Issra Space Bean

im genuinely so fucking sick. this is a kid

he's fifteen (sixteen? how fucking old is lui)

he's a KID. and he's so weak he can barely move. he's clinging to life, to consciousness, and he is terrified.

"somethings in me"

"...i dont feel good"

"im going to die"

he is a child

he is a child who accepted his death before he even began to utter the words of the poem

he is a child who knew this would probably kill him. who knows he is going to die

Rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first ten tracks, then tag ten people 🎶

1. band of gold - the gray havens

2. ok ok ok ok - colony house

3. beige - yoke lore

4. sports - beach bunny

5. angela - the lumineers

6. hot rod - dayglow

7. deny deny deny - noah kahan

8. cannonballers - colony house

9. sunkissed - khai dreams

10. castle in hollywood - laufey

the way things go - beabadobee

It's Not Like I Like You!! - Static-P

The Graduate - The Arcadian Wild

Runaway - AURORA

Collateral - Acoustic - Woodblock

Ship in a Bottle - fin

Thus Always To Tyrants - The Oh Hellos

Give It A Rest - The Arcadian Wild

Lemons - Woodblock

Rounds - The Oh Hellos

Calling for you - suprhot, Elena westermann

breathe (legend of runeterra version) - fleurie

volcano - Jim Yosef, scarlett

Numb - linkin park

road to hell - Andre de shields, hadestown original broadway cast

Bad liar - imagine dragons

Panic room - au/ra

Without you - ursine vulpine, annaca

Brother - kodaline

Ghost (2WEI Remix) - Marvin brooks, 2wei

10-20-40 - rina sawayama

a sadness runs through him - the hoosiers

sunny came home - shawn colvin

porch light - noah kahan

the ballad of the witches road - seo moon tak

woe to the people of order - cami-cat

undertow - suzanne vega

the great divide - noah kahan

willing and able - noah kahan

stem the flow - paris paloma

Je te laisserai des mots - Patrick Watson

Dangerous - Jorge Rivera-Herrans

Flaming red hair - Howard Shore

Battle Born - The Killers

Bottle blond - VIAL

Punkrocker - Teddybears

Raise up your bat - Toby Fox

Na na na (na na na na na na na na na) - My Chemical Romance

Angle eyes and basketball - Foot Ox

Viva la viva - Coldplay

genuinely surprised by the lack of crane wives or oh hellos in this shuffle (at least we got the killers)

No More Tears - AJJ

Charlie's Inferno - That Handsome Devil

Starring Role - MARINA

Icicles - The Scary Jokes

Sorry Bro - AJJ

Me and my husband - Mitski

Cup of roasted coffee - Original starkid cast of the guy who didnt like musicals

Two birds - regina spektor

Second child, restless child - the oh hellos

admittedly i also listen on another platform not counting my mp3 player so this is not quittteeee indicative of my music taste currently :)

Dream Sweet in Sea Major - Miracle Musical

Piano Man - Billy Joel

Number Go Up - The Stupendium

It's Over - JT Music

Wheel - Jesse Welles

Black Hole Sun - Soundgarden

The Bidding - Chonny Jash (cover)

Monochrome - BABYMETAL

Alright (acoustic) - Maxton Waller

I admit I cheated a bit and got rid of repeat artists, but if I didn't the list would've been 40% Jesse Welles, the shuffle wasn't shuffling

Trees - McCafferty

Mayday! - Sparkbird

Fable - Gigi Perez (AUGHHHHH THIS SONG AJFHHHFFHHFHDHGG)

A Match Into Water - Peirce the Veil

Black Sheep - Metric

Sleep Patterns (Remastered) - Merchant Ships

Unsweetened Lemonade - Amèlie Farren

Canary in a Coal Mine - The Crane Wives

Tongues and Teeth (Live) - The Crane Wives

These songs...ough...

not anywhere - alexgoffline

a burning hill - mitski

it girl - Penelope Scott

if I leave - Mitski

east coast - alexgoffline

loser - Penelope Scott

I bet on losing dogs - Mitski

Pisces tears -Penelope Scott

Dead girls - Penelope Scott

Stress Relief - late night drive home

Falling Up - Will Wood

The Recipe - Kendrick Lamar, Dr. Dre

The Great Gig in the Sky - Pink Floyd

Resolution - Kurt Elling

Flaming Swords - Fievel Is Glauque

Say It Ain’t So - Weezer

‘Cause I’m A Man - Tame Impala

Princess Cuts My Wrist - Sickboyrari

I straight up just listen to my liked songs on shuffle, crazy like that

I have pre- and post concert depression rn I can't listen to anything else.

Episode 125 spoilers ahead

There's a lot of angles to this that can be seen. As funny as parts of the segment of amputating Jay's leg was there was a big part of me that was quite annoyed by how it was handled.

As an able-bodied person I cannot speak for people who have disabilities that affect their mobility in day to day life. But in story Jay's leg getting fucked has been a huge deal to her. I can move passed that we kind of "forgot" about it as soon as the Undersea arc started but the amputation could've been handled so much better than to make a joke out of it. Just the idea that THEY decided to do it when the whole plan was "we have great doctors in trench" is kinda crazy to me.

I know a lot of people in this community who have felt so seen by all the NPC with various limbs missing or that use prosthetic so it just feels wrong to portray an already traumatic thing even more traumatic just for shits and giggles.

Representation aside even in story it was just cruel. Grizzly tells them twice that they can make this amputation as comfortable as possible for Jay yet when she wakes up they don't even try to get her back to sleep. Like truly if any type of magical sleep wasn't an option literally a punch would've been enough probably.

Even the aftermath was handled so badly in my opinion. Jay is actively telling the crew she is in pain and they dismiss her to talk about Gillions hand that isn't even hurting? The conversation is literally switched to them giving Gillion a hook for a hand while Jay is inconsolable in the back.

The argument here can be "oh Gillion also lost his hand" which yeah he did. The difference is his hand is frozen. He isn't feeling anything. Jay got her leg cut off without any anesthesia. That's soldiers in war type shit not a we have a cleric and druid who can help but we don't use them shit. Gillion also got a moment in character to express how he felt about loosing the hand and even time to process that it happened. Jay didn't. And that doesn't sit right with me.

I am not saying the council should've known better I not. I am just pointing this out to bring light to it. Able-bodied people very often fall into things like this because ableism is normalized in society and is hard for so many people to see because the world works good for their abled-body. I hope this post can help people see other angles to how this story is portrayed. No show is perfect but willingness to have a dialog about it is how we can make more people feel welcomed in our community.

Episode 125 spoilers ahead

the way gillion was introduced in the hole in the sea oneshot ("and the much younger boy- you... maybe or maybe not remember the name of. you've seen him around here and there, he attends some of your seminars, a very bright-eyed boy. gillion, maybe").

the sheer amount of detail he put into his logs, that wouldn't be necessary for an outside reader to know; exact temperatures and times and the direction of the wind, pages upon pages going on about the sky and the types of clouds he saw and the humidity in the air. like he's trying to paint himself a picture in his mind so he'd be able to remember it just by reading the words.

This has been playing on repeat in my head ever since they talked in the rolled about what animal Troy would be if he was a hybrid