why do i wanna watch myself bleed everytime im sad

humans are meant to lay in bed awhile after they wake up and think and rest. we are not supposed to get up right away

i think that the concept of an "uncaring universe" is so silly. like we invented caring to describe a thing that humans specifically do. it's tautologically true. like i get annoyed at feel-good humanist platitudes very often but being like "oh the universe doesn't care about us" feels as meaningful as saying "the universe doesn't speak french". like yeah obviously you made that word up to describe a thing that people do

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

I'm telling everyone now to stay away from me. Everything I touch turns to wound.

people pretend to care about me until they see me cry for help then it’s as if they can’t hear or see me

I am so so so lonely I feel like I have absolutely nobody. Nobody I feel like I can talk to, nobody to tell me that I'm going to be okay and that things are going to be okay. I am going nowhere in life, I have no passions or aspirations, no hobbies, nothing. I literally feel like an empty shell without a face, like I have no identity at all. Like what is the fucking point?