ChaCha

I think, that I am incredibly sad

my ex had all of his dreams come true, and that makes me feel so warm inside 💖 everybody deserves to find themselves and in turn find their happiness

you painted my world red. and I let you.

He made It so I never trusted anybody to help me again. Imagine hearing somebody tell me I depend on them again? Nah lol never that

Have you ever loved somebody so much they make you hate Christmas? It’s so painful.

I now weigh 7lbs less, maybe I won’t hate clothes shopping

I’ve thrown up so much my moms buying me a pregnancy test. How to explain heart break is harder on my body than my pregnancy was?

I don’t cry anymore, my face just gets really red and I throw up as my eyes water. But no tears.

I’ll move to my old tumblr, too many people know of this one. I don’t want to hurt anybody else.

Spent the day in the hospital thanking god I am a great actress

If I died now people will think It was over a boy, but maybe It could be an accident. I don’t know how I can wait, but knowing how I fall apart all at once is shitty. I didn’t see my psychiatrist yesterday, I’ve switched my antidepressants to pain killers but aren’t they the same thing? Everything hurts lately. He’s not coming back. He doesn’t love me the way I love him. Something’s can’t be fixed. This hurts more than the first two times. This hurts more than my last break. Now I don’t have a lover or a best friend. Who will call me to talk about football or Tokyo Ghoul. I haven’t written a suicide note in a while this is pretty shitty. I’m glad he chose to get himself away from me, I’m so toxic I would too. Well no, probably not. I would’ve stayed with him to keep him happy even if I wasn’t. But I was happy, that’s why understanding is hard.

I’ll just take one pill and go to sleep, night night world