Maybe Arcane Was The Friends We Made Along The Way

Sorry how do you look at Mel and not go crazy. She’s the baby of her family and her mom makes fun of her for being too softhearted because she wants to play psychological political mind games instead of just killing people. She’s playing politics with her boyfriend and sometimes he’ll come over upset because his boyfriend is in the hospital again and she’ll very awkwardly pat him on the back while he cries into her shoulder. Aforementioned boyfriend started out as a pawn and she intended to polish him into a tool for her use but he got attached and now she’s just kinda letting him cry all over her sometimes. She wants peace. She wants pragmatic solutions. She even has mommy issues

how is it misogynistic to make [female character] a heartless bitch with no concern for the people around her in my headcanons/fanwork? i literally find it entertaining

I think maybe it’s misogyny when it directly contradicts that character’s canon personality

i am not immune to a well choreographed fight scene with a fun song in the background

sometimes 'fandom safe space, no discourse etc' means a place is chill. other times it means 'if you get annoyed or upset or complain about racism etc in fandom then you are breaking the rule by bringing something ControversialTM into our safe space and we want to keep real world issues away from our fun zone'. and it does make me laugh bcs do u really think poc can choose to leave 'real world issues' at the door of your 'discourse free' space. as if they're able to turn off the big 'noticing racism' switch in their minds (which you gladly do) just so white ppl can write yaoi without feeling guilty. babes you might as well put a big asterisk after safe space that says *for white people. since that's what you mean

tbh if i was really into a het relationship with a fun unique dynamic and i logged online to tumblr and saw that the fans were going "alright we have 4 flavors of misogyny available to portray women with so we're gonna pick one" id become the joker. hetjoshis im so sorry you have to deal with fanon

"you will look for themes and motifs in media that isn't worth the effort" i will look for themes and motifs in the dirt. on the ground.

having a multi year long character obsession becomes like a abstract thought experiment at some point

so embarrassing to watch yourself become obsessed with a character that feels tailor made for you specifically to become obsessed with. feels like i fell into a trap made just for me. like damn they got me. those are all the things i like and go crazy for

The key to writing good fanfiction is to harbor a deeply humiliating desire, and the trick there is that even pretty basic and societally-accepted desires like “being held” and “being wanted” CAN and WILL be humiliating if they’re intense enough. Become so estranged from human connection that the idea of someone playing with your hair fills you with yearning so deep you feel like you’re going to throw up and you will write some banger fanfiction. It might have some other consequences too but idrk about that.