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The brain is such a scary place

I never should have picked up that dope 😭 like omg the rem rebound now that I’m smoking less…I am genuinely terrified of going back to bed…internet telling me I have to face my subconscious wounds. Oh right yes let me grapple W visceral abuse. Abandonment and endangerment. I guess that is my life but I have numbed myself to it. And why was I on a farm. And why was the Hannah girl from hacks helping me escape she was such a comfort actually when she dissapeared and the guy was beating the door down I was trying to jump off the balcony to escape it all . I had to wake up this was too much. The internet is literally telling me to accept it all. FYCK okay then. If this will free me I will. Need better sleep hygiene tho

Thinking about how I’m an air sign heavily dominated by earth and water in my astrological makeup, and I love spinning on my pole (air + fixed onto the earth) and swimming. Like I actually feel most alive then. If I was an executive my door would b closed and when someone would come visit me, my assistant would be like not rn. Shes spinning.

Japanese show about abused hamster

Fell into the hype of new thing and got burger and fries craving a feeling like putting fries on burger. And it was illuminatingly underwhelming like 😭😭

If no one got me, an old lighting tech literally always will.

giving up the idea that I need my body bigger before figuring out how to use it correctly….the volume will come with the muscle fibres working in tandem

Papi y July 2 me 💔😭