearly swallowed by pines. There was no lock on the gate. Only silence. The sort of place people in the village didnât talk about, not because they feared it, but because grief was something you let lie still.
She knelt at one headstone, fingers curled around a letter. Her boots left no sound on the snow. Her breath shook once and then stilled, as though the cold had caught her in the middle of a word.
She held the letter there for a long time.
Then she set it downâflat against the name etched into the stone. A letter never sent. The ink had smudged at the edge from where her thumb had held it too tightly.
She didnât speak. Not to the stone. Not to the sky. But her eyes stayed locked on the name.
**Elias.**
And then she left.
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John had seen her.
Not from farâbut from the second-floor stairwell, half-shadowed behind the frost-glass window where he often stood when the wind howled too sharp and silence pressed too close. A habit formed not out of longing, but out of the need to feel something still moved beyond the walls of Braeriach.
She had come without ceremony.
A solitary figure descending through the snow-laced garden, her coat nearly swallowed by the slow drift that had been falling for weeks. Her steps left a trail behind her. Brief, shallow impressions that the wind soon began to cover. She walked with the caution of someone who had not returned in years. Or perhaps, someone who had never come at all until now.
He watched her stop at the grave beneath the twisted yew, where the stone Elias had been buried under leaned just slightly east. He could see her shoulders stiffen, see the wind pull at the hem of her skirts. She stood as though weighed down by something invisible, grief, maybe. Or guilt.
She stood there too long for it to be anything casual.
Didnât look at the Hall once.
Didnât notice him.
But he noticed her, not for her face, which the weather and frost-glass concealedâbut for the way she moved. Like a widow without the name. Like someone who had been waiting to bury something that had no corpse. A silence had followed her in, and it filled the garden like smoke.
John didnât move. Didnât breathe for a while.
The wind rattled the pane. Beneath his fingertips, the glass felt thinner than before.
He thought of Elias. Of the ring still wrapped in cloth in his coat pocket. The name the boy had muttered in his final hoursâhalf delirious, half determined. A name John had never spoken aloud, because it had not been his to carry.
And yet, he was the one left with it.
He wasnât sure what stirred in his chest then. It wasnât guilt, exactly. Not mourning, either. But something old. Something he had kept quiet for too long.
The woman turned then, slowly, as if she could sense the weight of memory thick in the air.
She did not see him.
But Braeriach had.
And the Hall, long haunted by the unspoken, stirred.
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The heavy door groaned open behind John, a sudden sound in the quiet hall. He turned, startled to see a tall figure standing framed in the shadowed doorway.
Mr. Blackwood. The mysterious, long-time steward and caretaker of Braeriach Hall â a quiet, imposing man who has lived on the estate longer than almost anyone alive remembers. He is not just an employee, but someone deeply entwined with the Hallâs legacy, its ghosts, and its forgotten promises. He answers only to the absent landowners and maybe not even them anymore.
He tends to the unseen parts of the Hall.
The Hall is vast, ancient, and crumbling. But not just physically. Blackwood spends time in parts no one visits â locked wings, sealed libraries, the graveyard, the oldest servantsâ quarters. He doesnât just clean; he preserves. He's the last line between memory and rot.
His presence filled the space like the chill that lingered after a storm, steady and inevitable.
He stepped inside, eyes sharp but patient, as if heâd been waiting years to see this moment.
His gaze settled on John, not with accusation but with the quiet certainty of someone who knows too much.
âShe comes late,â he said softly, voice low, threading through the stillness like smoke. âBut the dead donât mind waiting.â
There was no judgment in his tone â only the weight of years folded into a single sentence.
He moved with deliberate grace, fingers briefly brushing the edge of a nearby table, grounding himself.
âIâve watched this place long enough,â he added. âAnd the secrets buried here wonât stay silent forever.â
His eyes held John's, steady and unyielding.
In that instant, he felt the gravity of Braeriach settle over him like a shroud â and the true story was only just beginning.
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The next morning, the letter was gone.
And far beneath the trees, in the still hush of frost and snow, John MacTavish walked back aloneâpocketing a folded letter against his chest, its seal long broken. He hadn't read it. Not yet.
Ashen Roots âŠ| (Hanahaki disease) Chapter Three: The Quiet That Follows Frost
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John âSoapâ MacTavish x Reader
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Braeriach Hall â Early Winter 1883
The first snow had only just begun to fall.
It arrived not with drama, but with a hushâas if the sky had run out of words. The hills wore a thin veil of white, dusting the hedges and roofs in silence. You had noticed it at breakfast, gathering in the corners of the windows. The frost had crept in overnight, threading itself through the windowpanes like veins. But today was the first time the flakes truly fell.
Johnâs footsteps had become familiar now. Not loudânever thatâbut measured. You heard them in the corridor outside the infirmary each morning, pausing briefly like he forgot something. Then again at supper, when he sat at the end of the long dining table with that same quiet grimness, eyes down, food barely touched.
He didnât speak unless prompted. And when he did, it was clipped, Scottish, and sanded down with fatigue. But you noticed the way he softened slightly when he passed the window that overlooked the back gardens, the way his shoulder brushed the sill like it meant something.
You found him there one morning, leaning on the frost-glass frame, hands tucked into his pockets, brow furrowed.
âI thought youâd still be asleep,â you said gently.
âCouldnât.â His eyes didnât leave the horizon. âNot with the way the windâs been crying.â
You stepped closer. He didnât move.
âWhat are you looking for out there?â
He exhaled slowly, and the sound clouded the glass.
âNot sure,â he murmured. âBut I keep hoping Iâll find it.â
There were days when you tended the graves behind the Hall, your brotherâs among them. You brushed snow from the headstone, fingers numb. John passed once and paused. Said nothing, but crouched nearby and began clearing another graveâs edge, knuckles red with cold. You didnât ask him to. He didnât ask why you sat there so long.
Later, in the hallway, he offered something gruff and short:
âIf you ever want help clearing them⊠I donât mind.â
You nodded once. âThank you.â
Neither of you mentioned it again.
The chapel had long since caved in on one side, ivy crawling through the broken stained glass and a draft howling through the rafters. You passed it often on your walks. Once, you found John inside.
He was fixing a beam.
Or trying to. The hammer was old and the nail bent sideways, but he was frowning with such fierce concentration you didnât interrupt him.
âReckon itâll collapse by spring,â he muttered when he noticed you behind him.
âYou believe in salvaging things?â you asked.
âOnly the ones that want savinâ.â
He glanced at you after he said it. Just for a moment.
Then he coughedâsoft and sudden, like a breath gone wrong. He waved it off. âDust.â
But you looked anyway. No blood. No petals. Just a man tired in his bones.
At meals, he sat closer now. Not beside you, but nearer. Enough that you could hear the scrape of his fork, the way he muttered to himself sometimes in Gaelic when the firewood refused to catch in the hearth.
You lent him your lighter once.
He didnât return it for a week.
âI forgot I had it,â he said, placing it back in your hand. His fingers brushed yours. Cold.
âOr you didnât want to give it back,â you offered.
He didnât answer. But something flickered behind his eyes. A different kind of silence.
You started keeping a journal again. Most pages were about Elias. Some were about the Hall. A fewâmore than you expectedâwere about John.
"I found him in the garden again, staring at nothing, like the earth might answer back."
"He fixed the chapel window today. Said nothing. But I think it meant something to him."
"Heâs been coughing. Not much. But itâs always at night."
And beneath those entries, some daysâwhen the weather held you too stillâyou found yourself drifting back to moments with Elias:
A game of tag through the apple grove near your childhood home. Elias had always cheated. Climbing trees was his preferred tactic, and you always swore youâd never forgive him for it.
âYouâre not a squirrel,â you had shouted up.
âAnd youâre too slow,â heâd laughed down.
A torn page from your diary you once found burned at the edges. When confronted, he claimed it was a security measure: âYou write too many secrets for your own good.â
The time he stole your locket and replaced the photo inside with a charcoal sketch of a frog.
âYou said you liked amphibians,â he grinned.
He had been your constant, irritating shadow. And your best friend.
But then there were the quiet moments. When your parents fought behind closed doors and youâd crawl into Eliasâs room just to sit on the floor and breathe near someone who didnât ask questions.
He never told you to leave. He just handed you one of his blankets, feet propped up on the desk, pretending to read something important.
âIâll kill anyone who hurts you,â he said once. Out of nowhere. Calm, like he meant it.
Youâd scoffed. âYouâre five-foot-eight.â
âIâll use a chair,â heâd muttered.
That was Elias.
Brave, stupid, loyal to the bone.
And now he was just a name on a stone behind the Hall. Just a memory pressed between the pages of your journal.
You didnât write the worst parts. Like how you still expected him to walk through the door and tell you this was all a joke. That the war hadnât taken him. That heâd just gotten lost on his way home.
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One evening, you passed by the drawing room and saw John seated near the fireplace, an old rifle laid across his lap. The violet-sky dusk caught the hollow of his cheek, the curve of his brow. There was something delicate in that moment, but not fragile, like a man who had finally stopped bracing for war, even if just for a minute.
âCanât sleep again?â you asked softly from the doorway.
He looked over his shoulder. âYou write late.â
âSo do you pace.â
He grunted, something almost like amusement. âYou always this nosy?â
âOnly with the difficult ones.â
He didnât smile. Not right away. But his hand stilled on the cloth he was using to polish the stock, and after a pause, one corner of his mouth curvedâjust slightly. As if the idea of being called difficult amused him more than he was willing to admit. It wasnât a full smile. Not the kind that showed teeth or lit up a room. But it was something.
The first flicker of warmth after a long, hard winter.
He smiled. For the first time in a long time and it looked like it surprised even him. Like his face had nearly forgotten how. The fire caught the edge of it, painting his expression in gold, and for a heartbeat, the war was far behind him.
âMust be why you keep hanginâ around,â he muttered, voice low, almost fond.
And then came the cough. Again. Quiet. Dry. But enough to draw your attention.
âYou alright?â
He nodded quickly. âOld wound. Desert dust gets in your lungs and never quite leaves.â
You said nothing. But you thought of Elias. Of the violets.
He coughed again. And this time, you looked at his sleeve.
Still nothing. Just dust.
Outside, the snow kept falling. The Hall creaked. Shadows moved in long shapes along the halls.
In your notes that night, you wrote:
âSomethingâs changing. Not in him. In the air around him. Like the house knows heâs not just another soldier.â
âHeâs growing warmer. I feel like I know him more.â
But that night, long after the fire died, you passed by the drawing room againâjust onceâand saw him staring at the violet stems on the mantelpiece. Still. Eyes unreadable. As though something inside him had begun to remember what it meant to ache.
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Ashen Roots âŠ| (Hanahaki disease) - Chapter Two: When Petals Fell in Snow.
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John "Soap" MacTavish x reader
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Afghanistan, 1879.
He was twenty-two when they sent him to the Khyber Pass. Barely out of boyhood. Still smelled of steel polish and boot oil and ambition.
The pass was narrow, carved sharp into the snowy mountains like a scar. They were three men left.
The others? Swallowed by frost. Or lead. Or silence.
His Lieutenant bled out on a bed of shale and pine, eyes wide, mouth frozen open in a scream the snow kept. His blood turned black in the cold.
They buried him with their own bare hands. And when night came, they didnât speak.
They only listened. To the wind. To the wolves. To the coughingâhisâthat started soft.
He sometimes wondered if that cough ever really stopped.
Even now, years later, the air in his lungs sometimes felt heavier than it should. Like heâd never fully left that mountain pass behind. Like something had settled there, tucked into the corners of his ribs, waiting.
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Braeriach Hall. Scotland, 1883.
You asked him about your brother again.
âDid you serve with Corporal Elias?â
You didnât look at him when you said it. Voice steady, hands folded. But your eyes didnât match.
He remembers the name. Of course he does. He remembers the shape of Eliasâs shadow on patrol. The way he held his rifle too tight. A quiet steadiness in him.
But even now, some of itâs faded at the edges, blurred not from lack of care, but from too much time spent trying not to think about it. What he remembers, he remembers hard.
âAye,â he spoke without meeting your gaze. âHe was one of the good ones.â
You nodded once, as if it hurt to move more than that.
âHe wrote letters. He stopped signing them in â79.â
Your voice cracked a little then, like a candle flickering. You hid it quick. He respected that.
âI carried him once,â he said. âOff the ridge. His right leg was torn off. Wouldâve left him, butâŠâ he paused. âDidnât feel right.â
He doesnât mention how he couldnât remember which ridge. Just that it was steep, and the wind cut sideways through the rocks. Some things blur. Others stay sharp as knives.
âWhat happened to him?â
Your question sat between the both of you like a knife.
He didnât know how to answer it. Not without lying. Not without telling the truth he didnât yet understand himself.
âI dunno,â he said quietly. âHe was sick near the end. Coughing. Couldnât breathe.â
âWas it⊠petals?â you whispered.
He looked at you then. Full on.
âWhat?â
âNever mind.â You rose too quickly. âThank you.â
John had carried the man on his back until his spine nearly broke. The way heâd pressed something in his hand that night in desperation like it meant something. A button? A token? A clover?
No.
It was a ring.
Delicate. Silver. Fitted for a womanâs hand. Its band had been rubbed thin at the edges, as if it had been turned between nervous fingers too many times. There was a tiny engraving inside he could never bring himself to read. Meant for a girl whose name heâd murmured into the dirt like a prayer.
He hadnât known what it was at first. Only that Elias pushed it into his palm with shaking fingers and whispered, âKeep it. Please.â
John never gave it away. He didnât wear it. He didnât throw it out. He just kept it. Wrapped in a worn scrap of cloth, tucked into the corner of his old coat. He told himself it wasnât his to lose.
He kept seeing Elias, then. The blood. The shaking. The scent of something sweet he didnât understand. The surgeon had said it was fever. Said it was rot. But he knew better. That sweetness was wrong. It clung to everything.
He coughed blood and purple petals onto his collarbone.
He didnât sleep for two days.
He could still smell it sometimes when he woke up gasping.
Elias died whispering the name of a girl he never kissed. Never held. For he couldn't bring himself to.
Elias was barely a man when death took him.
He didnât know the sickness had touched him too.
Not until he met you.
But even then, he didnât know.
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You started showing up more. Always quiet. Always careful.
You asked about the war. About Kandahar. About the dead. You didnât flinch when he told you things that shouldâve sent you running. You just listened.
He noticed that. Noticed your stillness. The way you left space in a room rather than filled it. You always left the door open when you left.
Once, you brought him tea. Hands trembling just a little.
âYou look worse than yesterday,â you said.
âCheers,â he muttered.
âYou dream loudly.â
âI donât dream.â
âThen itâs a loud silence.â
He didnât respond. Just watched the steam curl from the mug, pretending not to feel the way his chest tightened.
But later, when the night came and the fire died low, He sat in the old armchair near the fire, though the flames had long since burned to embers. One leg rested over the other, arms slack at his sidesânot relaxed, but resigned.
He remembered the sound of boots in the dark. Of breathing that wasnât his. Of screams that ended too soon and others that didnât end at all.
They hadnât marched off like heroes. Just sons. Brothers. Lovers. Some barely shaving, some already kissed by silver at the temples. They left behind rooms still warm, half-mended shirts, mothers gripping the doorframe as if bracing for a storm. A few smiled as they waved, smiles stretched too tight, like the goodbye had caught in their throats. And those left behind waited. For letters. For footsteps on the path. For anything. But the war was greedy. It didnât care for promises or prayers. It swallowed men whole, and returned only silence to the ones who loved them.
There were things he couldnât name, not because he had forgotten, but because there were no words for what the war had done to them. What it had taken. What it had left behind.
The Anglo-Afghan War had been painted in the colours of empire. Glory, conquest, dominion. But to John, it had always been something colder, something lonelier. In the choking dust of Kabulâs outskirts and the narrow, blood-slick passes of the Khyber, he learned that no one truly won in war. The men they called enemies bled the same, cried out in the same tongue of agony, clutched the same tokens of home beneath their coats. Most werenât fighting for a cause; they were fighting because they had to, because survival is louder than loyalty, and fear speaks in every language. Victory, he had come to understand, was just another word for who lived to bury the dead.
He didnât know it then, but the war had marked him in ways the bullets never could. Eliasâs whispered name haunted the nights, mingling with the frost that crept through his bones. And now, here in Braeriach Hall, with you watching quietly, the past was beginning to bleed into the present in ways he couldnât yet comprehend. The cough that escaped his lips was softer than a secretâbut it was a warning, and soon, the petals would fall again. Only this time, the fragile blossoms would wither where no light dared follow, a silent requiem in the hollow of his chest.
Ashen Roots ⊠| (Hanahaki disease) - Chapter One: The Thorns That Bloom in Silence.
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John "Soap" MacTavish x reader
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Scottish Highlands, 1883. After the second Anglo-Afghan War, you volunteered as a civilian caretaker for veterans to uncover the truth in the mysterious disease that your brother died from during the war.
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The road to Braeriach Hall was long and graveled with silence. Even the carriage wheels hesitated on the stones, as though the land itself wished to swallow the past and all who wandered into it.
The mist did not lift for miles.
It clung to the hills like memory, low, cold, and relentless. Heather grew thick along the roadside, the purple heads bowed with dew and decay. You had read somewhere that heather meant protection, but here it looked more like mourning.
You arrived with a letter. Folded in black wax, marked with a military crest you recognized too well.
Your brotherâs name had been on it. Corporal Elias [insert surname], deceasedâ1879.
Second Anglo-Afghan War. His body returned, but not whole. And not all of him had made it back. Strangely enough, his lungs were filled with blooms of sweet violets that seemingly grew inside his lungs. The roots thrived in the tissues of his bronchus. From there it stemmed all the way up and housed the flowers to his oral and nasal cavity. You saw it yourself.
The military offered no explanation beyond âhonorable death.â No apology. No real answers.
Only this: A place where the broken were sent. A place where something had gone wrong.
Braeriach Hall.
Braeriach Hall did not rise. It hovered, watching. Stone-dark and shrouded by moss and memory, it loomed through the trees like a secret remembered too late. The light never quite touched its corners; instead, it clung to the heavy eaves and watchful windows as if afraid to trespass.
The Hall had the shape of a fortress, but none of the warmth of safety. It was a place built to endure. Not to welcome. Ivy curled against the walls like veins beneath tired skin. The upper windows were narrow and silent, as though the building itself held its breath.
You could look upon it for hours and still not be certain if it had ever been truly alive.
They needed staff. But you weren't just here to serve tea or fluff pillows.
You came with questions buried beneath your skirts and grief sewn into every hem.
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The Hall rose from the moor like a wound stitched into the hills, gray stone darkened by rain, slate roof veined with moss. Windows like watchful eyes. No warmth. No music. Just wind, and rot, and secrets.
They said it was a sanatorium now. A convalescent home for veterans.
But whispers lingered. Strange tales muttered behind locked doors. Of men whose lungs failed in bloom. Of fevered nights and breath laced with petals. Not wounds of flesh, they said, but something far crueler. Quiet. Hidden. And growing.
You didnât believe it. Not at first.
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They told you his name before you saw him: Sergeant John MacTavish. Twenty-six. Highland-born. Decorated. Damned.
Heâd been in the same battalion as your brother. Fought in the same frostbitten hell.
The letter didnât say that, but you found his name scribbled beside Eliasâs in a report stamped âConfidentialâ and left unsupervised.
Thatâs how you knew. And thatâs why you asked to care for him.
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You found him in the west wing.
Alone.
His hands were wrapped in linen, knuckles bruised from old fights or new nightmares. His hair was dark and unkempt, and he sat too still for someone awake. The window cast his face in silver and shadow, cheekbones drawn sharp, eyes heavy with storms you dared not name.
He didnât look at you.
Didnât need to.
Pain hung around him like incense.
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You sat across from him. Not close. Not distant. He did not speak.
Neither did you.
But in the silence, you thought of Elias. Of the way heâd whispered in his sleep before they took him. Of the petals you found on his pillow before he was sent for war. Lavender. Violet. Rose.
After his death, the doctors said it was infection. That war does strange things to a manâs lungs.
But you had watched him bleed color. And you knew better.
You were not here to save Sergeant MacTavish. You were here to watch. To gather whatever the doctors missed or refused to name. You didnât know what ailed him, not yet. He was silent, whole, and breathing. But so was Elias once. And if something unspeakable had begun to bloom in his lungs too, you would be there when the first petal fell.
And maybe. Maybe, he wouldn't suffer the same fate as Elias.
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He exhaled. A ragged, too-human sound. And though he didnât look at you, you felt something shift.
Recognition. Resentment. Or ruinâyou couldnât say.
But you stayed.
Not because you were brave. Not because you were kind.
Because something inside you whispered that if you left, you'd never know what truly happened in the snows of Kandahar. And you would never forgive yourself for letting another soldier slip quietly into the soil, unseen.