Welcome to my library!

ೃ❀࿔ name: Irene₊   ˙

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ she/her ๋࣭ ⭑⚝

ྀི𖣁𓈒age: 20 something ྀི𖣁𓈒

˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗ In need of a quiet place to read? Well you’re in the right place! Have a seat on one of the bean bags, couch anywhere you’d like! Even the floor if you’d like (don’t worry I have people who clean the floor everyday). In this library we have every book you like! Friends to enemies? We have. Forbidden love?yup. Academic rivals to friends to lovers? You bet!

You don’t see the book you like? No problem just let the librarian know and I’ll take a look in the back! Wanna make a request? No problem just send me a message and I’ll let the writer know she has a new book to write!

In this library we do have rules tho!

1. Make sure you respect everyone in the library which also includes the librarian and the writer

2. The writer does have a life outside the library so please be patient with her!

3. The writer mostly writes jjk! But she is getting into love and deepspace so if you want to request a book with any of the love and deepspace characters just tell her a bit of the characters and she’ll do it.

4. The writer will not write an age up book about any of the Jjk characters who aren’t grown ups in the anime/manga

5. The writer will put warning on each of the book she writes and if a book comes out that is suggestive she will put 18+ warning!

🎵-sparks by coldplay 

Sometimes I wanna call you, but I realize I can’t. I wait, lying around, hoping I’d see your name pop up on my screen, but I realized we stopped talking weeks ago. Whenever anything happens, you’re the first person that I wanna tell. I leave my lectures and hope to see you leaning against the wall waiting for me with my favorite drink. Whenever I fail a test, I wish I could go to your dorm and cry my eyes out against your chest.  I long for those late-night drives we used to take, the way you made me laugh so easily, the way you understood me without me even asking. The way you loved me.

Every rom com, every romantic song, daydreaming of someone loving me that way, and then I found you. You sent me flowers, gave me all your attention, understood my boundaries, and never dared to cross them, the way you never let me pay for anything, even when I wanted to. I’d send you the money, and you’d send it right back, saying, “I don’t want you to pay for anything whenever you’re with me”.  The way people say your eyes lit up whenever I was in the room. The way you looked at me like I hung the stars and the moon. The way you gave me butterflies for every small thing you did. 

I thought I found the love that people talk about. I thought I found love in the rom-coms and romantic music. What happened?

I say I’d get over you, but here I am stuck in the merry-go-round. I get stuck in my own small little world, thinking what happened? I send every minute thinking that I don’t care about you anymore, but it’s hard when every small thing reminds me of you. The songs that I associated with you, I can no longer listen to. Whenever I think I’m finally over, my mind goes back to the times I was happy with you.  Whenever I go out, the smell of your cologne hits me, and I start to look around, thinking you’re there, but I just look like a fool looking around for someone who isn’t there.

I hate the feeling of seeing girls try to flirt with you around campus. I hate the feeling that no matter who I date, I will always try to find you in them. I hate the feeling of how no one would ever reach the standards of love because of you. I hate the feeling of making food for two when now it’s only one. I hate the feeling of your ghost lingering around. I hate the feeling of getting used to living with another person. I hate the feeling of hoping to see your shoes near the front door. I hate the feeling of not laying my head on your shoulder. I hate the feeling that your clothes bring me comfort. I hate the feeling of emptiness. 

I hate how I never changed your name.

I’ve heard around that no matter how many girls flirt with you, you ignore them. I’ve heard around that you never got over me like I never got over you. 

My heart is filled with so much love, but I can no longer give it to you. I hope one day to get your text or call.

A/n: guys I’m having writer’s block on the Choso head cannon like I already wrote half but for some reason I’m stuck 😭 would someone be interested in reading it? Not proof read. Also I saw a vid about the sun and moon and decided to finish this one lol

divider by @/saradika-graphics

🎵- cigarettes out the window by TV girl (dangerously yours x tv girl)

“I want every thing to be perfect. I don’t want even an inch out of place”

“Yes, sun god”

Sungod!Satoru who was running around his palace garden making sure the flowers you love were perfect

Sungod!Satoru who would bring warmth and light to the planet and help the plants grow

Moongoddess!You who helps keep the earth spinning on its normal axis, giving the earth its seasons

Moongoddess!You who would glow under the dark sky

Sungod!Satoru who was told that a new goddess would help him

Sungod!Satoru who met with Moongoddess!You at a neutral place and was told by another god that every few months you two shall meet and make a new phenomenon

Sungod!Satoru who for the first time saw the moon being raised was speechless

Sungod!Satoru who after seeing you rise the moon wanted to know you better

Sungod!Satoru who when he was slowly starting to rise the sun could still see you

Sungod!Satoru who was upset you had fallen asleep when the sun had fully risen

Sungod!Satoru who would get bored spending half the day without any interaction

Sungod!Satoru who slowly started to feel sleepy which indicated you were slowly starting to rise

Sungod!Satoru who during half of the year would stay up an hour later hoping you’d get enough sleep

Moongoddess!You who would return the favor by staying up late the other half of the year so Sungod!Satoru could get an extra hour of sleep

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who met again a couple of months later for the solar eclipse

Sungod!Satoru who was surprised to see Moongoddess!You up during the day

Sungod!Satoru who would annoy Windgod!Suguru and Raingod!Choso about the same things over and over

Sungod!Satoru who for the first time invented you to his palace

Sungod!Satoru who showed you his garden Moongoddess!You who was in aww seeing flowers in their natural colors

Sungod!Satoru who gave you one of his flowers “Just because” he would say

Sungod!Satoru who was a disappointed knowing you had to go back to your palace once again

Sungod!Satoru who would write poems in hopes of saying them to you face to face one day

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who lost track of time talking to each other

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who one day made the solar eclipse last for an hour

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who got lectured “Now I know you’re one of the younger god and goddess but you guys can’t do that often” one of the gods would say

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who begged to have at least an hour of spending time together every decade or century

Sungod!Satoru who gave you a piece of his heart

“Be careful of my heart,won’t you? You see you’re taking it home with you tonight please don’t break it”

“Good night satoru, until next time”

“Good night, my lady”

Sungod!Satoru who would show Moongoddess!You the most beautiful sunset and sunrise

Moongoddess!You who would show him the most gorgeous moon you had making it glow extra and paint little pictures on the moon

Sungod!Satoru who could only physically touch you when the solar eclipse rolled around

Moongoddess!You who invited Sungod!Satoru over to your palace and gave him a moon flower as well as a piece of your heart

“Whenever you feel lonely you can look at this flower and think of me”

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who started to send letters to each other everyday

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who fell in love even if it was from a distance

Sungod!Satoru and Moongoddess!You who got married and had a daughter the Goddessofstar!

Sungod!Satoru who was pouty because your child the Goddessofstars! would spend more of her time with you but whenever she wanted to spend time with him the stars would shine brighter

“Look theGoddessofstars!Wanted to see her father”

Or

“Look a shooting Goddessofstars! must be running” Some humans would say

Sungod!Satoru who played with his moon shaped necklace which helped him calm his nerves a bit

Sungod!Satoru who was stressed about this solar eclipse. Who after a century would have you for a full hour

Sungod!Satoru who put on his best suit

Moongoddess!You who wore your best dress you had with your sun shaped necklace

Sungod!Satoru who waited at the garden

Sungod!Satoru who ran towards you picking you up and twirling you around kissing your face

Sungod!Satoru who scooped his daughter into the hug

Sungod!Satoru who was beyond excited that he could have his family as a whole for an hour

“And that’s where we’re going to stop on the story of the sun and the moon now time for bed sweetheart”

“Nooo can you continue reading it to me please daddy?”

“No can do sweetheart I already re-read it to you 4 times it’s getting late”

“Not even if I did puppy dog eyes?”

“Nope”

“Fine good night daddy”

“Goodnight starlight”

"Forget"

A/n: THANK YOU FOR 23 FOLLOWERS THIS IS FOR YOU GUYS!!! <333333. I’ve had this in my notes for a couple of months????? But decided since I’m going through my notes and cuz I hit 23 followers I decided to post this lol. ALSO did yall see adult zuko in the new leaked ATLA movie!!!!!! He looks sooo good 😫

TW: grief 

🎵~ forward beckon rebound by adrianne lenker

“She’s dead, Suguru! Can’t you get through your thick fucking skull? She’s not coming back! Why can’t you understand that!” 

Those words echoed in his ears. He knew that; he knew you weren’t coming back. He thought that he had accepted the reality, but maybe, deep, deep, DEEP down, he had hope you’d come walking through the door and greet him like always.

“Stop it.” His voice was firm and stern, but his words fell on deaf ears.

“I’m right here! Why can’t you just forget her and move on?! She’s not coming back! She’s  5 inches deep in the ground! It’s like I’m competing with a fucking ghost! It’s like everything I do you find her in it! It’s like everything I do you compare it to how she would do it! I know you don’t say it out loud, but I can see it on your face! You even still wear your WEDDING RING!!! You can’t even take it off, not even for me?! I’m right here and alive! Why can’t you understand that she’s never coming back! You’re still paying for the things in her name when she’s not even here!”

Suguru’s chest tightened as she continued, his fist clenching and unclenching, heart pounding against his chest, breath heavy.

THUD 

His fist throbbing with pain against the wall

“Don’t talk about my wife like that,” his voice was stern but shaky. Eyes glaring at her, glossy from the tears threatening to fall.

He was never one to raise his voice, never let his emotions control arguments.

But his girlfriend wasn’t backing down. 

“ god can’t yo-“ she was cut off. 

Suguru wasn’t going to entertain the idea of someone badmouthing his wife, his wife who can’t even defend herself when she’s not even able to. 

Because who was she to talk about his wife? Who was she to say how he could or couldn’t grieve his own wife? WHO was she really to him? 

“ I said enough!” His voice boomed across the apartment. The same apartment that he once shared with you, the same apartment where all the beautiful memories he created with you blossomed. The same apartment where your wedding photo was hung, smack in the middle of the apartment. The first thing anyone sees when entering the house.

The same apartment that she slowly started to turn into hers. Slowly removing you from the picture, slowly taking over your place in the universe, slowly taking your space in the bed,closet, etc. Slowly forgetting your laughter,your voice, the only way he could really remember was because of the voice message you left, the videos you took. Slowly forgetting about you. The apartment is slowly losing your smell.

But most of all, he was slowly forgetting your face. He can only really remember because of the pictures, but whenever he went to sleep, he could only see a figure with a blurry face.

“You have no right to talk about my wife. My wife, whom I’ve had for the majority of my life. My wife, whom you’ve slowly tried to get rid of! My wife, who still has my last name even if it’s written on her gravestone ! My wife, who if she were still alive would be right here instead of you!” Voice raising after each word. 

He knew what he was saying was horrible. He knows he should apologize, but can’t. Or maybe he doesn’t want to?

A beat of silence floats around them. Until he decides that enough is enough.

“This was a bad idea.” 

“Sugu-“ 

“I want you out by tomorrow. I knew dating you would be too much and a bad idea. I’m sorry for wasting your time for 9 months, but you deserve someone else.” His voice sounded exhausted, tired from playing a role he shouldn’t have played from the start.

Walking towards the front door, hand reaching for the doorknob, when the sound of his ex stopped him

“You couldn’t get over her? Not even after 8 fucking years?” Her voice trembling, 

“No matter how much time passes, I won’t be able to 'get over' her.” 

Opening the door He’s met with the cold crisp evening air,not looking back, he leaves. He doesn’t slam the door like he wants to. 

Suguru wasn’t one to drink his feelings away. Not after the big lecture you gave him about taking care of his health if he was going to grow old with you.

How the tables changed. 

Sitting by himself, two drinks in strong enough to help him with his heavy heart, he decided to call your phone. The phone that was probably dead and buried somewhere in an old box with your stuff. 

Your phone still operating fine, your number still owned by you, your phone still under his plan never stopped paying for it. Didn’t even cross his mind to take it off. 

Going straight to voicemail

“Hey, honey! Sorry, I can’t answer the phone right now, but I’ll call you back as soon as I can! Leave a message after the kiss, mwah! Love you 

BEEP BEEP BEEP

“Hey, honey, I just wanted to hear your voice.”  his words slurred a bit.

He knows you aren’t going to hear it, but no harm does it do if he just wants to hear your voice right ?

Each time he’d order a drink, he’d call you. Just to hear your voice and hear you say “I love you” to him.

The bartender cut him off after he noticed how drunk he was and offered him water to help sober up a bit. Pushing the water aside, he could finally feel and breathe without the feeling of his heart being heavy. The bartender, trying to help him try to find a ride home grabs his phone and goes through his contacts.

“love of my life,” the very first one that pops up. The bartender presses on your contact only for it to go straight to voicemail. The bartender goes back into his contract and presses on Satoru, hoping he’d answer 

“Hey Suguru, what’s up?” Satoru's voice comes out tired 

“Hello, is this Satoru?”

“Yes? Who is this?”

“Umm, your friend had way too much to drink, and he insisted on getting more drinks. I think you should come and get him.”

“Of course, um, if you can tell me the name of the bar, I’ll be there in a couple of minutes.”

Even if it was a bit busy, the bartender did his best to keep an eye out for Suguru. Making sure nobody bothered him and gave strict instructions to the other bartender’s . 

After a couple of minutes, Satoru makes his way into the bar, thanking the bartender for helping his best friend. 

“My pretty girl,” his words slurred together, “I want my pretty,pretty girl.”

“I know you do, bud, but you gotta work with me, please.” 

You and Suguru met in the middle of high school.  You were related to satoru and seeing him leave the clan, you decided to follow him, after all you both were really close. 

After Satoru introduced you to his friend group, you noticed Suguru.  It was something about him that caught your attention immediately. Was it his smile? Or maybe his purple eyes? Maybe it was his personality?  Or maybe it was his long, fluffy hair? Whatever it was, you wanted to know him better.

After months of going out to eat, karaoke, and going to arcades, enjoying your youth with everyone. Suguru started to notice little things about you. He thought that since he saw you every day, the feeling in his chest was because he liked you as a friend, like how he liked Shoko as a friend too, not because he thought you were beautiful or because your smile lit up the room, right? 

Whatever that feeling was, everyone noticed. The back and forth teasing, flirting, lingering touches. He didn’t want it to keep going like this, so he manned up and asked you out. 

After graduation, the wedding was immediate. It felt like a fairytale, everything was going well until the higher-ups sent you on a mission. 

Usually, you and Suguru would go on missions together, but since the higher-ups sent him on another mission with Satoru, and  they said it was a less dangerous mission, you decided to take it.

Calling Suguru, letting him know that you won’t be able to call later, he didn’t mind.

“Be careful, my pretty girl.”

“Puh-leas, I’m basically stronger than everyone.”

“Cockiness runs in the family, huh?”

“So does beauty, and I got both.”

“I think Satoru would disagree, pretty girl.”

“Satorus is just jealous of me for being perfect.”

“Sure, whatever, just make sure my strong, pretty girl gets home safe, ok?”

“I’ll be fine, I promise my love.”

“Love you pretty.”

“Love you to sugu.”

That was the last time he heard your voice, and oh, how he wishes he could go back in time and do multiple things differently. He’d stay home instead of going on that mission or plead and beg for you to stay home. Maybe if he finished the mission earlier, he’d be able to protect you.

Satoru has seen every side of Suguru; they shared their ups and downs, but not once did he ever think he’d witness this part of Suguru ever. 

The gut-wrenching sound his best friend made haunts him every day. The look of him running towards your cold body, ripped in half, dried blood across your face, eyes lifeless . 

Satoru felt sick to his stomach. He’d seen everything, from seeing his classmates and colleagues on that table, but he never once thought he’d see you lying there.

After the burial ceremony, Suguru would sit by your grave, head leaning on the cold stone, thinking it was you. Days, weeks would go by, he was always there, not leaving your side again, whether it’d be raining,snowing, or sunny, he was always there.

“Suguru, honey, please get up, you can’t keep going on like this, please, honey, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I never wanted to leave you, I promise, please forgive me, I’m so sorry.” 

You uncontrollably sobbed as you reached out to touch his hair, something you always did, but you no longer had that privilege.  You were desperate to feel anything.

Noticing a familiar car pull up, you run towards it.

“Satoru, help him, please. He’s getting sick, and I need him to be okay, please, Satoru, help him.”

Satoru sighed at the sight of his best friend.

“Suguru, how long have you been here?”

“Leave me alone,” Suguru let out a tired whisper. 

“Suguru, y/n wouldn’t want to see you like this. Come on.”

“No”

“Suguru, I can’t lea-“

“Just leave me alone I said!”

Satoru knew it was the grief talking and not his actual best friend.

“ I get you’re upset, I get you miss her, but she was also my cousin! I also miss her; it’s not just you. I know that’s rude of me to say, but it’s been 10 months, Suguru. She would hate to see you like this.”

“Honey, please listen to Satoru. I don’t want to see you like this, it’s breaking my heart, please Suguru.”

“That’s it.”

Satoru pulled Suguru up and threw him over his shoulder. “You can be mad at me, but I’m not letting you wither away here.” 

Suguru didn’t have the energy to fight, because he was right. He wasn’t the only one who lost you; everyone did.

Seeing them reach the car, you tried to follow, but were pushed back 

Oh, that’s right 

You’re stuck here forever.

You could only watch as the car disappeared into the distance.

From that day forward, you’d only see Suguru if he was accompanied by Satoru, Shoko or even your family, but he was never able to go alone again. 

A/n: I feel like my blog is missing something…. What should I change? Y’all give me some ideas cuz I feel like it needs something but idk what lol

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“Alright, everyone, welcome to How to Become a Better Boyfriend 101. I am your teacher, Satoru Gojo.”

Now you might be wondering how we got to this point. Let’s go back a few hours

Satoru was minding his own business, heading towards the exit of the cafe, when something caught his attention. Now, Satoru wouldn’t like to be called a noisy person he thinks of it as being more informative if you will .

“Dude, I don’t know what to get my girlfriend for her birthday.”

“Same, I don’t know what to get my girl for our 1-year anniversary.”

As the two strangers continued to ramble about their day, Satoru just couldn’t hold back his judgment.

“How do you not know what to get the person you love! Don’t you pay attention to them?”  He continued to ramble about those two losers in his head, thinking surely every other boyfriend KNEW what their girlfriend wanted, right?

WRONG

As you would expect, the bar was nonexistent at this point

Not even an hour later, Satoru stumbled across the school's blog.

“HELP!! My girlfriend has been thinking about this one specific thing, but I don’t know what it is! She said she told me, but I can’t remember what it was because I was playing a game when she told me! Someone, tell me what I should do to resolve this! Should I gaslight her or something????”

Scrolling down the comments was just sad. He could no longer bear to see how more than three, yes, THREE people were horrible boyfriends.

Oh, these poor innocent partners, not having the most perfect boyfriend like him. Feeling heartbroken for these people’s girlfriends, he decided to post something on the school's blog.

“I’ll be teaching a class on how to be a better partner. Join me today at 2 pm in room 173.”

Now, satoru don’t think much of the post, he assumed nobody would take it serious but when 1:40 came around he decided “fuck it let’s go see if anyone actually went”

And to his surprise, he saw the whole class full, which brings us to now.

“If she says, “Would you still love me if I were a fly” we would say what? Yes, you with the baseball cap on.”

“No?”

“Wrong, we would say my love for you has no bounds. I would love you even if you were a bug.”

A round of “ohhh” and “I didn’t think of that” went around the room.

“Now, do any of you remember your anniversary?”

An uncomfortable silence settled in the room, with only three people raising their hands.

“Gosh, you guys are a total loss.”

“Satoru, what are you doing?” You entered the class with Suguru and Choso next to you

“Showing these people how to be the best, amazing boyfriend like me.”

“Darling, you don’t even remember our anniversary,” scratching your head in confusion as to how Satoru got a bunch of people in a room to follow his advice (and how he even got permission to use this room)

“Yes, I do.”

“Then when did we start dating?”

“May 5th”

“You weren’t even close,” Suguru let out a chuckle.

“Suguru, I bet you don’t even know.”

“Yes, I do.”

“Then when did we start dating her, huh?” Satoru crossed his arms

“May 6th duh”

“You’re both wrong! None of you were even close,” sighing in disbelief, you couldn’t believe those two couldn’t even remember your guys' anniversary before you could even tell them the actual day. Choso beat you to it.

“Friday, May 27th, 20xx, at sunset near the cherry blossom tree, the sky was pink and purple, and you were wearing your hair up, and you were even wearing your strawberry lip gloss.”

The room stood silent, everyone looking at Choso while Choso looked at you.

“How’d you even remember all that!” Both Satoru and Suguru looked shocked that Choso would remember every little detail

“What, like it’s hard?”

“Instead of Satoru teaching, it should be Choso.”

And that’s exactly what happened Choso took over while everyone, including your other two boyfriends, took notes on his lesson.

Choso was a bit shy at first, but after you encouraged him a bit, he slowly started to relax  (and by encouraging him, I mean you promised he could cuddle with you and sleep with you tonight and for the rest of the month, while the other two slept on the ouch)

“If your partner is not talking to you, make sure to give them space, but also make sure you communicate with them, COMMUNICATION IS KEY!”

🎵-upside down by 54 Ultra

𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪

BadBoy!Suguru who was known as the town's typical “bad boy. The parting, drinking, street racing you know

BadBoy!Suguru whose fraternity held the craziest parties

BadBoy!Suguru who even if he didn’t attend lectures, would still pass the exams/test and still have a good grade

BadBoy!Suguru who’s the school’s heartthrob

BadBoy!Suguru who was also known as a bully

BadBoy!Suguru who one day saw you walking around campus

BadBoy!Suguru whose attention was always on you

BadBoy!Suguru who noticed you didn’t pay him any attention like every other girl did

BadBoy!Suguru who did obnoxious things to get your attention

BadBoy!Suguru who finally got your attention, but not in the way he wanted

BadBoy!Suguru who was picking on someone, heard your voice and walked towards you.

“Hey! Knock it off.”

BadBoy!Suguru who was confused about why you were protecting the university nerd

“Come on, sweetheart, he doesn’t mind, do he?” Flashing you his smile while looking back at the nerd

“He might say 'no,' but it’s still not okay, now leave him alone.”

BadBoy!Suguru who let out a chuckle before walking away

BadBoy!Suguru who a few days later found you at the university’s library (he was passing by and saw you from the window)

“You must be new around here huh?”

Ignoring him, you continued on with your work.

“Oh come on, sweets, you shy or something?” Tilting his head a bit, a small smile showing

“I don’t talk to losers who bully others for their own entertainment, and I most certainly don’t talk with people who don’t respect everyone and themselves. Now, if you excuse me, this conversation is done.” And with that, you collected your stuff and  went on your merry way.

BadBoy!Suguru who stood there dumbfounded

BadBoy!Suguru who knew that if he wanted to be closer to you, he’d have to change

BadBoy!Suguru who attended class for the first time since the semester started. Everyone was shocked to see the school's heartthrob in class (and when the professor came into class, he looked around, hoping to see the hidden camera crew)

BadBoy!Suguru who started going to the library in hopes of seeing you

BadBoy!Suguru who attended fewer and fewer parties

“Yo, Suguru, we’re hitting up another university’s party, wanna come?”

“No thanks, I gotta finish my essay.”

BadBoy?Suguru who one day woke up late for class and saw the only seat available was next to you

BadBoy?Suguru who noticed you sliding a small piece of paper towards him

“I thought you finally gave up?” A small smile appeared on his face before writing back and slipping the paper back to you.

“And ruin my chance of finally getting closer to you? Not a chance, sweetheart.”

“Well then, you gotta step it up. I only date people who are worth my time and aren’t such assholes to everyone.”

“Looks like I’m halfway there, then, sweetheart.”

BadBoy?Suguru who went around the school looking for his victims, apologized for how he acted

Suguru! who kept sitting next to you during the lecture and continued to pass little notes between you two

Suguru! who kept every note between you in a small box in his closet

Suguru! who saved a spot for you two at the back of the library

Suguru! who chose you to be his partner for every assignment

Suguru! who noticed the color of the world being brighter because of a certain someone

Suguru! who, after months and months of showing you he had changed and wasn’t his old self, decided to ask you out

Suguru! who spun you around when you said yes

Suguru! who would hope your hand and walk you to class (even if it meant him being late to his class across campus)

Boyfriend!Suguru who would bring you your favorite food/snack whenever he saw you studying for hours without stopping

Boyfriend!Suguru who bought you a pretty necklace with his initial in your favorite color

Boyfriend!Suguru who gave you the necklace on your third-month anniversary

Boyfriend!Suguru who made sure to drive the speed limit whenever he had you in his sports car

Boyfriend!Suguru who’s never been happier

Boyfriend!Suguru who made sure to tell you that he’s changed for the better, no matter how many times his “friends” say you changed him into someone he’s not

Boyfriend!Suguru who wouldn’t do anything you weren’t comfortable with

Boyfriend!Suguru who heard knocking at his frat house

Boyfriend!Suguru who was surprised when you were at the door at 11 pm

Boyfriend!Suguru who quickly brought you in, asked a bunch of questions: “What happened?” “Are you okay?” “What are you doing this late at night?” While spinning you around to make sure you were definitely okay

Boyfriend!Suguru who just shook his head when he heard the reason why you were at his frat house at night

“Pretty, that’s one of the dumbest reasons to leave your house.”

“I’m a 20 years old, I can do what I want and date who I want.”

“Pretty, I get that, but your dad is just looking out for you.”

“Suguru, he doesn’t approve of us! He thinks you’ll “corrupt” me, so that I can make decisions for myself.”

“I know pretty believe me, I want you more than anything, but I can’t make a bad impression on your parents. If you want, you can stay here for a while, while things cool down, but I’ll call your parents and let them know you're safe, okay?”

Boyfriend!Suguru who was relieved that your mother answered instead of your father

Boyfriend!Suguru who sat on the couch with you, watching a movie

Boyfriend!Suguru who drove you to your house once you asked

Boyfriend!Suguru who walked you to the door and introduced himself to your parents

After Boyfriend!Suguru left, it felt like the air around everyone was thick. You dreaded having another fight, but you were stubborn, and when you wanted something, you’d do anything to have it and keep it.

“Tell us about him,” your mother said The bright smile that appeared on your face wiped away all the worry your parents had

Boyfriend!Suguru who was nervous to hear that he was invited to dinner

Boyfriend!Suguru who bought a whole new outfit just to wear tonight

Boyfriend!Suguru who wanted to make a great impression on your parents he brought two bouquets of flowers and fruits.

Boyfriend!Suguru who arrived to dinner a whole hour earlier

Boyfriend!Suguru who helped set up the table and helped with dinner as well

Boyfriend!Suguru who got along with your father as they shared a few similar interests

Boyfriend!Suguru who after that dinner, was automatically invited to every family dinner/party

Boyfriend!Suguru who after a year of dating, knew you were the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with

Boyfriend!Suguru who asked your parents for their blessing

Boyfriend!Suguru who set up this romantic setup at the beach

Boyfriend!Suguru who proposed to you at the exact same time, month, and date you guys started dating.

Fiancé!Suguru agreed to marry each other after graduation.

Fiancé!Suguru who made sure you got everything you wanted

Fiancé!Suguru who expressed multiple times that he wanted you to have YOUR dream wedding

Husband!Suguru who married you the following year, the exact same time when he proposed to you

Husband!Suguru who waited until you were ready to have children

Husband!Suguru who took you on trips to wherever you wanted

Husband!Suguru who was excited to hear that you were pregnant

Husband!Suguru who was terrified of becoming a father, not because he didn’t want to, but because he didn’t know if he could live up to the standard of being “the best.”

Husband!Suguru who, after hours of labor, said he’d never want to put you in that position again. (5 years later, you convinced him that you were okay and you wanted another child)

Husband!Suguru who every day would come home from work tired, but as soon as he stepped into the house and heard his kids running towards he’d regain his energy

Husband!Suguru who had a picture of you  and your children in his office

Husband!Suguru who would bring flowers every month for you and his two little girls

Husband!Suguru is showing his girls what a marriage is supposed to look like and letting them know to never expect anything less.

Husband!Suguru who would have this life a thousand times

Husband!Suguru who loves you and his family to the moon and back

A/n: guys my fav two artist left. Well one left the company BUT in still in the group but the other one LEFT BOTH THE COMPANY AND GROUP I hate this but its fine cuz the company sucks ass.

🎵- wanna be a kid again lonely song

⠀☆⠀⠀ ⠀⁺‧͙⠀⠀ * ⠀⠀࣭⠀⠀ ° ⠀ ☆⠀⠀ ⠀⁺‧͙⠀⠀ ⠀⠀*⠀ ⠀࣭⠀⠀ ° ⠀ ☆⠀ ⠀ ⠀⁺‧͙⠀⠀ *⠀⠀⠀࣭⠀ ° ⠀⠀

“It’s so cold,” Satoru whispers.

Every time he breathes, the cold air fills his lungs, turning his breath white

“I wish I could turn back time. I want to live my childhood differently. I want to be with my parents. I want to grow up with my mom and dad. I want to attend school with kids my own age. I want to experience my life like I’ve always wanted and not Satoru Gojo, the strongest sorcerer, but just Satoru.”

“Hey, I'm y/n,” she said with a smile. I could remember every little detail of her smile.

“This is Suguru and Shoko.” Her voice was one of the most captivating sounds I’ve ever heard. Out of the three of them, she stood out the most.

There was something about her that made it easy to be with her. She helped me be seen as just Satoru Gojo, not Satoru Gojo, the strongest.

She made it easy for me to open up. Every morning, I’d think about her. Every morning, I would purposely walk slower, passing her dorm, hoping she’d come out and want to walk to class together.  Every night, I went to sleep thinking about her. Even if she wasn’t near me, I would smell her perfume.

What is this feeling?

Her laugh made my whole day brighter. I’d do anything and everything to make her laugh. I’d raise my hand whenever she went on missions so I could spend more time with her.

The day she stopped smiling was the day the world stopped spinning. The day I saw her lying down, her blood dried everywhere, was the day my heart stopped feeling anything.

The sound of her laughter, instead of feeling like comfort, brought torture. I could still hear her laughter whenever I passed by her dorm room.

Staring up now, all he could see was the white snow. Pure snow, your favorite season. The memories of you building the snowman is my favorite memory I have of us.

  “Satoru, you okay?”

Your hand reached out to me, like it always did.

Satoru wondered if he was dreaming, a last cruel trick from the universe.

Grabbing your hand, it felt real, the warmth of your body felt real.

“It’s okay, Toru, you did well.”

Hearing that made something in my chest feel warm, my throat feeling like a thousand thorns pushing into his skin.

“Come on, we can finally be kids.”

tw: angst, a bit of depression?

Divider by @/strangergraphics

🎵-strange by Celeste 

Idol!gojo who was scouted when he was hanging out with his friends

Idol!gojo who later debuted in a boy group with Idol!geto 5 months later and he was known as the “it” boy of his generation because of his looks

Idol!gojo who had a funny personality when you actually got to met him but was assigned to have the “flirtatious” personality from his company

Idol!gojo who’s company made him be a contender for a variety show to promote their 3rd comeback

Idol!gojo who’s group won “best new artist” their very first year

Idol!gojo who was sent to another variety show to promote their 7th comeback

Idol!gojo who saw you attend the same variety show as him

Idol!gojo who was partnered up with you for the rest of the show

Idol!gojo who saw you perform your debut song and thought the beat was catchy

Idol!gojo who wanted to get to know you a bit more but after filming was done his manager practically dragged him to his next schedule

Idol!gojo who went on live and was talking to his fans when someone recommended your group's debut MV song

Idol!gojo who reacted to it on the live and thought the mv was great and said how your group would be popular for its video and aesthetic

Idol!gojo who went on a music show to perform their comback

Idol!gojo who knew some of his friends were performing and some juniors as well but did not know exactly who

Idol!gojo who was walking back to the dressing room, once the first beat of your group's song started, he immediately stopped walking and his eyes immediately spotted you

Idol!gojo who saw how much fun you had performing and how much you genuinely loved doing this

Idol!gojo who was thinking of a sly way to get your number

Idol!gojo who wrote down his number and put it in a sandwich and told his staff to send your group the sandwiches and which to give to whom

Idol!gojo who waited almost a whole day before you texted him

Idol!gojo who has to prove he was actually satoru and not a sasaeng

Idol!gojo and you who started to text every single day

Idol!gojo and you who got along very easily as you guys shared almost the same interests

Idol!gojo and you who would greet each other professionally when working but when alone you’d get to be yourselves

Idol!gojo who would always pick you to be his partner whenever you guys are in variety shows

Idol!gojo and you who would buy souvenirs for each other whenever you guys went to a different country for concerts or fashion shows

Idol!gojo and you who after 2 years the line started to blur between close friendship and a relationship

Idol!gojo who invited you to his place for what was supposed to be a friendly hangout

Idol!gojo who doesn’t remember how or what happened but he only remembers that both of you were face-to-face and him asking for your permission to kiss you

Idol!gojo who after that night would give you space to think but after a few days would text you and ask if that kiss meant anything to you

Idol!gojo who wanted to take you out but remembered that you both were idols so instead did something nice at home

Idol!gojo who with the help of Idol!geto set up his apartment like a fancy restaurant

Idol!gojo who after awhile asked if he could be your boyfriend

Idol!gojo and you who were lowkey when dating

Idol!gojo who would kind of stop sharing his private life with his fans and who slowly stopped indulging in his fans' parasocial behavior

Idol!you who mix in Idol!gojo solo music and his group music with other music you would play whenever you did a live

Idol!gojo and you who would act like friends/acquaintances in front of cameras but lovers off cameras

Idol!gojo who bribed a news reporter who was following you guys

Idol!gojo and Idol!you who had to be even more secretive when going or planning dates

Idol!gojo who would drag his group to attend any performance you had and vice versa

Idol!gojo house slowly started to smell like you

Idol!gojo who’s fans can tell looked a lot happier

Idol!gojo who for his first album the concept was about you

Idol!gojo and Idol!you who when you thought you were alone a sasaeng took pictures of you without either of you noticing

Idol!gojo who woke up to his phone going off and you in his arms cuddling

Idol!gojo who answered the call to his manager freaking out about the whole situation

Idol!gojo who heart felt heavy when he heard about his private life being invaded

Idol!gojo who didn’t want to wake you up slowly slipped out and was told not to check social media

Idol!gojo who saw how horrible people were treating both of you but more you than him

Idol!gojo who didn’t hear your footsteps until he heard your voice behind him

Idol!gojo who tried to comfort you and promised that nothing would change

Idol!gojo and your company came out with a statement at the same time

“We have nothing to say, we do not comment on our artists personal lives. Those who wish to defame our artists will be met with legal action”

Idol!gojo who went live and talked about how you two met each other and how the feelings were mutual and that you didn’t have an ulterior motive

Idol!gojo who asked the fans not to send hate to anyone

Idol!gojo who since the news was out can now freely talk about you

Idol!gojo who thought that after a few days, the whole scandal would die down but never did

Idol!gojo who saw how tired you were starting to get but you would reassure him and tell him it was because of practice but in reality, it would be because of the hate online

Idol!gojo who heard you cry one night and felt heartbroken

Idol!gojo who went on live the following day, said, “If you’re still hating on my girlfriend just because she’s dating me and not you because you thought you had a chance grow up”

Idol!gojo who saw people clapping back at haters and started to defend you and him

Idol!gojo who started to see you less and less but sent you flowers instead to remind you of him

Idol!you who kept saying “the hate never means anything and how you should never let it get to you” but even the strongest-minded people break

Idol!you who started to turn into an empty shell and lose the spark in your eyes

Idol!you who couldn’t understand why you got so much hate when you just wanted to love someone

Idol!you who’s personal phone number and information started coming out which had your company put out a formal statement

Idol!you who when singing your parts would be dead silent compared to your members, and before the scandal

Idol!you when participating in a high touch you were completely ignored and made you feel invisible

Idol!you who would lock yourself in the room and eat less and less that worried your members and your manager

Idol!you who during a music performance fainted from stress and hunger

Idol!gojo who found out about you fainting while away in a different country

Idol!gojo who booked a flight back to you the same night

Idol!gojo who after 10 hours flying, once the plane landed, booked a ride to the hospital where you were staying

Idol!gojo video was going viral. Fans seeing how he ignored reporters, “fans” who were waiting for him to land, and crowd him

Idol!gojo who video was taken by another “fan” when he saw him enter the same hospital you were in

| gojo#1: I don’t get what he sees in her 🥱

\ satoruslefttoenail: he really does love her get you a man just like him 😍

\torusONLYwife: he shouldn’t be dating her! He’s mine and only mine! She’s ugly and can’t even sing to save her life!

\getonumber1fan: Why do you guys care who he dates? He’s never going to pick you guys you know that right????

\y/nhusband; why are you people so bothered????? Get a job instead

\y/nsleftfreckle: how did Satoru get so lucky? She’s literally my dream girl🤩

Idol!gojo who kissed your cheek once he was by your side

Idol!gojo who kept stoking your hair and kept saying how sorry he was

Idol!gojo who was taken aback when he heard the words he never thought he’d hear from you

“Let’s break up”

Idol!gojo who wanted to fight for this love, was escorted out by your manager “Just give her some time, Satoru.”

Idol!gojo who gave you all the time you needed but couldn’t go on like this

Idol!gojo who sent a message to your manager to meet up with you and to do anything to make it possible even if she had to trick you

Idol!gojo who blocked your path when you wanted to leave he needed to talk to you even if he forced you to (which he didn’t like)

Idol!gojo who tried his very best for you not to end the relationship

Idol!you who couldn’t take it any longer broke down

Idol!gojo who held you until you finally calmed down

Idol!gojo who with a heavy heart agreed to the breakup

Idol!gojo company and your company that same night came out with a statement regarding your breakup

“Unfortunately Gojo and y/n have decided to end their 2-year relationship. Even if their relationship has ended they still consider themselves amazing friends”

Idol!gojo who looked miserable at the end of the year music awards

Idol!gojo who saw multiple fans who gave your group a black ocean but also saw multiple fans light up their lightsticks, showing their support

Idol!gojo who after every group was on stage greeting each other saw you in the distance

Idol!gojo who wanted to talk to you and was walking up to you but was hurt when you ignored him

Idol!gojo who was even more upset when he saw fans started to hate on you again for ignoring him

Idol!gojo who posted a black background on his insta with the words

“Even if she greeted me you guys would have still found a way to hurt her”

Idol!you who unfollowed everyone even Idol!geto and only followed your members

Idol!gojo who after 1 month of breaking up released his solo album

Idol!gojo who made it crystal clear this album was made because of you. The album is coming in your favorite color and with the small things you liked. His photo card was literally a picture you took of him.

Idol!gojo album went viral for everything but especially the song lyrics and the main track having your name

Idol!gojo who was on an interview promoting his album talked about the harsh reality that idols like him face and how just because he’s an idol doesn’t make him any less of a human

Idol!gojo eyes linger whenever he passes you by

“Do you still love her?”

“No matter what I say, whether I’m saying the truth or not, people would still find something to hate on her.”

“I think that answers my question.”

“What would you say to your fans if you were to date again?”

“Nothing”

“Nothing?”

“Yes,nothing.”

“Can I ask why?”

“Why? Because look what happened. I found someone I love, and we were happy when nobody knew about us. But when everyone found out, it was the worst. I saw her slowly become someone she wasn’t.”

“It’s like everyone decided to be a part of my relationship. I tried, I really did try to keep the relationship going, and she did too, but it was like the more negative things that she saw, the more she spiraled until it all came crashing down.”

“We’re idols, we just entertain people, but at the end of the day, we are also humans. We can’t please everyone even if some of us wanted to.”

“I’m human too, aren’t I? Why can’t I love freely too?”

a/n~ credits to @divinity for their dividers check out their stuff! this is apart of a series that I'm making hopefully it goes good who knows lol its going to be of both readers pop and satoru pov. also ho was everyones spring break? Genuinely couldn’t find I song that fit this 😔 I spent 2 HOURS going over songs and none of them fit the vibe.

satoru x head over heels y/n? Fluff

Date: 01/27

Dear diary, 

Today was the same. College is taking a toll on me (even tho it just started) but I need this degree so whataver all I gotta do is think of the bag when I get a job in my field. But besides that the most interesting thing happened to me. It was during biology class the professor was super rude which reminder NEVER TRUST RATE MY PROFESSOR AGAIN!!! A bunch of fucking liars! giving the professor 5 stars and saying his easy! Fuck every single one of them! Anyways off topic but after like a couple of minutes this tall, white haired, blue eyes man comes in and I SWEAR I saw a white light behind him (could have been the hallway lights but I think otherwise). The teacher reprimanded him and made him introduce himself to the whole class! Which if I was him I’d be embarrassed if the teacher put me in that spot but him? He just smiled and let me tell you dairy HE HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE! Like I’m geeking out right now dairy you don’t get it! I’m giggling and kicking my feet thinking about that! And that wasn’t all!!!! After that the professor told him to go sit down and let me tell you diary, that there was hella empty seats but he decided to sit next to me! AND I COULDNT STOP MY HEART FROM GOING CRAZY! He smelt so good like vanilla or something (I was even tempted to ask him for his cologne/perfume) anyways I wanted to talk to him after class but I was so shy I LEFT as class ended 🫩 anyways I’m sad that I can only see him 1 day out of the 7 days of the week but it’s okay he can just be my campus crush and the reason why I go to class lol

- xoxoxo, yn

🎵~ who knows from TikTok

art credit @/thatsallitchief!

a/n: I'm still doing the dear diary one I'm just doing some touch ups lol anyways. Hope you guys like this!

Gojo Maybe we’ll get married one day. Or I’ll be your son's teacher who he raves about when your husband tells him about his day with you sitting next to him. But who knows?

Geto

Maybe we’ll get married one day. Or I’ll be getting crêpes with my daughters while your husband buys you your favorite one at the store in front of this one.

But who knows?

Nanami

Maybe we’ll get married one day. Or I’ll be one of your regulars at your husband's and your bakery with your children running around.

But who knows?

Choso

Maybe we’ll get married one day. Or I’ll pass by you at the train station at Shibuya during Halloween.

But who knows?

Toji Maybe we’ll get married some day. Or I’ll pass by you walking with your husband.

But who knows?

Sukuna

Maybe we’ll get married someday

Or

Who are we kidding! I’ll MAKE it happen one way or another. 

Jjk men and lads

🎵- hero instrumental by meego

I’m slowly forgetting your face. Did you have white hair? Or maybe black? Or was it a shade of purple? Perhaps was it blonde?

Was your hair in pigtails? was it half up half down? Or maybe you had an undercut? Perhaps it was short?

I’m slowly forgetting your smile. Slowly forgetting your eyes. Were they blue like the ocean? Or maybe black like the night sky? Could they have been green like the summer grass? Or maybe purple like the sunset? Were they possibly red as a rose?

I’m slowly forgetting your facial features. Did you have a scar near your upper lip? Or were your lips always plump and shiny?

Did you have tattoos? Were they on your face or around your body? Did you always have glasses? I can’t remember if you wore a blindfold or not? Maybe you never wore anything?

What if I forget how you looked like forever? What if all your photos were erased could i rely on my mind to remember how you looked? Your clothes are slowly losing your smell would you forgive me if I forget the smell that comforted me? Should I keep your sent in a jar so i can always remember how you smell? Would I be able to pick you out in a crowded room?

It was a beautiful Saturday morning birds chirping, the flowers in full bloom in your garden, a slight breeze ugh what a nice quiet day.

A little too quiet for a normal Saturday if you do say so yourself. Your hand reaches for the left side of the bed but to your surprise it was cold too cold for your liking but maybe your husband went out right?

A minute passes, then another, and another. At this point, you started to get suspicious.

“Okay no Something's off” you whisper to yourself. Quickly getting out of bed you walk to your daughter’s room.

“Sweetheart?” You gently knocked on her door. But after a couple of seconds of no answer, you cautiously open her door. “Maybe she somehow slept in” you thought but to your surprise, you saw the bed empty and was her bed made?!?

Now something was definitely up because your daughter would NEVER make her bed not until the 7th time of trying to bribe her with something.

Running down the stairs you called out to both your daughter and your husband

“Sweetie?!”

“My love?!”

Looking at the kitchen, living room, and the spare bedroom nothing not a single soul in sight. You head for the garage, and before you can open the garage door you hear certain voices.

“Can you pass me that pan please princess?”

“This one, Daddy?”

“Yup”

After hearing your husband and your daughter’s conversation your heart settled down knowing they were both safe.

Trying not to make a lot of noise you slowly open the garage door and slowly close it behind you not wanting to interrupt their daddy-daughter lesson of the day.

You see your husband on the floor with his dirty covered in grease jumpsuit and next to him you notice your daughter lying down on cardboard in her pretty pink jumpsuit.

“Now I’m going to show you exactly how to change oil okay princess, so when you need an oil change you won’t need help from anyone okay?”

“Okay, Daddy! But I can’t drive yet”

“I know princess but for when you do start to drive”

“Oh okay!” You could see her shoes light up when kick them together showing how excited she was to learn something new.

“See now you move this thing and you make sure the pan is under this okay?”

“Okay!”

“Now hold this here and on the count of three you pull it and it’ll drain the oil”

“One”

“Two”

“Three”

Giggles and squeals fill the room

“I did it daddy”

“Good job princess”

“Now what?”

“Now we wait”

You stand against the garage door just enjoying how your husband lives teaching his little girl new things. After a bit you see both of them come out from under the car.

“Oh hey, darling when did you get here?”

“Mommy!”Your daughter runs up to you hugging your leg.

“I’ve been here for a hot minute” you laugh, picking up your daughter and walking towards satoru kissing him.

“Mommy I learned how to change oil today!”

“I know sweetheart I saw” You ruffle her hair

“ I was wondering why the house got super quiet. I was looking around calling for you guys.”

“You but I told you?”

“Honey, you never did I’d remember”

“Darling, I woke you up and told you I’d be out in the garage working on the car”

“Well I don’t remember”

Your husband just lets out a laugh, wrapping his arm around your waist he brings you a bit closer towards him

“You sure? Because I remember you grunting in response?”

“Nope don’t remember but what did surprise me was that a certain someone’s bed was made and that was a really big surprise. So big in fact that it made me think she disappeared because she never makes it the first time we tell her.” You look towards your daughter who was already smiling.

“Daddy said that if I made my bed he’d let me help him with fixing the car and I’d get a sweet treat after!”

“Did he now?” You look towards your husband and give him a “you gotta be kidding me” look

“That was supposed to be between you princess you’re such a little snitch” Your husband started to tickle your daughter. Once again your daughter’s laughter fills the room as she squirms around in your arms.

“Daddy that tickles” she says while trying to playfully slap your husband's hand away from her.

“Good maybe next time you’ll learn to keep a secret” A smile forms on your husband’s face.

🎵-Nobody new~ the Marias

a/n: I thought about using a different song or this one but I sticked with this one. I decided to make the reader Latina . also I do have a few stories in the same concept as this one so I'll probably post those. why? because I loved Benito bowl and I love being Latina. Mi gente latino ✊. anyways I hope you guys like it!

“I wanna have a big house” you scoot closer to him putting your leg over his hip, hand playing with his hair 

“We can have that” he leaned into your touch never taking your eyes off of you

“Umm, what about a dog?” 

“Which one?”

“Doberman!”

“Oh interesting choice but I was thinking maybe a golden retriever?” Placing his hand on your hip, bringing you closer.

“Let’s have both!!”

“Both?”

“Yeah, both!”

“Alright then”

“I think we’ll have a girl first”

“Oh really? What makes you think that sweetheart?”

“I don’t know but I see you as a girl dad more than a boy dad”

“Mmmm I was thinking you’d be more of a boy mom rather than a girl mom”

“Well let’s just wait and see”

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“So I just found out that my mom has this secret box she’s been hiding under her bed and since we’re having a girls' day today I wanted to ask her about what’s in it so I decided to bring you along with me and ask her about this secret box let’s go”

Your daughter secretly starts to set up her phone making sure you're both in the shot and aren’t too suspicious of her

“Hey, Mom?”

“Yes, sweetheart?” You call out from the living room

“What is this box?”

“What box?”

“This small (favorite color) box?”

You quickly get up and go towards the kitchen

“Where did you get this box honey?”

“I found it while I was looking for my charger. Can I open it?”

“Yeah”

Your daughter was surprised you agreed so quickly she thought she’d have to do her infamous puppy dog eyes for you to agree. 

Taking the box from her hands your gently start to open the box. Something you thought you’d stop doing. 

Seeing the pictures a wave of nostalgia hits you at full force. Pictures of you and your friends at a karaoke place, behind a waterfall from that place your friends and you took a road trip to, your first day of school, graduation etc. 

“Wow mom I didn’t know you had all of these!” Your daughter looks shocked, taking the box from you

“Wait!! Is that Aunt Shoko?” Her laughter filled the room

“Oh I remember this” A smile started to form on your face

“This was when we were hiking and she stepped on poop. She had to hop around looking for a hose to wash it off” a small chuckle leaves your mouth as you start to remember the incident.

But a few pictures stood out more than usual, ones that looked a little too romantic for it to be with friends. The back of a certain man facing a huge waterfall, the same man holding your hand up towards his lips as he drove, one where it looked like he was asleep with a bunch of silly drawings on his face, one where it was you two cuddling while he kissed your temples. 

But what caught her eye was a heart-shaped necklace with an initial next to it.

“What’s this?” Her eyebrows furrowed together as she grabbed the necklace 

You didn’t say anything, all you could really do was stare at the necklace as all of these feelings started to resurface once again. 

It was like you're reliving that one specific time in your life. One that you wanted to last forever, one that you had hoped would be your life a reality rather than sayings. One that if you could be selfish and had a chance to change things you would.

“Mom?” Your daughter says looking at you with worry.

“That was from my first love” a small sympathetic smile on your face 

“You’re first love? Wait dad wasn’t your first love? Can you tell me more about him?”

And so you did 

Told her about what he was like, how you guys first met, how you felt about him, what he liked and what he didn’t, how he secretly climbed into your dorm room window but almost broke his arm when he was climbing out, every flower he bought you after a small argument, and every gift he showered you with 

“Wait so what happened?” Your daughter is confused about how the relationship ended

“Well mija, las cosas siempre cambian, el mundo cambia, la gente cambia, todo cambia….”

“And what mami?”

“I think I’ll leave it up to figure out, mija” You ruffle her hair as you tease her

“Hey!” She playfully smacks your hand away

“Do you still think about him?”

“I do”

“Do you still talk to him?”

“No, we drifted apart. It’s natural for people to drift apart, we all change and his schedule didn’t match mine” 

“But sometimes I think about how he’s doing, I still think of him as a good friend. But just because we were a thing in the past doesn’t mean I don’t still care about him”

What felt like minutes turned into hours, girls' day completely forgotten as you say with your daughter telling her all of the crazy stuff that you did when you were younger. 

Soon the sun slowly started to set, hearing the front door open your daughter quickly stood up and ran towards her father. 

“Dad!” 

“Hey, princess how was your day?” Your husband said while ruffling her hair 

“Good”

“What did you do all day?” 

“Mami and I talked”

“About?”

“My past” you call out from the kitchen 

“Mmm, your past?” Taking off his shoes an eyebrow raised as he walks towards you kissing your temple

“Yup” 

“Dad I wanna know about your past!”

“My past?” 

“Yeah, I wanna know what you did before you met mom!” Jumping onto the stool, kicking her feet with a smile waiting to hear her father's story

“We got a little curious kid huh?”

“She got that from you y’know?” You look at him playfully nudging his side

“Yeah whatever” barking out a laugh

Sitting down next to you, he shares his story, the house filling up with laughter and coziness. 

Late at night once the moon shines bright and the house is quiet, you slip off to the guest bedroom the box in hand as you look through all of those photos again.

Holding the necklace close to your heart silently crying. You were happy you really were but sometimes that small feeling in your heart makes you miss him. What life could have been with him as your husband, everything you talked about. You can see him in little things around your life. 

Out of nowhere you hear small whimpers, the Doberman nudging your side trying to give you comfort. 

The next morning your daughter posts that video up on TikTok and it starts to go viral some good and some bad. 

Johnnylefttoe: Can your dad fight?

Jinsusedshirt: wait your mom has good taste 😍

Sansarmpit: Can your mom fight?

Thewind: Can she be my mom?

Xiaojunssweatyleftarmpit: wait if she said their schedules didn’t match does that mean they didn’t try long distance? They could have made it work if they really wanted to but it sounds like they just gave up 🙄

Notthewind: If my wife still had stuff from her ex I would divorce her IMMEDIATELY

Marklemonade: wait why does she still have that if she’s married??

A/n: It’s not grammatically correct but I really wanted to put this out! I’ll probably fix it later today who knows. Also I was going to post a happy writing for Sugurus bday if I went to the gym BUT I didn’t so I decided to post this sad one instead because I’m so disappointed on myself for not going to the gym lmao anyways enjoy! So happy birthday to my man!

TW: Grief, mention of child loss during birth

🎵-come by adrianne lenker

“I’m sorry but we did everything we could but your daughters gone” the doctors voice echoed in suguru’s ear. What do you mean gone? He just saw his daughter! Maybe the doctor got the wrong parents?

“We can give you an hour with her. If you wanna say anything to her” And with that the doctor left geto in his own world.

9 months of waiting. 9 months of coming up with baby names. 9 months of building a nursery 9 months of going to doctors appointments and leaving with hope. 9 months of him promising you that you’ll be an amazing mother and him an amazing father. 9 fucking months of him waiting to hold his daughter. 9 fucking months just for it to be gone in a single second.

All he could do was stare at your hospital door wondering how he would tell you. He couldn’t face you. He didn’t have it in his heart to tell his wife that their daughter came and left quietly. He just couldn’t.

“Suguru!” His mom’s voice echoed through the hallway with excitement.

Your parents and his walking towards him with a bright smile. Holding balloons with “congratulations” or “welcome baby girl” written on them, stuffed animals for the baby they’ll never get to meet.

Once they finally noticed his demeanor they knew something was wrong.

“What’s wrong?” Your parents voice came out worried, already thinking the worst. Thinking they lost their daughter and grand child, only being right about one thing.

“Umm” suguru tried his best to clear his voice. “The doctor said we lost the baby” his voice wavered.

Everyone just stood still in disbelief. “What do you mean?” His father said. Your parents hugging each other, your mother crying. His mother quickly hugging him, and that just made Suguru bawl his eyes out like he did when he was child. He felt like a little kid at that moment.

“Can you guys tell everyone not to come please?” He sniffles while still holding his mother. “ But everyone would want to give their condolences. They should come” his father said in a soft voice.

“I know but I just want to be with my wife right now. My wife will need me and I know she’s going to be overwhelmed so please.” Pulling back from his mother to look at everyone.

everyone understood, seeing their figures disappear into the distance. Now his big concern would be how to tell you.

Opening the door he quietly made his way towards you.

“Hey sweetheart, how are you?” Giving you a kiss on your head, acting like if nothing was wrong.

“I’m exhausted, but it was worth it now that our daughter is here” your voice coming out tired.

Oh how this was breaking him even more.

Looking around the room you noticed how empty it was. Like you were another patient and not like you just gave birth. Not even a crib in sight with your daughter in it.

“Honey? Where is our daughter?” The uneasiness leaving your mouth. Your heart pounding against your chest. Maybe the doctors took her for a small checkup? Perhaps she needed to go back to the nursery room?

“Pretty girl” his voice exhausted,tired. Making you more alarmed. “ why don’t you rest so more hmm?” Giving you that fake smile you knew all too well.

“Suguru, where is our daughter!” Your hands fly to the collar of his shirt without you even thinking. The tears threatening to come out.

“I’m sorry sweetheart but-“

“DON’T” your voice boomed throughout the room,cutting him off before he can even finish.

Your hands violently shaking as you let go of the collar of his shirt. This couldn’t be happening. No this can’t be. It was like the air in your lungs were punched right out of you like you didn’t know how to breath at all.

Every single moment you dreamt of with her flashing in your mind. What she would’ve looked like, what her voice would have sounded like, her first words,first steps, her first day in school, her graduation, her wedding. Every single thing you wanted slipping through your fingers.

All Suguru could do was hold you while you screamed and cried “Not my baby, Suguru please not our child” over and over again.

Everyone outside could hear your screams and cry. It was a sound that he never knew you can make, he never wants to hear this sound coming out of you again. Patient’s in the next room over holding their own child,kissing their forehead thankful that their child was able to live but heartbroken that your’s couldn’t.

Your doctor just sitting outside your hospital room hands in his hair. No matter how many times he sees something like this it never gets easier.

Once he heard your cries die down a bit he decided that maybe it was time to say everything you needed to your daughter. You didn’t hesitate to say yes you just wanted to see her.

Once they brought her in it was like your heart was ripped from your chest. There she was lying down, cold to the touch, not moving.

“We’ll give you an hour with her” the doctor said. Maybe an hour was too much and you’d get attached to her but what else can he do? Deny the grieving mother to see her child?

Your trembling hands reaching out for your child. In a different world his tiny hands would reach out to you but not in this one.

Carefully bringing your daughter towards your chest tears spilled out all over again. Why couldn’t she be warm? Why couldn’t you see her eyes? What did you do to deserve this?

Suguru’s shaky hand gently touches her head, taking her out of your arms.

“Oh my pretty princess I’m so sorry” his breath hitches looking at his daughter.

The hour passes by, the doctor coming into your room, not wanting to let go they had to forcefully take her away from your arms for good this time. The room felt suffocating, like the room was getting smaller and smaller every time you took a breath. A breath that your daughter never took.

Why was the world so cruel? Why did the world give you hope for parenthood?

“Babe where are you going?”

“I’m going to the lunchroom “

“Honey, please I’ll go you shouldn’t be wal-“

“Suguru please I need air I don’t wanna be here anymore”

“Okay”

You expected him to put up more of a fight but just like you this was effecting him as well. Walking out of the room you headed down the hall, ignoring the pain that was shooting throughout your body. Going through hours of labor for what? You deserve to feel this pain for losing your daughter.

Not thinking your feet take you towards the nursery unit. Standing in front of a giant glass window seeing all the tiny babies, wrapped in pink or blue.

Looking around you looked for your daughter. Maybe they brought you a different persons baby instead of yours maybe if you look close enough your daughter would appear.

Suguru looking at you from a distance, you think he’d let his wife who just gave birth walk all by herself?

You felt a hand on your shoulder immediately knowing who it was .

“Look honey our daughter is right there. The baby the doctor brought in wasn’t ours” not looking away you point to a random baby with a sad smile on your face, being in denial about your reality.

“Hon-“

“I want to hold my baby, I want her to grab my finger with her tiny hand I want what I was promised Suguru” small sobs came out of your mouth. Not caring that people are looking at you with pity.

“That’s my baby, OUR baby right there! It’s our child! She has your purple eyes, she has my face she’s has everything that is ours!”

Suguru’s hand find their way to your thighs and lift you up, making sure you wrap you legs around his waist and putting your arms over he’s neck.

“Let’s get you to bed honey” kissing your cheek he takes you back to the hospital room.

Why?

That’s all he can say why.

Was it because he did someone wrong? Why did he have a heart when his daughter didn’t? Why did he plan for a future for his daughter if she wasn’t going to be in it? Why did the universe rub it in their face by seeing other people be parents ? Something that they wanted so bad!

Screaming at the heavens on how unfair it was, unfair that some people who don’t want to be parents are but not them! It was like the universe was pointing and laughing at them for getting their hopes up!

BEEP BEEP BEEP

“Hey, my love, sorry I didn’t see your call. I had my phone on silent for some reason. I can’t remember when I put it on silent, to be honest.” A slight giggle leaves your mouth.

“Anyways, I just got off of work and am heading home now! I’m thinking about something delicious for dinner, but I want to know if you had something different in mind? I know you’ll probably be back super late, but I still want you to have some food in your stomach, my love. And don’t worry, I made it up to you by buying you your favorite type of mochi! I bought like 15 small boxes of them, hopefully that’ll make up for the missed call! And if that doesn’t work, I’ll smother you with kisses until you forgive me. Call me back when you get the chance, okay? I love you so much, Satoru. Never forget that, okay? I’ll see you at home, mwah!”

BEEP BEEP BEEP

🎵-I listen to a bunch of different songs lol

Slightly suggestive

a/n: hope you guys like it