whoo boy I did not expect parenting to be as hard as it turned out to be.
who knew postpartum depression and anxiety during a pandemic in the middle of winter would be a shitshow? .-.
But my little girl is now 3 months old, and she’s absolutely thriving nonetheless, so at least I’m doing SOMETHING right <3 unfortunately, the fire I had for spn has kind of fizzled out. It’s not that I don’t like them anymore, it’s just that... like now that the story ended, and it got progressively sloppier, inconsistent and disappointing after season 10... and while the ending was cute, the more I thought about it, it was kind of disappointing... idk. i feel like the love I had for it has died down a lot. There’s no new content to look forward to anymore. No new pictures, theories, gifs, no new crack vids... everything just kind of slowed down and died off. There’s nothing new to engage with anymore to take my mind off the stress.
It’s weird existing in a time where I don’t really have a new fandom or obsession to replace this one. I’ll always hold spn near and dear to my heart, but idk. I almost feel let down in a way.
I’m not sure if this blog will just stay a spn blog, or if i’ll make it a personal blog, or a music fandom blog or what. or if i’ll even ever come back to tumblr.
but i did want to say the friends i made here, i still love to death. even if i’m like never on here anymore. ya’ll are wonderful and i never want to hear you’ve stopped creating.
