hell is where the heart is

ive kinda been fckn hammered constantly lately which suuuuuux

got shorts today that i wasnt entirely sure werent a pair of boxers until i found the pockets

also idk what the fuck is wrong with me that i want to shorten my name and while most people i know have COMPLETELY changed their names, no one respects mine. at all. and they all acted like omg why didnt you tell me! when i told every1 im legally changing it and i was like i did. many times. and expressed how deeply it mattered to me. and you didnt care. and now everyones gone back to my old full name and im like see i told you you didnt care bro 😭

i really deeply wish i was worth something to anyone and not just a vessel through which people pass energy wherein they expect so much out of me but also put negativity in and the positivity only comes from what i have myself produced and not from a genuine earnest care or belief of worthiness and itll be those same people that go on and on about how THEY feel this way, and im like well i dont pour negativity into you like this and i dont expect anything out of you like that but they do me and im like right because im like a kickable dog

didnt know people were still on the kamala harris was as evil of a candidate as trump and i wont be voting next election cycle and no electoral candidates have ever been this universally unacceptable train we are soooo fucking fucked. i hope everyone wanted prezy dent trump forever because apparently thats better. i swear to god modern liberals generally prefer a republican president in office so they can bitch and moan about how oppressed and morally superior they are all the time. with less minorities being murdered in the streets what would they lord over their coworkers at burger king then..

diarrhea parasites and disease got me cracking uppp everyone quietly suffering from explosive shits rn

it is INSANE to me that cream cheese isnt a more common sandwich ingredient at least in my region. i remember thinking i fucking invented it as a kid bc its just not a thing and i think almost every single sandwich needs cream cheese and in fact i think most sandwiches with pickles should just have dill pickle cream cheese !!!!! no weak pickles fuck it atp id rather eat something else providing pickle than a cheap rubbery squeaky ass pickle slice they made in the great value lab

well i leaned on youtube shorts as a replacement for all social media and also my nicotine addiction fo long enough now i have to kill that too because over consumption is evil and shit

my mouth is so small 😭 the more i weigh the more of a tom holland situation i approach

btw kindness is a war and sometimes you lose the battle and it actually makes you a better person if you keep fighting and come back stronger than to be miserable and let it fester kindness is what cleanses your rot