Violeta

when you show up to the insane parabatai competition but will “jem is my great sin” herondale and jem “my will, my rebellion, mine forever” carstairs are already there

each time i read clockwork princess i cry a little more

i love jem carstairs so much, you don’t get it unless you’re will herondale or tessa gray.

here to remind everyone waiting on twp that will and tessa had a whole lifetime with each other, and jem and tessa now have a whole lifetime with each other but will and jem will always only have had 5 years together

Leviticus really said yes life will be harder because I choose to be with you but I choose to be with you despite it all

Loved that the film lets love and fear exist together, without easy resolution.

seeing the bus scene in a new light after my rewatch because ohh my god ryan was actually just so ridiculously giddy about naim liking him back. they go and talk to this girl who tells them that the entity looks like who you're most into, and ryan's shifting awkwardly from foot to foot bc welp. guess the truth abt his crush is out there now. what can you do. but then he looks to his left and naim is just as awkward, eyes flicking to him and then away. and wait, hang on a minute. ryan's entity looking like naim is a given, but naim's entity looks like him too. when jessica yells at naim he puts a protective hand on his back because that's something he feels suddenly allowed to do now, knowing what it means that naim's entity looks like him. and when they're on the bus, naim still reeling from the near miss, ryan talks him down, holds his hand, refusing to let fear ruin this. bc he's had a crush on the new kid since he came to town, and he had to work up a shit ton of courage to lead him to the mill and take that first leap of faith. he hadn't lied, when he told naim it was his first time. what he had with hunter was nothing like this. and now he's there on the bus with naim, and even after all the insane shit that's happened and is still happening, he can't help but be stupidly excited by the fact that naim likes him back. yeah this evil demonic entity might never leave them alone, but ryan's just found out naim likes him to the point that it takes his form to tempt him and as fucked up as that is it's kind of validating too. naim likes him, and he kisses ryan back when he leans in, shifts in his seat to give him more room, and you know what? fuck it. ryan's gonna give him the best hand job of his life on this bus right fucking now

my advice to the kids is that they should fight people on the playground while they can still get away with it without legal consequences

no one does it like them. they parabataied so hard, their kids are siblings.

I fear that I am, in fact, like the other girls. I love gruesome metaphors for love and religious imagery in music. I love cannibalism as a metaphor for love and as another form of intimacy and consumption. I love canine poetry. I love The Metamorphosis. I love The Picture of Dorian Gray. And I want to be adored like something sacred, but the sound of another person's breath on my neck creates little fire ants in my veins. Like I said. I'm just like other girls.

i lied put your clothes back on. we're going to talk about how "the metamorphosis" not only can be read as an allegory for disability, specifically it can be read as an extension of franz kafka's self-hatred and belief that he was a disgusting creature as a result of his mental illness, and resulting deep fear that no one would love him if he got worse, or that no one would love him if he didn't get better. the kindest character in the story to gregor, his sister grete, still thinks of him as gross and horrible and begrudgingly does the bare minimum to look after him, and assumes that his inability to communicate properly is evidence that he isn't gregor anymore or isn't trying at all although he obviously tries to make things easier for everyone. everyone assumes the worst of him, even though he never returns the hatred and dislike that his family show to him for something he has no control over and is obviously traumatic for him too. no one ever considers that he's doing his best or that he is also struggling with this massive traumatic event and doesn't know why it happened or how to reverse it. and without him, his family feels freed of a burden and doesn't mourn him because he doesn't have worth unless he's healthy and 'normal'. in this essay I will