Sang'gre ng Kalikasan

Hi Bloggey. Update lang kita because it's been 3 years since my last post haha.

Work.

Wala na pala ako sa Dentistry, nasa Central Ad na ako ng UPM nagwo-work, SG10 pero JO pa din. Syempre aim pa rin natin maging permanent so sana kahit SG15 lang this year HAHAHAHAHAHA

Education.

Nagma-masters na rin pala ko, sa UPM din, 1st year 2nd sem. Kaya aim ko rin na permanent para free tuition na ako hehe. Bakit ako nag masters? Trip ko lang pampalipas oras char hahaha. Bukod sa na inspire ako ni Ron at ng mga graduates sa Dentistry, gusto ko rin mag sablay hehe.

Family.

Meron na pala kong sariling kwarto since nagpa 2nd and 3rd floor sina mmy last 2023. May pamangkin na rin pala ako, si Josiah, he's 4 na. Si ate Laine kasal na kay Ryan last 2024. Si Tin at kuya Joe, single pa rin. Si Lea 3rd year college na sa course na Midwifery. Si Alas 5 or 6 years old siya nung nagkasakit siya last year dahil sa leptospirosis. Si Nashnash, 12 years old na and may sakit na rin na tumor. Si mmy, ang payat na dahil sa stress sa Bicol, si ddy ganun din payat din dahil naman sa na stroke siya. I am still praying that all of them will have a good life and a good health wherever they may be.

Friends.

Nadagdagan pa po ang circle of friends ko dahil sa work ko. Aside from IG and GHAME, I already have besties sa Mach at sa Dentistry. Dito sa bago kong office, not sure pa hehe. Regular ko pa rin naman silang nakakausap lahat so ayuuuunn.

Lovelife.

Ron and I celebrated our 8th anniversary last November and we are getting married this June. Sobrang gastos Bloggey 🥲 From 50 pax to 80 pax na kami. From 100k to 200k+ na ata kami. Nawa'y mairaos lang namin tong wedding na to ng masaya at maayos. Lord, sorry po pero kayo na pong bahala kung loloobin niyo po hehe. Thank you po I love you.

Self.

Currently, I'm okay. Medyo may pressure lang siguro sa kasal and sa gastos pero medyo di pa sagad sagad haha. Hintayin ko lang na mag combo yung kasal-work-acads ko, baka dito na ko mabaliw hehe.

Hey Lord,

Once again, I don't know the path I am taking. There are a lot of things I want to do, but nothing has really started. Suddenly, I lost my inspiration, and everything became dull.

Therefore, I am here asking for your guidance again. Please walk with me as I try to find my path again. Please shed some light on me as I leave the dull path I am currently on. Please stay with me as I cling to your plans more than my own. Let me put my whole trust in you. Let me believe in you, Lord, more than ever.

I love You. Goodnight.

My boyfriend and I will be going 5 years and 3 months 11 days from now. Currently, we are not going smoothly, a very tough road it is. Misunderstandings are very frequent. Long dates weren't on the list. The productive convo was very seldom. Physical touch can not be felt.

Sometimes, I feel like there are a lot of things changing but also feel like there's nothing changed at all. We can't still go on an overnight trip. We can't still go to each other's family. We can't still go to other provinces. We can't still be together. Yes, we're not living together cause my family is kinda conservative when it comes to living together (which includes overnight) without marriage.

You know what when I was in my kindergarten years, I find my height very awkward. Children in kinder was supposed to be little and cute but I don't remember someone calling me cute during that years. It seems like I just went to kinder after all to study and not to entertain people hahaha.

I also had this experience when I was in my 6th grade (13 years old). People said I'm not supposed to do caroling since I'm a big girl na. Also, I'm not supposed to play with kids shorter than me (though I'm with the same age as them) because "dadayain" ko lang daw sila. Fckyall people! I have friends to play and sing a carole with. Don't tell me what I am supposed to and not supposed to do.

Then there's this senior prom I attended. I asked my boy classmate (we've been classmates for 12 years) why he doesn't ask me for a dance, he just said that I'm too tall for him to dance. I'm 5'5 that time plus my 2 inches heels. He's roughly around 5'2 I think.

This is one of the things I randomly took a photo on our rooftop.

How can an "i-dont-know-what-plant-it-is" plant grows on the things that are already considered rotten and a waste? Maybe it doesn't matter what kind of things the soil are comprises as long as its serve its purpose; to support growth. But it is not just the soil needed for the plant to grow, you also need sunlight, water, air and nutrients.

Just wanna share our first bike together. Last Sunday morning, July 7, 2019 around 7am I called him like my usual routine. I greet him good morning and asked if he ate already and other stuff. After the usual talk...

Non-verbatim

Me (half-sleepy): pupunta kang Arroceros?

Him: tignan ko

Me: san ka ba?

Him: dito sa RJ clinic

Me: saan?

Him: dito sa RJ Clinic

Me: saan yan?

Him: dito sa gate niyo

Me: what? Anong ginagawa mo dyan? Naka bike ka?

Him: oo

Me: punta ka nga dito

Before the exam

So nag take pala ako ng civil service kahapon sa University of Makati haha. Jusko 2am pa lang gising na ko kasi baka ma-late kami dahil 6:30am ang call time eeh Cavite pa kami. So, umalis kami ng bahay ng pinsan at kapatid ko 3:15am tas dumating kami sa UMak ng mga 5:30am tas ayun inaantok na ko kasi 10pm na rin ako nakatulog kinagabihan tas di pa ko nakatulog sa byahe :/ Tas ayun na nga, university field goals yung oval ng UMak hahahaha ganda may lighting pang ang lalaki :))  Pagkatapos mga 7 siguro umakyat na kami sa kanya-kanyang respective building so yung building ko, Academic Bldg 3 tas 2nd floor room 31. Siyempre nag pray muna ko na sana di ako makatulog o antukin habang nage-exam di ba hahaha so ayun nag start yung exam ng exactly 8am at matatapos siya ng 11:10am dahil 3 hrs and 10 mins yung exam.

The exam

Madali lang yung exam. Kung alam mo yung technique haha. Pero kung hindi siguro 80% yung passing siguro may chance ako na pumasa (kung 50% siguro hahahahaha). So ayun na nga, sana ini-scan ko muna yung mga tanong kasi mas naubos yung oras ko sa english kakabasa. Napansin ko kasi na mas madali yung mga tanong sa middle at last part. Sa math, puro percentage and fractions yung lumabas. Kung alam niyo yung technique sa pagkuha ng pattern mas maganda. Tas yung constitution ayun parang self-understanding na lang din pero dapat may basic knowledge ka din tungkol sa mga batas batas. Ang pinaka nagustuhan ko sa exam na toh ay ang daming tanong tungkol sa environment kaya as an Environmental Science student masaya ko na in-include toh sa exam :) Medyo nagahol ako sa computation sa Math kasi nga di ko na masyadong natantya yung oras so shade lang ako ng shade at pinagdarasal na sana tama yung shine-shadan ko hahahaha.

After the exam

So after ng exam siyempre pray ulit kasi natapos ko siya ng di ako inaantok at nabilugan ko naman lahat hahahaha. Mga 12:50pm na kami nakalabas dahil hindi pa daw cleared yung papers namin na iche-check ng supervisor like kung ayos ba lahat or anything. Jusko gutom na gutom na kami nun kasi 5 hrs kaming nakaupo dun na tubig lang ang hawak na kumulo na sa sobrang init ng room hahaha jk. Basta ayun sa wakas tapos na rin hahahaha. Nagpapasalamat ako kay Lord ng sobra kasi nandyan siya nakasuporta sakin kagaya ng buong pamilya ko :) Kung ano man yung maging resulta, pumasa man o hindi, natuto ako. Kung magte-take man ulit ako, alam ko na gagawin ko, sa dulo ako magsisimula hahahahaha. Thank you po ulit Lord. You’re the best! :)